A hot scene

I was perusing my blog list and came across a post that spoke to me in a way that coincides with my mood.

A slave is tied down on a table, exposed and immobile.  He has a machine slowly fucking his ass.  His Mistress has rolled a condom on his cock and is using a Venus 2000 masturbation sleeve to tease his cock.

In the next shot the machine is still slowly fucking his ass. You can barely see it, but he cums into the condom as the Mistress removes the stimulation on his cock and rubs and squeezes his balls to get more cum to release.  I imagine it was a ruined orgasm instead of a full orgasm.

In the next shot, his Mistress carefully removes the condom to keep it's contents inside and proceeds to drip the slaves cum into his mouth.  All of this is happening with his ass still being slowly fucked by the machine.  If I was in his shoes I would have a hard time opening my mouth.  I like to think I would have a gag in my mouth that would not allow me to refuse my cum.

Next, the slave is locked into chastity again.  I am not sure why she stopped the machine.  I wouldn't.

Lastly, Mistress leaves her slave, still bound, still being ass fucked with the nasty taste of cum in his mouth.  I can only imagine the thoughts running through his mind afterward.  I know mine would be shame and disgust, but at the same time strong mental arousal.

Very hot indeed.

Thursday night date night

Mistress and I had our date night on Thursday night.  While Mistress was getting ready, I prepared the bed.  I pulled out the straps we keep hidden under the mattress and placed some towels on the bed.  I pulled out the toys we use the most and put them on the dresser next to the bed.  Mistress let me out of chastity before I showered and so that I could clean myself well and stay clean until later.  I put on one squirt of my new perfume, and some fishnet suspender hose before getting dressed in my male clothes.

We went to a happy hour and had a few appetizers and cocktails.  On our way home Mistress told me what I was to do when we got home.  I was to light the candles we have in the room and put on some music.  Then I had to put restraints on my wrists and ankles and strip down so that I was only wearing the fishnet hose. I was to put 3 large rubber bands around each thigh, blindfold myself and then tie down my three limbs.

Once I was secured to the bed Mistress entered the room.  The started by going around the bed and tightening the 3 limbs that were already secured.  Then she went to my free arm, clicked a clip onto the restraint and tightened that limb down.  I was held down tightly and my cock was rising just from the bondage.  Mistress then left the room to change clothes or remove clothes, I don't know since I couldn't see.  The rest of what happened is kind of a blur so I don't necessarily remember the order of events.

Essentially Mistress alternated putting generous amounts of lube on my cock before stroking me to an edge.  She would hit my inner thighs with several implements from a rubber stick the width of my finger to a flexible metal rod that you snap against the skin.  It's so thin and light that it hurts like hell and leaves a heck of a mark.  Mistress would also use these implements on my balls.  Mistress put clothespins on my nipples for a good 15 minutes and when she took them off she rrubed the blood back into them causing a rush of pain.  By far the worse thing Mistress did was snap those rubber bands against my inner thighs.  It's crazy to think 20 cents of rubber bands are the implement I fear the most.

At one point I asked Mistress to please put a clothespin back on my nipple(s).  That set her off.  After that I got about 3 minutes of constant smacking with what I believe to be a riding crop.  She smacked my cock, balls and inner thighs non-stop while scolding me for being a pushy bottom.  She told me that my blog posts have been too pushy, and that she was not here to fill my wish list, and that I needed to focus less on things I want her to do to me.  After that, Mistress took a pair of panties that old cum stains in them.  She poured some water into them and shoved them into my mouth so she didn't have to hear about what I wanted any longer.  I could have easily pushed the panties out of my mouth, but after what I just endured I chose to leave them in.  

So Mistress did an amazing job of stroking my cock and right as I got to the edge and told her I was about to cum, she would snap a rubber band or hit me in the balls or smack me with something else.  It was back and forth, and I would go from amazing pleasure to excruciating pain.  I wanted the pain to stop, but the pleasure was so good that I more than willing to endure the pain to keep the teasing going.

After about 45 minutes, Mistress decided it was her turn, so she unclipped my limbs so I could fuck her.  She had me rinse out my mouth and come back to bed.  When I got back to the bed I tried to go down on her, but she refused me that pleasure.  I easily put my cock in Mistress but before I could give her an orgasm I had to stop so I wouldn't cum without permission.  Mistress' expert teasing session had me perilously close to cumming.  Mistress had me pull out so I could use my fingers to make her cum which she did quite easily once my finger rubbed across her G-spot.  As soon as she would cum she would have me put my cock inside her.

As we did this, we talked.  I told Mistress that I was surprised how much I am liking being dressed up around her.  I confessed that I was enjoying it much more than I thought I would.  I told her that for the first time in my life I could see myself doing this long term.  She told me that she really likes me dressed and that she is planning on pushing me much further.  She really likes how submissive I have become.  When I am dressed up, I am less snarky, I have less male ego and machismo.  I am more open to obeying.  I don't really remember all the details but what I walked away with was that now that we are down this path, there is no turning back.  I will continue to be more and more feminized.  I will be more and more controlled.  Chastity is likely to be full time.  Not because she doesn't trust me, but because of the control it gives her and takes away from me.

