Friday, June 28, 2013

If I were a girl

There is no doubt about it.  75-85% of straight D/s porn out there depicts women as the submissive.  So many of the Tumblr's I see have these amazing bondage scenarios, tortures, outfits, etc where the woman is the submissive, it sometimes makes me wish I were a girl.  Even gay porn has some really great scenes, but I am not gay or bi, so I am always imagining the Dom is a Domme.

Search for porn where the guy is a submissive is a challenge unless it's chastity or cuckolding.  Google or Bing something like "predicament bondage" or "outdoor bondage" and it's less than 20% of male subs.

That got me to thinking.  If I were a girl, with the same brain I have now, what would I want?  Since MBB is a little bi, I would still want her as my mistress.  And since I would have the same brain as far as kink is considered, I would be lesbian and not bi.  If I were a girl, Mistress would make me...

Wear heels all the time
See the full gifset here!
Make me dress slutty when punishing me

Corset punishment


Force multiple orgasms from me until I was crying

View the full gifset here.

Make me go without panties in public

Make me play with myself while in the car


She would use toys on me and make me clean them off with my mouth
image

She would tie me up in impossibly tight positions


She would use the fucking machine on me non-stop

  
She would make me sock cock until I choked


Torture me with another girl


Use my mouth








Gush all over my face


What I realized on this post was 2 things.
1.  These are all things I wuld like to do if I was dominating a girl.
2. Most of thhese things I don't have to be a girl.  Most could be done to a boy, it;s just that there is little imagery that supports this.






Thursday, June 27, 2013

Nighty Night & Today's Edge

Last night Mistress had me wear a nighty.  She told me a few hours before bed that I had to wear one and she didn't remind me at bedtime.  Thank goodness I remembered on my own.

There is no way in the word for me to sleep in a nighty and not think about very nasty stuff.  First, putting it on in front of her is humiliating.  Humiliation is good to put me in a certain space.  Then every time I wake up, I have to situate the nighty, and that in turn makes me think about what a slut I am and the things I love to do when I am in this frame of mind.

That got me thinking about a blog post I found the other day. Below is what I edged to today.  They are some highlights from this page http://girlscanbesocruel.com/Overview.html

3. NAKED DAYS. About 10 days per month I use my power as "Queen" to declare it a "Naked Day."  What that means to my slave is that he is naked all day that he is home.  Despite the fact that we have been married for many years, he finds being naked in front of me to be quite humbling.  At the end of each Naked Day I allow him an orgasm as a reward for all of his hard work..  When he orgasms at the end of a Naked Day, it is always through some form of humiliating masturbation.

5. HIGH PROTOCOLS.  I never really felt drawn to "High Protocols" like a lot of Doms however I do insist on certain rituals that keep him in his place and on his toes. My goal is to keep him in sub space and strip him of his dignity because I know that is what he wants.

6.  BE YOURSELF.  At first I tried to be like what I thought a Dominatrix was supposed to be and it never felt right.  I am not into the Dominatrix thing at all.  That's just not me.  I'm a demure girl from a small town in Rhode Island. Whatever you do create a style that you feel completely comfortable in.  My style is quiet but very strict.  I never raise my voice.  It took some practice and research however trust me when I say that I can be the cruelest of girls ever! He has told me that in the times I have pushed him beyond his comfort zone and made him regret that he was in this predicament that these later became his best masturbatory fantasies.

7.  MASTURBATION.  If it were up to him he would have two orgasms every day.  I use masturbation as his primary reward for being a good slave. Masturbation requires no work on my part and it is very embarrassing for him.  At the end of each Naked Day, I never offer to let him masturbate. Instead if he wants to cum, which of course he does, he must ask permission. When I am done with his service and nakedness I will tell him that I am ready for him to get showered, get dressed and return to his role as my husband.  I don't say it however if he wants to cum which he always does, he must kneel in front of me and with flaming red cheeks he says, "Mistress, may I please masturbate?"  I give him permission to masturbate every time or he seems unable to function back in the role of my husband until he cums so I never withhold orgasm as a punishment or he drives me crazy. 

8.  BACK UP TASKS.  Some days he has more time than other days.  In the Slave Journal I maintain a list of things that need to be done around the house, but not necessarily that day.  Thus, when he has extra time he can complete some of the optional tasks.  If he does something that really pleases me in a timely fashion, he gets a pleasure reward.  If too much time goes by and I notice he has not completed an undesirable task, he is punished with work that is twice as hard as the original task that he procrastinated with.

