Sunday, December 18, 2016

Meaner and/or pushing limits

This is one of those posts I hope that I regret writing very soon.

First off, let me state that I am a very happy man.  I have a wonderful relationship with my Mistress.  I get along with her better than I have gotten along with any other person in my entire life.  On top of that we are moving along quite well in our D/s lifestyle.

As I sit here writing this I am in chastity.  I don't want to be.  I am also in a maxi-dress and I would totally be cool with being in sweats and a t-shirt.  That being said, I absolutely love that I am locked in chastity and in a dress.  I love the strictness Mistress is demonstrating.

As I stated above I am a very happy man.  I fear this post will come across as me being a pushy bottom, but at the same time, I don't think it's right for me to not communicate my feelings.  I am yearning for Mistress to be meaner to me.

Yesterday I was being snarky and Mistress threatened to put me in the cage when we got home.  Now half me me will be fine if I never spend another minute in the cage, but at the same time, my other half wants to challenge Mistress to lock me up until I am begging to be let out.

This same line of thinking goes for many things.  As much as I dislike chastity and I'm in a device I don't really care for, I am thrilled to be locked up.  Having to dress feminine is a task I frequently could do without, but I am absolutely enamored with Mistress making me do it as well as holding me accountable when I don't.  Having to eat my own cum after I cum inside of Mistress pretty much disgusts me, but being forced to do it is so amazingly hot.  I can't explain how great I feel after I have endured something I didn't want to do.

This morning my mind was racing with other ideas.  I was imagining being tied face down and having my ass beat until I was in tears.  I imagined being locked in the wooden stocks and in high heels for an hour or 2 until my legs were shaking uncontrollably.

I imagined being put on the treadmill in heels.  I frequently think about Mistress assigning me tasks to do around the house, the more menial, the better.  I imagine having to go to the store to buy embarrassing things. I imagine Mistress finding ideas online and making me do them.  I have been dreaming of being taken for a car ride dressed in womens clothes.  I imagine setting up the massage table in our room so Mistress can have me massage her whenever she wants.

This is starting to become a "do me" post and I didn't want it to be that.  In closing I just want to let Mistress know that I am as happy as I could be.  I am also wanting to communicate that if Mistress has any desire to be meaner, or to have me be more service oriented, or to make my slave life any more difficult, I am up to the challenge.  I want to suffer.  As I said, this is one of those posts I hope that I regret writing very soon.        

1 comment:

  1. Your feeling are very understandable and Mistress should know your feelings. I don't feel you are topping from the bottom it's more like you are begging Mistress to take you further and push your limits. You like most submissives want her to be stricter and make you comply. I'm sure he will see your post and have an idea for her. You mentioned your tread mill. She should have you naked on the tread mill. She should have her strap on. With you standing on the tread mill and her feet on the sides of the mill she should enter you then turn the mill on and have you walk with her deep in you and pumping you and reminding you that you are her slut to do as she desires.