As we talked, Mistress continued to have me alternate between fucking her with my cock and making me cum with her fingers.  She asked me if I wanted to cum, and I assured her I didn't.  She told me that if I did, I would be locked up in chastity first thing in the morning.  I asked what if I didn't cum and she said, "same thing", so I was in a lose/lose situation.  Mistress did assure me that she liked me to orgasm enough so that I remember how good it feels.  I entered Mistress again and she talked about how she was going to cum all over my cock.  I asked for permission to cum and she gave it to me.  I quickly filled her with my cum while I gave her another orgasm.  I mumbled about how she just won, making me so desperate that I couldn't stop myself.  Even though I just came, my cock was still rock hard (thanks pharmaceutical industry!) so I continued to fuck Mistress.  I had no fear of prgasming again.  Mistress kept cumming and I kept pushing my cock inside of her.  After a few minutes I couldn't go anymore.  Mistress let me catch my breath before she told to do me what I hoped she wouldn't .  She told me to lick my cum out of her pussy.  As I put my face between her legs to eat my own cum, I felt so owned.  I would do anything to be treated this was.  My shame and disgust were quickly overcum by feelings of arousal and submissiveness.  After I gave Mistress one more orgasm, she said she was done with me.  I cleaned up the toys and the bedroom so we could finish our evening relaxing.

Yesterday I spent the day replaying Thursday nights events in my head.  While our scene was intense and exciting, it was the communication that I was most excited about.  The fact that Mistress isn't only indulging my feminization, but that she is going to push me deeper and deeper.  To think that something I used to do a few times a year in a sexual context will now be a near full time part of my life, scares and excites me.  Seeing Mistress become more and more confident about controlling me, hurting me and punishing me is a dream come true.  I have spent almost 30 years of my adult life chasing this need of being controlled.  I have had brushes with it in the past, but this is the most hopeful I have ever been.  I think we will succeed this time because I have gotten out of my own head.  I am devoted to Mistress and the process of her owning me.  I will do my best to not pull back when things get intense and I believe Mistress will push me forward if I do try to pull back.  Things are looking great.

Here is the aftermath of my beating.  The bright red lines are from the rubber bands and the bruising from the large rubber stick.  I love wearing the marks she gives me!!!

      

Post Orgasm Thoughts

The other night Mistress and I were going to bed.  I really hadn't anticipated sex of any sort, but after a minute of kissing and fondling each other, Mistress wanted my cock inside of her.  I got on top of her (I still had my nighty on) and put my cock inside her.  Mistress reached up under my nighty and pinched my nipples.  There is something about still being dressed in my nighty when we have sex that makes me feel very submissive.  It had been 10 days since my last orgasm so I was certainly on the upper end of being aroused.  Unfortunately I was just a bit too sensitive to go very long inside Mistress.  Once she sensed this I was given the order to cum.  I was so close to the edge at the time, there was no way I was going to deny myself this opportunity.  After I came I prayed that Mistress wouldn't make me eat my cum out of her.  After about 30 seconds she told me to clean her out.  I put my mouth on her pussy and my tongue inside her and started scooping my cum out of her with my tongue.  At the time I so didn't want to do it, and even thinking about doing it now makes me cringe a bit.  But at the same time my cock just got super hard writing about it.  The act doesn't turn me on, but being forced to do it does.  After about 20 seconds of me cleaning up my cum, Mistress told me to put my fingers inside her.  As I brought her close to orgasm she told me to keep licking as she was going to cum in my mouth.  10 seconds later she was gushing on my face as she had an orgasm.  I kept working my fingers inside her as she told me to keep licking.  After another half minute or so, she told me we were done.  I was well used at that point.

As I cleaned myself off, I realized I had post orgasm drop. I was still in my nighty and went through a bit of shame as I always do.  That's one of the reasons I like to deny my orgasms as much as possible.  I woke up the next morning still let down a bit.  Because of this I was reluctant to get myself dressed in feminine clothes in the morning.  However since I am committed to doing as I am told and really wishing to be pushed harder in this lifestyle, I reluctantly got dressed.  Just this act got my libido up a bit.  I was still a bit too down to post to this blog, but I was trending in the right direction.  I still wore panties and a camisole at work so I had that in my mind all day.  This morning I again got dressed feminine and obviously my libido is up enough to post.  Replaying the other night as I write this has me hard and horny.

