Now that I have figured out why I disobey, I am having an easier time obeying. Last night I set out my workout clothes, so I had one less excuse. This morning I was going to wear a jacket over my pink shirt. Instead I have chosen to embrace it. I also am wearing pink socks that were not part of the original order.
Now this is exciting to me. Mistress pushing me in small ways and me obeying even though I am feeling mentally challenged by it. I love the idea of where this can go. Being Mistress's chastised, feminized, obedient slave whose only purpose is to serve her and sexually please her. To be used, abused, humiliated and challenged. To be taken to a place where I will literally do anything she tells me to, just to please her. I'm a lucky man.