Yesterday morning we were up to our normal routine. I was cooking breakfast and was a little snarky. Mistress mentioned that I may need to spend some time in the cage today. I scoffed at the idea knowing that wasn't going to happen. Mistress went and worked out, while I removed my toenail polish and repainted my toenails. Mistress finished her workout and we were hanging out. Out of the blue, Mistress said that when my toenails dried I needed to go put my butt plug in. She then told me that I was going to be spending some time in the cage. I was very pleased and surprised. I hadn't planned on playing today.
She then said that the next time I wonder what she is up to, that I just need to ask her. I do not need to sneak into her phone. Busted! The night before Mistress had rolled over to go to sleep. I was turning out the lights and as I was doing so, I noticed Mistress phone on the nightstand didn't have a charging cable hooked up to it. I hooked up the charger and had a quick moment of insecurity. I unlocked her phone and was just about to get into her text messages when she flipped over. I quickly put the phone on the nightstand and then tried to lock it. It was probably way more obvious than I thought at the time. I had no clue she was on to me.
I already felt bad about what I did. I have never had a reason to not trust Mistress. When she said this I felt deep shame and embarrassment. In the past I would have denied what I did or justified it or somehow deflected what I did. In this case, I just accepted my fate. Mistress also stepped out of her typical response. Normally, she would get mad, call me out on it, and be distant for a few days. In this case, she took a D/s approach, and punished me. This allowed me to reflect on my behavior, genuinely apologize and thank Mistress for punishing me. I believe this allowed her to call me out on my behavior, punish me accept my honest apology. Instead of dwelling on what I did, we can move on. A big difference between a vanilla relationship and a D/s one. Punish, apologize, accept and move on.
As a side note. I find it convenient to have the password to Mistress' phone if I need to get into it for any reason. However I don't like the temptation. I like the concept of Mistress having full access to my phone and computer, and I have zero access to hers. In our D/s dynamic, she has an absolute right to privacy while I willingly give up all of my privacy. I feel that adds extra vulnerability and control of me.
I went and put in my butt plug. I came back to where Mistress was sitting and I told her I was ready for my punishment. We went to the cage, and I used the restroom one last time as I had no idea how long I would be locked up. In the mean time, Mistress went and grabbed the straight jacket. She had me put it on. As she fastened the buckles, I noticed how the straps that go between the legs pressed on the base of my butt plug. Mistress told me to get in the cage. To do so, I pretty much had to crawl on my forehead to get into the cage. It was humiliating. Mistress closed the cage door and put a padlock on it. She then left me to go take a bath. I had a long time to reflect on my behavior. Being in the straight jacket made my time in the cage much more challenging since I couldn't use my hands to make myself more comfortable. My chastity device dangled between my legs and I couldn't adjust it to make it more comfortable. Lying on hard plastic until numbness sets in and then moving would cause new pain. Every movement I made pushed on the plug in my ass. It quickly went from kinky to real punishment. I was fortunate Mistress didn't blindfold me, collar me or add many other challenges she could have. Mistress let me out after a couple hours. I would have guessed 2.5-3 hours. I actually thought there was a good chance that she would leave me there longer. I was grateful she didn't.
The rest of the day went normally. We went out last night, and when Mistress and I got home, she had me remove my device and we got in the bed for me to sexually serve her. While we had sex, we talked about the days events and future plans. As I again thanked Mistress for handling my bad behavior with D/s she assured me that she will keep doing this and will make it much worse next time. She also talked about making our spare room a punishment room as well as where my feminine side will have her own room. She added that I would soon be wearing makeup and my wig much more often. Very soon I will be wearing feminine smelling deodorant and perfume. After Mistress had at least a few orgasms, she told me she was done with me. I was to lock my cock back up and get into bed. I was in absolute heaven.