I will always have orgasm drop.  By Mistress putting these rules and protocols in place the drop doesn't last long.  In the past I would rebel a bit after an orgasm.  I would "forget" orders she would give me before I came.  As I disobeyed, Mistress would pull back as I appeared to be disinterested, and our D/s lifestyle would go in reverse.  Now that I have rules in place, and Mistress has demonstrated she will punish me instead of pulling back, I feel like we have momentum.  There is something to be said about pushing even harder after an orgasm.  Making me submit when my libido is down is a great mind fuck.  

Now that I have had my orgasm I want to keep working on being intimate as much as possible so that I can focus on Mistress' pleasure.  I love being used by Mistress and not having her take my pleasure into account.  I have had a long held fantasy of being a sex slave and this really goes a long way toward that.  My purpose is to please her and be used as she sees fit.

Here are a couple more outfits that I have been wearing.  I am trying to wear something new each day but that gets harder as I get deeper into my closet.

     

The last couple days

The last couple days have been interesting.  On Friday, Mistress texted me to tell me my post was quite naughty.  When I got home from my trip, I sat next to Mistress on the couch thinking about my post.  Inside I was slightly embarrassed but not too much.  Mistress commented that my toenails needed to be painted on Saturday.  I usually keep them painted 24/7 from October through April, but with all of my trips to the hospital she waived this requirement.  At bed time Mistress kept grabbing at my nipples asking if they hurt, and they did, perfectly so.  I did a number on them.  Her teasing was perfect.

Yesterday I woke up and painted my toenails pink.  I love having my toenails painted!  The rest of the morning found us doing our normal errand running and shopping.  In the afternoon, we played some cards.  She won the first game by a huge margin, and I won the 2nd.  We decided to add a 3rd game with a bet.  If I won, Mistress agreed to plan the best D/s scene she has ever done for me.  If Mistress won I agreed to plan the most romantic date I have ever planned.  With consequences, we both played our most competitive game ever.  In the end I won.  While I am obviously ecstatic about winning, I have come to the realization that I may end up regretting winning.  A major case of be careful what you wish for!

After playing cards we went to the hot tub. Eventually the conversation came around to our lifestyle.  Now that my health is better, Mistress instructed me that I am again to be dressed feminine 24/7 when I am at home.  When I come home from somewhere I have 30 minutes to get dressed.  If I am out of the house I have to wear something under my clothes, top and bottom.  If I go in our back yard I cannot cover up or change clothes.  If I am in the front of the house, I have to stay dressed but I can put on a robe.  Mistress also wants me to acquire additional bras to wear as they are so restrictive and uncomfortable.  I encouraged Mistress to be as cruel and strict with me as she wants to and bras seem like a good next step.

After the hot tub, I came into the house and realized I had nothing feminine to wear.  I ran upstairs and put on one of my sluttiest dresses.  I was hoping Mistress would be turned on by it.

Mistress told me it was too slutty and that she likes me in classy clothes.  She also commented that a new rule is that I now have to wear women's shoes in the house. That had previously not been required.  I think Mistress didn't require shoes before as she was being nice and didn't want my feet to hurt.  Now I believe she is taking my recent comments about being stricter to heart and has added shoes to my required uniform.  Be careful what you wish for.

When we went to bed, Mistress instructed me to put towels on the bed.  Mistress let me keep my dress on as we climbed into bed. We started having sex and I got close to the edge a little too fast.  Mistress had me use my fingers on her.  She then had me get out the lube so she could stroke my cock.  We alternated between my cock inside her, my fingers inside her, my mouth on her pussy and her stroking my cock.  When Mistress would squirt she commanded me to lick it up. Mistress got frustrated about my need to keep stopping so I didn't go over the edge.  She made comments about how I needed to start lasting longer or she would find a guy to fuck her properly.  That is the first time she has ever talked like this.  I hate to admit it, but I found the talk to be exciting.  

Mistress also scolded me for torturing myself on my trip.  She tugged at my nipples while telling me that I will be spending a night in the cage for having a scene with myself.  I begged her to lock me up right then and there.  She refused.  I knew that by writing my story, I might end up getting punished.  I guess I know I deserve it.

Mistress stated commanding me to cum.  I begged Mistress not to cum, but she was relentless.  I finally came and put a week's worth of cum into her pussy.  She commanded me to lick it out.  At first I refused and then I feared what might happen if I didn't, so I sheepishly crawled between her legs and started licking.  I don't know how much I got out of her, but I stayed there until she told me to stop.

Afterward we cleaned up, I put on my nighty and we went to sleep.  I felt like a used up slut and I loved it. 

I woke up this morning expecting to be drained.  Instead my mind instantly went to yesterday and I replayed everything over again.  It turns out I woke up as horny today as I have been in some time.  When I got out of bed I went to the spare bedroom closet, where my feminine clothes are.  I wanted to show Mistress the mood I was in.  Instead of slutty, I picked out a classy little back dress (like Marilyn Monroe's white dress, but in black.).  I am also wearing 5" black pumps with a strap.  When Mistress got up, she commented on my shoes.  It's funny.  Wearing a dress around the house doesn't affect me the way it used to, but by adding heels, I am much more self conscious.  The dress by itself I can kind of ignore, but there is no way to ignore heels.  I wonder if I will get used to heels at some point?  Either ay, I am feeling very naughty this morning!

