|Fantasy vs. Reality|
I am dressing a little more low key than I had hoped. I am blaming it on my orgasm on Sunday. Also Mistress isn't directing what I wear. That is forcing me to own what I am wearing and to acknowledge deep down that I enjoy wearing women's clothes. Now this isn't "forced feminization" as I am not being "forced", but I can certainly call it coerced. She suggested and I agreed that any deviation would result in cage time for me. Either way, deep down I like it, as much as I hate to admit it.
Wearing these clothes for so long as well as having to pick out my own outfits is causing me to feel a bit more feminine on the inside. I love the coziness of what I have been wearing as women's clothes are made with such nicer fabric than male clothes. Since Mistress has told me that I can't wear the same thing more than once, that will be a challenge later this week as my outfits will become more and more risque' out of necessity. I am dreading and looking forward to it at the same time.
The best part of all this week;s experiment is that I am becoming less embarrassed about being dressed in front on Mistress in a non-sexual or D/s way. While I am a very masculine guy, I am also getting comfortable with it, it could feel "normal" to me. If Mistress really wanted it, I hate to admit, but I can see this being a long term part of our relationship. When she looks at me dressed this way with a certain evil look in her eyes, it goes deep into my soul. There is something about her hugging me and kissing me when I am wearing clothes like this. that I feel almost like her girl friend.
Yesterday I had mentioned rules and protocols. Based on the conversation Mistress and I had the other night during sex, I think she would like to add some protocols. I have come up with some ideas.
- Making her coffee in the morning.
- Kneeling at her feet when she snaps her fingers
- Kissing Mistress feet or shoes on command (just to make a point)
- Open and close the car door for her at all times
- Filling Mistress glass whenever it runs low
There are hundreds more protocols out there, but I don't want to lead too much. I do like the concept as a way to keep my mind focused as well as giving her additional opportunities to punish misdeeds.