This is one of those posts I hope that I regret writing very soon.
First off, let me state that I am a very happy man. I have a wonderful relationship with my Mistress. I get along with her better than I have gotten along with any other person in my entire life. On top of that we are moving along quite well in our D/s lifestyle.
As I sit here writing this I am in chastity. I don't want to be. I am also in a maxi-dress and I would totally be cool with being in sweats and a t-shirt. That being said, I absolutely love that I am locked in chastity and in a dress. I love the strictness Mistress is demonstrating.
As I stated above I am a very happy man. I fear this post will come across as me being a pushy bottom, but at the same time, I don't think it's right for me to not communicate my feelings. I am yearning for Mistress to be meaner to me.
Yesterday I was being snarky and Mistress threatened to put me in the cage when we got home. Now half me me will be fine if I never spend another minute in the cage, but at the same time, my other half wants to challenge Mistress to lock me up until I am begging to be let out.
This same line of thinking goes for many things. As much as I dislike chastity and I'm in a device I don't really care for, I am thrilled to be locked up. Having to dress feminine is a task I frequently could do without, but I am absolutely enamored with Mistress making me do it as well as holding me accountable when I don't. Having to eat my own cum after I cum inside of Mistress pretty much disgusts me, but being forced to do it is so amazingly hot. I can't explain how great I feel after I have endured something I didn't want to do.
This morning my mind was racing with other ideas. I was imagining being tied face down and having my ass beat until I was in tears. I imagined being locked in the wooden stocks and in high heels for an hour or 2 until my legs were shaking uncontrollably.
First off, let me state that I am a very happy man. I have a wonderful relationship with my Mistress. I get along with her better than I have gotten along with any other person in my entire life. On top of that we are moving along quite well in our D/s lifestyle.
As I sit here writing this I am in chastity. I don't want to be. I am also in a maxi-dress and I would totally be cool with being in sweats and a t-shirt. That being said, I absolutely love that I am locked in chastity and in a dress. I love the strictness Mistress is demonstrating.
As I stated above I am a very happy man. I fear this post will come across as me being a pushy bottom, but at the same time, I don't think it's right for me to not communicate my feelings. I am yearning for Mistress to be meaner to me.
Yesterday I was being snarky and Mistress threatened to put me in the cage when we got home. Now half me me will be fine if I never spend another minute in the cage, but at the same time, my other half wants to challenge Mistress to lock me up until I am begging to be let out.
This same line of thinking goes for many things. As much as I dislike chastity and I'm in a device I don't really care for, I am thrilled to be locked up. Having to dress feminine is a task I frequently could do without, but I am absolutely enamored with Mistress making me do it as well as holding me accountable when I don't. Having to eat my own cum after I cum inside of Mistress pretty much disgusts me, but being forced to do it is so amazingly hot. I can't explain how great I feel after I have endured something I didn't want to do.
This morning my mind was racing with other ideas. I was imagining being tied face down and having my ass beat until I was in tears. I imagined being locked in the wooden stocks and in high heels for an hour or 2 until my legs were shaking uncontrollably.
I imagined being put on the treadmill in heels. I frequently think about Mistress assigning me tasks to do around the house, the more menial, the better. I imagine having to go to the store to buy embarrassing things. I imagine Mistress finding ideas online and making me do them. I have been dreaming of being taken for a car ride dressed in womens clothes. I imagine setting up the massage table in our room so Mistress can have me massage her whenever she wants.
This is starting to become a "do me" post and I didn't want it to be that. In closing I just want to let Mistress know that I am as happy as I could be. I am also wanting to communicate that if Mistress has any desire to be meaner, or to have me be more service oriented, or to make my slave life any more difficult, I am up to the challenge. I want to suffer. As I said, this is one of those posts I hope that I regret writing very soon.