Well I am signing off for now.  Going to hot tub with Mistress again and then go put on some naughty clothes under my male clothes to go to a friends house to watch football.

I love being a little sissy slut!

I'm back, I think...

I  have had some recent health issues that are finally coming to a resolution.  It's been nearly 2 months since they started which means our D/s lifestyle has taken a back seat.  I have been fortunate however that it hasn't been completely eliminated.

A little over 2 weeks ago I was fortunate enough to have Mistress give me a bondage session.  It was Sunday and we went to brunch.  We came home, and continued our Sunday - Funday.  I was sent upstairs to our bedroom to get the room and myself ready.  I put on my pink leather cuffs and pulled the straps out from under our bed.  I stripped, put on some music and some toys from the night stand.

I was in a particularly naughty mood and wanted to give Mistress some ideas when she got to the bedroom.  I took 2-25 clothespins and put one on each nipple and the rest on my cock and balls.  I also took our spider gag strapped it around my head to force my mouth open.  I attached both legs and one arm to the straps under the bed and pulled my blindfold down over my eyes.

Mistress came in and proceeded to tie down my remaining arm and then she went around the bed tightening the straps.  She alternated between using the Hitachi on herself, pulling off a clothespin at a time, hitting me in the balls and stroking my cock with coconut oil.  I was in absolute heaven.  The clothespins hurt, but in the right way.  The spider gag made it so I couldn't talk, it hurt in the right way and made me feel very vulnerable.  She could put anything in she wanted to in my mouth and I couldn't stop it.  It had been 48 days since my previous orgasm so I was delirious with desire when she stroked my cock and edged me.  Mistress kept asking me if I wanted to cum.  I did, but there was no way I was going to tell her.  I wanted her to keep edging me until I broke and begged her to let me cum.  Instead she forced me to have an orgasm against my will.  I was very powerful and I had a bunch of cum after such a long wait.  Mistress surprised me and scooped the cum from my orgasm and fed it to me through the ring gag.  It was disgusting, and I would have stopped it if I could, but at the same time I was thrilled Mistress was doing this to me.  I love it when she does things to me I don't like.

I was spent afterward but we spent some time in the hot tub, and some dinner and then watched some TV.  I was still worked up from such a hot scene that I initiated sex with Mistress again.  It had been a long time since I got to orgasm twice in one day.

The very next day I had to go in for another procedure and since then have been recovering.  My libido has been close to zero, but that is quickly changing.  I have been playing the scene above in my head a lot lately.  I have been fantasizing about clothespins a bit, but the spider gag much more.  I was able to get Mistress to give me some wine that she spit from her mouth into mine.  While wine or champagne are an erotic way to use the gag, my fantasies run darker.  I dream of spit, piss and lots of cum being forced into my mouth.  I think of having lemon juice, hot sauce or other irritants put into my mouth against my will.  I also fantasise about being tied in sitting or face down or locked in the dog cage and the gag forcing me to drool all over myself.

Not me, but how the gag fits

I am not 100% healed yet, but my mind is back in the game.  While I can't take a hard beating for a few more weeks, I can certainly start working on my femininity again as well as any other things Mistress wants me doing.  I am back!              

Used the way I should be

Yesterday Mistress finally used her sex slave the way he should be used.  The focus was on her and her orgasms.  We started with me on top inside of Mistress.  It had been 4 weeks since I had been inside her so I was ready to cum after about 90 seconds when Mistress had her first orgasm.  For Mistress' next orgasm I had to use my fingers inside her.  Mistress had me kneel by her side so she could stroke my cock while I fingered her.

Mistress had a couple more orgasms and she could barely stroke me 10 or so times before I was pulling away from her expert hand.  I put my cock back inside her and begged her not to let make me orgasm.  I told her how I want to denied orgsms for so long that I agree to do the most debased things she can think of.  How I want to be overwhelmed with desire and be used and abused.

Mistress had me get the Hitachi and she started playing with herself.  She told me to stop touching her and to stroke my cock.  I was warned that any cum that escapes my cock needed to be licked up.  Well that did it and I had a couple teaspoons drip out.  I quickly scooped them up with my fingers and went back to stroking.  I could only manage about 6 strokes each time before I had to stop myself.  Mistress alternated between giving herself orgams and having me do it.  Then Mistress started talking about bringing another woman into the bedroom.  I moaned.  She tentatively started to mention bringing a man in and I told her I was now at a place in our relationship where she could start teasing and talking about bringing a man into our world.  Mistress mentioned a guy sucking my cock, and then having me suck him off instead. This is still a hard limit for me, but I see no harm in bringing the discussion into our world if for no other reason than to push buttons.   Maybe someday my stance will change.