I am totally enamored with Mistress right now. I am in awe of how she had handled an issue that is difficult in any relationship. I am loving how confidentially she has me pleasing her sexually without concerning herself with my pleasure. Pleasing her is pleasureful for me. I am truly loving the the physical intimacy we have had the last few days. I am loving Mistress pushing my feminine buttons and making do more and more in this area of our life. I really hope we stay on this course. I so want to be completely owned by Mistress.
She then said that the next time I wonder what she is up to, that I just need to ask her. I do not need to sneak into her phone. Busted! The night before Mistress had rolled over to go to sleep. I was turning out the lights and as I was doing so, I noticed Mistress phone on the nightstand didn't have a charging cable hooked up to it. I hooked up the charger and had a quick moment of insecurity. I unlocked her phone and was just about to get into her text messages when she flipped over. I quickly put the phone on the nightstand and then tried to lock it. It was probably way more obvious than I thought at the time. I had no clue she was on to me.
I already felt bad about what I did. I have never had a reason to not trust Mistress. When she said this I felt deep shame and embarrassment. In the past I would have denied what I did or justified it or somehow deflected what I did. In this case, I just accepted my fate. Mistress also stepped out of her typical response. Normally, she would get mad, call me out on it, and be distant for a few days. In this case, she took a D/s approach, and punished me. This allowed me to reflect on my behavior, genuinely apologize and thank Mistress for punishing me. I believe this allowed her to call me out on my behavior, punish me accept my honest apology. Instead of dwelling on what I did, we can move on. A big difference between a vanilla relationship and a D/s one. Punish, apologize, accept and move on.
As a side note. I find it convenient to have the password to Mistress' phone if I need to get into it for any reason. However I don't like the temptation. I like the concept of Mistress having full access to my phone and computer, and I have zero access to hers. In our D/s dynamic, she has an absolute right to privacy while I willingly give up all of my privacy. I feel that adds extra vulnerability and control of me.
I went and put in my butt plug. I came back to where Mistress was sitting and I told her I was ready for my punishment. We went to the cage, and I used the restroom one last time as I had no idea how long I would be locked up. In the mean time, Mistress went and grabbed the straight jacket. She had me put it on. As she fastened the buckles, I noticed how the straps that go between the legs pressed on the base of my butt plug. Mistress told me to get in the cage. To do so, I pretty much had to crawl on my forehead to get into the cage. It was humiliating. Mistress closed the cage door and put a padlock on it. She then left me to go take a bath. I had a long time to reflect on my behavior. Being in the straight jacket made my time in the cage much more challenging since I couldn't use my hands to make myself more comfortable. My chastity device dangled between my legs and I couldn't adjust it to make it more comfortable. Lying on hard plastic until numbness sets in and then moving would cause new pain. Every movement I made pushed on the plug in my ass. It quickly went from kinky to real punishment. I was fortunate Mistress didn't blindfold me, collar me or add many other challenges she could have. Mistress let me out after a couple hours. I would have guessed 2.5-3 hours. I actually thought there was a good chance that she would leave me there longer. I was grateful she didn't.
The rest of the day went normally. We went out last night, and when Mistress and I got home, she had me remove my device and we got in the bed for me to sexually serve her. While we had sex, we talked about the days events and future plans. As I again thanked Mistress for handling my bad behavior with D/s she assured me that she will keep doing this and will make it much worse next time. She also talked about making our spare room a punishment room as well as where my feminine side will have her own room. She added that I would soon be wearing makeup and my wig much more often. Very soon I will be wearing feminine smelling deodorant and perfume. After Mistress had at least a few orgasms, she told me she was done with me. I was to lock my cock back up and get into bed. I was in absolute heaven.
I am totally enamored with Mistress right now. I am in awe of how she had handled an issue that is difficult in any relationship. I am loving how confidentially she has me pleasing her sexually without concerning herself with my pleasure. Pleasing her is pleasureful for me. I am truly loving the the physical intimacy we have had the last few days. I am loving Mistress pushing my feminine buttons and making do more and more in this area of our life. I really hope we stay on this course. I so want to be completely owned by Mistress.
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