My head was spinning. Her saying that just before bed was such a mind fuck Then I started to question myself. What kind of guy gets so turned on about being locked in a cage? A cage I know will be brutally boring. Then it hit me. It's not the cage. The cage is just a tool. It's the loss of control. Then I realized that every little thing I fantasize about is about control. Whether it's bondage, chastity, a collar locked around my neck, women's clothes, humiliation, shaving, nail polish, butt plugs, cum eating, beatings, breath-play, serving my Mistress, chores and even cages, those are just tools for what I really crave, loss of control. As I thought more about it, asking her to be meaner is just me asking to have more control taken away from me. It even seems less mean to me when I look at it this way.
As I tried to go to sleep after her comments my mind started running through scenarios. I tried imagining how it would look. What would she make me wear? I thought about having to get on my knees to be able to crawl into the cage. I imagined the lock being clicked shut. I imagined the lights out and me sitting in the dark. Even though I would be bored, my submissive mind would be running a million miles an hour. Then I imagined being let out. The humility I would feel. Doing everything in my power to be positive about the experience.
I am excited and a little scared about being locked in the cage. That being said, I intend to own it 100%. Mistress is right, I have egged her on. Not to be a pushy bottom, but because I want her to be confident doling out punishments when I deserve them. I want her to know I am more than OK with her tightening her grip over me. I also want to train myself to accept my fate. By accepting punishments gracefully I can grow in my submission and serve my Mistress better.
In closing I want Mistress to know I am looking forward to a new experience. If she wants to lock me up earlier and/or later, I will not question it. Whatever she decides to make me wear, or make me do I will do. I will be positive when I go in the cage, while I am in the cage and when I get out of the cage. I will thank her for doing this for