I pulled my hand away from my cock to avoid getting too close to the edge.  Within seconds I felt a pulse and before I know it my cock was dripping cum.  Then cum was boiling out of my cock and down the shaft.  A lot of cum.  I reached down and started scooping the cum into my mouth.  It took several attempts to get it all.  Overall it wasn't too bad but a couple globs made me think twice about what I was doing.  I think I can be safe saying that it's the most cum I have ever eaten - so far.  After I cooled down a bit I put my cock back inside Mistress and fucked her trying to get myself close to orgasm.  At this point my body and subconscious mind wanted an orgasm even if my submissive mind didn't want one.  But it didn't happen. I came too much to have an orgasm.  I could have kept fucking Mistress, but our room got too hot and Mistress was worn out from many gushing orgasms.  At the time I denied it, but now I can say for sure I had a ruined orgasm.  I don't think I could have made it any more ruined if I tried.

I got up and got dressed in some women's clothes.  For the next few hours I had that common let down from cumming.  I was feeling insecure and felt "off".  However it didn't last long.  Being forced back into my feminine role immediately was the best thing I could have done.  By bedtime I was getting my desperation back.  I picked out a nighty I never pick for myself as it has padded inserts.  I was ready to be back to a sissy slut.  I fell asleep replaying the day in my mind.  I relished the idea of Mistress using me the way she did with no guilt.  I thought about us doing this more frequently so that I can be trained to please her better and trained to hold back better.  I smiled as I thought about how eagerly I cleaned up my cum and how good it made me feel obey her unconditionally.

By morning I woke up with a massive hard on.  Whatever drop I had last night is long gone.  I was excited to get up and put on my feminine work out clothes.  I am working from home today and am feeling particularly naughty.  As I play back yesterday in my mind, I wouldn't change a thing except maybe not ruining my orgasm. I get turned on thinking about how I am a cum swallowing, sissy slave for my Mistress.  A slut to be used and abused for her pleasure.  I am in my happy place.  

I thought it would never stop

A great night and a humiliating week.

My 400th Post!

Last night Mistress tied me up for the first time in nearly 4 months and it was awesome.  While I was tied up, Mistress hit me in the balls, and used implements on the insides of my thighs.  She teased and edged me with her hand and the Hitachi and she also put a vibrator in my ass so I was buzzing everywhere.  After a short tease Mistress untied me and told me to take care of her.  I started with my mouth and ordered me to use my fingers.  I then switched to the Hitachi and my fingers.  I was trying to get her to squirt all over so I could lick it up.  I then put my cock inside her and quickly gave her an orgasm.  It was while I was inside her she gave me a set of instructions for the week.  She told me I had to wear something feminine (top or bottom) at all times when I am at home.  I was so horny I doubled down and said, how about I don't get to wear anything masculine while I am at home, I have to be 100% in female attire.  She agreed and added that I was also to wear something feminine under my clothes whenever I left the house and it had to be more than just panties.  I also have to paint my toenails and fingernails with clear polish.  

At this point, she told me to cum, then get dressed and then clean my cum out of her pussy.  I delayed, as it was feeling too good to be inside her.  Then the horny, submissive (and a bit buzzed from drinks we had earlier) guy I am wanted more.  I have been fantasizing about being locked in the cage.  I decided to offer my own torture.  I knew that getting dressed in feminine attire wouldn't be too big of a deal, but eating my cum would be nearly impossible especially with time passing after I came.  I wanted to make it more difficult.  I told her that I would cum inside her, then I would get up and get dressed in my cheerleader costume (since it was football Sunday) and when that was done I would clean my cum of out of her pussy with my tongue.  Failure to do so I asked her to lock me up in the cage.  She said it would be for 2 hours if I failed, and after 2 hours if I didn't have a great attitude I would be spending the night in the cage.  Now before I came, I had planned in my mind to get dressed as a cheerleader and then refuse to eat my cum, therefore I would get locked up in the cage.  In fact, if she took me to the cage without an orgasm I would have happily gone, I was that horny.

What happened was not as I planned.  I came, hard.  I then got up, put on a humiliating cheerleader costume (not really a costume as it's from a cheerleader store) and I went straight back to Mistress and put my face between her legs.  I couldn't imagine spending he next 2 hours in the cage.  I was so turned on by the amount of control Mistress was displaying.  Despite just having cum, I licked Mistress's pussy with passion and used my tongue to scoop out what I could.  Mistress told me I was done and to go feed the dog.  I spent the rest of the night in the cheerleader outfit and with sub-drop I was experiencing, I was more than humiliated.  A really good erotic humiliation.

This morning I got up and put on pink workout shorts, a pink shirt and a pink pullover along with pink socks.  I am working from home today so after my workout I will get shaved and put on something more appropriate for working from home.  