9.  BREATHERS.  Breathers are critical to our Dominance/Submissive (D/s) dynamics.  I call them "Breathers" because they are a breather for me in terms of dominant energy.  I use Breathers when he wants to play and I don't have the time, interest, or energy.  I use Breathers sometimes when he is horny and I am on my period.  I also use Breathers on Naked days as a reward of sorts.  Breathers are ways for him to suffer for up to two hours but can never take more than 10 minutes of my time.  Like many submissives that I have read about, my husband has a very rich fantasy life.  I gave him one week to come up with a list of 25 tasks that he would find to be humiliating.  The Breathers are kept in an envelope in the back of the Slave Journal.  On Naked Days, or sometimes when he has indicated that he wants to play that night, I draw a "Breather" from the envelop and make him perform the Breather while I read, nap, eat ice cream or watch TV.  I generally pick the Breather from the envelope a day or two before I am going to actually use it so I can let it bake in my brain as I always try to expand on his fantasy so it has my own flavor to it.

10.  PUNISHMENT. In order for the D/s scenes and lifestyle to be real he must have the fear of genuine punishment looming over his head.  Let's say he has done a good job cleaning the house but not a great job, I punish him. Let's say he had a bad attitude, I punish him.  Let's say he forgets to do something, I punish him. I love to find reasons to punish him.  Here are some of the methods I use that have worked really well for me.  A)  I make him bend over, touch his toes and I paddle him with a ping pong paddle.  I reserve this for serious infractions and I give him very hard swats. He hates it and therefore rarely makes the same mistake twice.  B)  We have a tool shed that is as hot as a sweat box on some days.  I banish him to the shed, tie his wrists to the rafters and leave him in the dark for one hour with an overly ripe banana smeared all over his groin, ass and underarms as bait for the flies! D) I think this is a fairly common punishment based on things I have seen in fem dom chat rooms, however making him write punishment lines is very effective, i.e., "I promise to put the toilet seat down."  My twist on this is that I have him use the toilet as a table

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Today's Edge, The Darker Side

So yesterday's edge had me thinking about the nicer, funner side of D/s.  Yesterday afternoon and this morning I have been thinking about the darker side.

Over the last year or so, I have done a few things that I have not been proud of and has upset MBB.  From losing my collar, staying out too late, being too rough in bed, and occasionally being disrespectful, I have been less than stellar.  Now MBB has been forgiving and that has been very much appreciated.  However in  my somewhat twisted fantasy world, she would have exacted some sort of retribution.  After being forgiven I would have to redeem myself in any way she chose.  Now what I am about to write is stuff I probably would not like, but because I was forced to do them I would eventually come around to be turned on about it.  There is something about not being able to say NO.


  • Chastity.  Anyone that has red this blog knows that I really don;t like chastity, especially as a form of punishment.  MBB tends to not play D/s when she is upset with me so to be in chastity with no D/s, would suck.  I imagine a certain amount of days with no breaks as my sentence.
  • Good old-fashioned beating.  I recently read a blog post where a mistress chained her slave face down to a bed, beat the slave well, threw a blanket over the slave and left the slave overnight chained to the bed.  The slave was not happy, but respected the situation eventually.
  • Cage time
  • Writing lines.  Just like in elementary school, writing lines for hours.  Some Mistresses add distractions like plugs, gags, restraints etc.   Others require reports or stories but they don't seem as tedious.
  • Cum eating.  Not forced like I actually fantasize about.  Willingly eating my cum a certain amount of times before D/s happens again.  Whether is cleaning my cum out of MBB, cumming in my hand and eating it or some other way.  This would force me to debase myself to even things out.
  • Hard Labor.  We have a rather large yard that always has work needing to be done.  I have read posts of some Mistresses that put their slave to work in the yard.  The dress him or undress him how they want and put him to work.  Some of it is meaningless like digging a hole on one end of the yard and filling one on the other end or moving large rocks just to move them.  They add collars,plugs, etc. To add the punishment most will sit in the shade or sun bathe while their slave works.
  • Electricity.  We have a shocking dog collar as well as a TENS unit.  They can both be kind of fun, but they can also be excruciating.
Now I have known about a lot of these things for some time, but have never mentioned them due to how much they would suck.  However with the dark side of my brain working, I decided to post them.




Monday, June 24, 2013

It's been a while - today's edge

It's been sometime since I have edged.  MBB and I have been extremely busy for the last month or so with work and home.  Most everything is now back to normal, so hopefully we can get back to our normal.

My edging today was me imagining being tied to our bed very tightly.  MBB stroking my cock, and verbally teasing me about how she is not going to let me cum.  She gets me super worked up and takes nice long breaks while she just lightly teases my cock, keeping me hard, but not even getting me close tot he edge.  Then she would edge me again and go back to the slow agonizing tease.

While verbally taunting me she would ask me all sorts of questions.  Asking me if I want to wear panties again, asking me if I would wear a nighty every day for a month without being told to.  She would ask me if I wanted my cum filled panties in my mouth.  She would tell me to tell her nasty things I would do for her.  If it wasn't nasty enough she would stop stroking and start hitting my balls until I got nasty enough.  She would get me to agree to anything.

She then unties me, and makes me service her with her favorite glass toy.  After she cums again and again she tells me it's time for bed.  I don't get to cum, but I am worked up like nobody's business.  I sleep poorly with all sorts of naughty things going through my mind and by morning she has me eating out of her hand willing to do anything for an orgasm.