Playing everything back in my mind has been a huge turn on.  I love the helplessness of being tied up and blindfolded.  I love Mistress teasing and denying me and making me confess more and more of the things I would do.  I love/hate when Mistress makes me eat my cum, but I am getting more and more used to it.  I still fantasize and fear being locked in the cage.  The threat of it it real.  I like thinking of the cage as the thing that can make me do more and more things that challenge me.  I am embarrassed yet thrilled at the thought of being dressed up all week.  I am looking forward to being Mistress's humiliated little sissy slut that is willing to do anything she asks.  I am also looking to have more rules and protocols in place.  Things that reinforce my place in our relationship and also gives her opportunities to punish and correct me.  I yearn for ways that allow me to serve Mistress and make her desire to use me more and more.  A true sex slave...

    

Chastity and Periods

Mistress mentioned that she liked the idea of me being locked during her periods as a reminder of what she is going through.  I was looking for some relevant blogs.  This is the most relevant one I could find.

http://flr-reading.tumblr.com/post/144909606913/chastity-and-orgasm-control-the-28-day-cycle  

This woman has it down to a science.  She has his entire month of chastity and orgasms synced with her monthly cycle.  28 days perfectly choreographed.  She goes from giving him 4 days of orgasms (5 a day) to a dead stop (the day she starts her period) to maximize his compliance when she needs it the most.  When her period is over his libido is built back up.  In the premenstrual days he is at his most obedient.  He is only unlocked 4 days a month and whenever she desires sex for the other 24 days.  His peaks coincide with hers.  Kind of hot really.    

That means he is locked 313 days a year (shudder).

A couple articles referenced in the post are linked below.

http://www.dreamloverlabs.com/harnessego.php

https://ladylubyanka.wordpress.com/2008/04/16/prostate-milking/

A different take on "ruined orgasms"

Here is the 2nd post I saw that intrigued the heck out of me.  The term "ruined orgasm" is always something I have taken to mean as less pleasurable.  I have posted in the past about how there is a good reason to use a ruined orgasms to keep the post orgasm let down to a minimum so that the male submissive is aroused sooner.  This woman takes the concept to the next level.  She uses ruined orgasms to immediately use her man.  Here is a good synopsis in her words.

Whereas a normal orgasm causes him to go limp and enter what doctors call the “refractory period” where he is no longer motivated to have sex, a ruined orgasm has the opposite effect – it causes him to stay hard, fully aroused, hyper-energized, and HIGHLY motivated to have sex.

But that’s not all.  It also relaxes the urgent release channels, in his brain, temporarily raising his tolerance for sexual pleasure and increasing his stamina.  Simply put… a man who’s been ruined once or twice (or more!) in a single night can fuck you harder and longer than you ever thought possible.  He can fuck (or get fucked) continuously, relentlessly, at full intensity until you’ve had as many orgasms as you want and you’re both thoroughly exhausted.  Go ahead, get sweaty!  Let him wreck you!  Flip him and ride him to your heart’s content!  He will stay rock-hard the entire time, and he won’t cum!  Or, if he does cum, it will only be after a long, intense lovemaking session, far beyond his normal, natural physical capacity.  It’s fucking AWESOME!  Some of the best sex you will ever have!

I have experienced this myself a few times.  It usually when I am inside Mistress and I leak a bit.  The need to cum is reduced and I can then go forever.  It feels good (not as good as a full orgasm) and when I do eventually go over the top it's stronger.  It's hard to stop at just the right time.  The other time I experience it is when I am edging.  Sometimes I stop and 30 seconds later cum oozes out. I lick up my own cum because I haven't had a full orgasm and the horniness is still there.  If I went over the edge, I can't imagine freely eating my own cum.  I then stop as I don't trust myself to be able to stop like that again.  There is a huge benefit being tied up as Mistress can more effectively stop than I can.  I would define this as a minimized orgasm in order to have a fuller orgasm.  It's the closest a guy can be to multi-orgasmic.

There is much, much more to her technique which can be read here   http://healthysexymarriage.tumblr.com/post/145637171302/the-ruined-orgasm

Mind Altering

I had forgotten the effect chastity has on me.  Especially now that I have found a device I can wear with minimal discomfort.  Several times last night I woke up and when I did, my mind went straight to naughty thoughts. I had many ideas go through my head.  Some, I am sure were dreams and others were just thoughts that came to me, but I'm not sure which ones were which. Needless to say, my chaste brain is going a million miles an hour.

• My old device was bulky and somewhat uncomfortable.  It meant that many of the feminine items I have couldn't be worn while I was in chastity.  This new device has proven to be able to be worn with anything which makes feminization and chastity much more imaginable.  Also a tiny pink device is much more feminine than a polished piece of stainless steel.  My other device "looks" masculine.

• I dreamt of Mistress telling me she wants me to wear pantyhose when we are together as she wants to feel my sexy smooth legs more as well as seeing me in pantyhose and shorts around the house.  The humiliation would be awesome.

• I dreamt of wearing an anklet, feminine toe rings as well as frilly nail art

• High heels

• Being locked in chastity and forced to use a strapon to make love to Mistress.  So emasculating.

• While I have been wearing nighties, I have been thinking about other night wear, especially teddies.

• Teased in my device with no orgasm.  Forced orgasm and locked back up immediately.  Ruined orgasm and locked up immediately.

• Clean up duty.  I imagined having to wear a condom while having sex. Afterward Mistress would take the contents and pour them into my mouth.  She would then turn the condom inside out and make me lick it clean.  She would then put the condom in my mouth and tell me to keep it in my mouth until our room was cleaned and all the toys were put away.

• Electric torture

• Nipple torture / zipper

• The Cage - scares me, but turns me on too

That's all for now.  Suffice to say, I am a horny little mess that would do just about anything to prove it!

Take 2

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Clean up duty

The other night Mistress and I had some after work cocktails, a nice bath and some naughty time.  I was able to have Mistress let me tease and deny her with my fingers.  I would get her close to the edge of orgasm and stop.  It frustrated her, but I was able to convince her to let me do it a few more times.  In between edging her I also put my cock inside her and edged myself with her pussy.  When I thought she was ready, I went ahead and made her cum with my fingers.  She came harder than I expected which I attribute to the edging.  I gave her a few more orgasms and each one was wetter than the last.  She was cumming so hard I loved it.  Mistress had me put my cock inside her.  I was wanting to cum, but not quite there.  I asked Mistress to egg me on a bit and she started telling me how I was going to eat the cum out of her pussy once I came.  Now I hate doing it, but I went from half way ready to cum, to not being able to stop from cumming.  In no time I was asking permission to cum and it was granted.  I came hard, and Mistress didn't miss a beat, she told me to clean her out.  I was reluctant, but also didn't to see that would happen if I refused.  I also knew that the sooner I started, the easier it would be as I still hadn't had my post orgasm drop yet.  Had I waited the task would have been much harder.  I cleaned up what I could and proceeded to give Mistress one more super squirty orgasm.

The next morning, Mistress told me I could expect to do that every time I cum.  I kind of brushed it off, but at the same time it certainly is in my mind. I don't like it, but that makes me like it.  The loss of control on my part, and her taking more control is so hot to me.  Making me do things she knows I don't like is also super hot.  I think about what might happen if I decide I don't want to do it.  Is it a cage-able offense?  It is if she says it is.

This situation reminds me of something a read a while ago.  The Mistress made her slave cum into his hand and then roll 3 dice.  For each dot on the dice the sub had to wait 10 seconds before he could eat his cum.  A minimum 30 seconds and a terrible 3 minute wait for it to get all cold and his horniness to drop off.

So while I don't like my new task, I am very excited to see where it takes us...

Sexual Sadism

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Chastity and Stuff

On Saturday Mistress confirmed she thinks I should be in a device I can easily wear long term.  Now it's a matter of figuring out color and size.  Black looks cool and goes with anything, however I am partial to pink, hot pink or purple in order to add some erotic humiliation to the mix.  Pink would add an extra level of fear of being caught.  In order to get the sizing correct I have been measuring multiple times.  Soft, hard, over several days.  Today to get my hard measurements, I edged a few times.  I watched some girl on girl porn with Mistress favorite Domme.

 

  
While watching and edging, a little bit of precum came out.  In exchange for the privilege of edging I have promised to eat any cum that spills out.  This usually keeps me well from the edge, but sometimes I leak without even being close to the edge.  I scooped the cum off the tip of my cock and licked it off my finger.  I ended up having to do it a few times.  I then went to work out.  When I got to the basement, I noticed my cock still dripping.  There was enough to taste yet again.  yuck.

The rest of my workout I had a glob of cum sitting in the back of my throat.  It definitely put me in a more submissive state of mind.  All workout my mind was spinning with ideas.

Last night I had a dream, but it was more of a verbal dream as I don;t remember any imagery.  Mistress and I were in bed and Mistress told me to put on one of my dresses.  I asked her which one and she told me to pick one.  I begged her to pick one for me and she told me know.  I remember going into my closet wanting to wear one of the 2 that are hidden in the back, but never got that far for some reason.  It's not often I dream about feminization so I think that helped with my mood this morning.       

Flip of the switch

It's been quite a while since I posted.  The week of Feb 7th Mistress went on a road trip.  Instead of being locked in my full chastity device Mistress agreed to let me wear my Prince Albert Lock.

  Although Mistress trusts me its main purpose was to keep me honest.  I was planning on spending quite a bit of time out with friends and this was intended to be a constant reminder of my place as well as a way to keep me from putting my cock where it doesn't belong.  It also had a side effect I hadn't planned on.  I have stretched my piercing quite a bit from when I first got the lock.  The gauge of the lock felt more like a small wire and it managed to irritate the tip of my cock.  This even prevented me edging while she was gone and my pretty much doing anything to avoid any movement of my cock.

After Mistress returned we both managed to be sick for nearly 2 weeks as well as general life stuff getting in the way.  For the last few weeks we haven't had much going on, and for the most part I haven't thought much about kink in any shape or form.  I have only managed to edge a couple times this entire month.  Friday night that changed.  Mistress mentioned my painted toenails looked like shit.  Indeed they did.  I hadn't touched them in a month as we had not been in that realm.  She told me she expected them to be repainted no later than the next day.  Well that did it.  A switch in my brain had been flipped.  I woke up way too early on Saturday morning due to my mind racing with naughty thoughts.

My mind started thinking about painting not only my toenails, but also my finger nails.  I started thinking about panties, bras and nighties.

I fantasied about Mistress teasing and denying my cock or even worse, making me cum and eat it.  I thought about wearing feminine items under my clothes.  We have a quick trip coming up and I thought about Mistress torturing me in our hotel room.  I thought about being humiliated, hurt, and used.

I thought about me pulling some of our dungeon equipment out of storage for a good beating.  I thought about going back into chastity.  I spent time measuring my cock for a new chastity device I hope to order when we have some extra money.  In short, I am a horny little mess again.

One side effect of life getting in the way of intimacy and kink is that I have only managed to have 2 orgasms this year so far.  When I was in my device last, I had begged Mistress to keep my orgasms as limited to no more than once a month if not much longer.  Of course I had different ideas how it would look, but I am still happy I am a chaste slave desperate for my Mistress.

Ruined Orgasms

Just some ruined orgasm stuff that has my mind spinning.

Nice description - http://ruinedorgasm.tumblr.com/post/133197697924/hardonebattle

I dream of this...

Slut Shaming

I ran into this post this morning, and I shuddered a little inside.  I can't stop watching it...

Princess always laughs at my humiliation

This speaks to me on many levels.  The blue shimmer dress, the stockings, the pink bra, the hair with a pink bow, the slutty panties, the bracelet and especially the nails painted to match the dress.  I'm certain there are a pair of slutty heels that we just can't see.  I know he is looking at the nails on his hand as he strokes.  With the nail polish they look like someone else's, but he knows it's his own.  The reason I shuddered is I have done a combination (not all at the same time) of these things in the past so I know how I would feel.  Getting all dressed and made up, it would take a long time.  Looking in the mirror and feeling so slutty and sexy knowing what was about to happen.  Getting myself in a relatively uncomfortable position.  Aiming my cock at my face just so I can cum on myself all because I am wired a certain way.

It wouldn't take long for me to cum and on so many levels I wouldn't want to cum.  As I get close to the edge, emotions wash over me.  Knowing the shame I will feel as the post orgasm let down hits me, but I would still want to cum anyway after taking so much time getting ready.  As I started to cum I would be tempted to open my mouth, half because I want to be sluttier, but half so I don't have to clean so much cum from my face.  After an amazing orgasm I know the shame would run all over me.  I would get up and the cum would be dripping all over.  As I go into the bathroom to clean up I would see my reflection and wonder why I am so fucked up in the head.  I'd wonder how I got this way and if I would ever be "normal".  I'd also know that no matter the thoughts and regrets I had, I would eventually put myself in a similar situation again.  A slave to my submissive soul as well as a slave to my Mistress.  As I remove the makeup I would be amazed at the amount of time spent getting ready and getting cleaned up, all for a few minutes of ecstasy.  Over the next few hours I would think about what I did, the shame running over me time and time again.  Over the next few days the shame would turn to arousal and I would fantasize about doing it all over again, but being even more slutty and depraved the next time.  It's a major mindfuck to get turned on by deep shame.

As I wrote that I kept thinking of Mistress tying me this way, and after making me cum she would say "I am going to leave you tied up until that cum dries.  I want you to think about what a slut you are".  Or worse, she would unite me and not let me clean up.  My post orgasm self fighting the need to clean up.  The humiliation would be the worst.  So fucking hot...

Pic above came from this blog http://selfcumeating.tumblr.com/archive

Tumblr

I've had a Tumblr blog for a few years at https://www.tumblr.com/blog/mbbsboy

As of today I have 324 followers and I have made 4,937 posts.

I like Tumblr because it can be as little or as much as one wants to post.  I can also post things that intrigue me without having to explain them, so depending on my mood there are some fairly extreme posts on my Tumblr.

I see one post get reblogged constantly and it's extreme enough that it surprises me.  That made me wonder which of my Tumblr posts are the most popular.  Here are the top 10.

9247 reblogs

5959 reblogs

819 reblogs (this is the one that surprised me the most)

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