An orgasm hasn't helped

Tuesday morning I was released from chastity after 5 days for a Dr's appointment.  Mistress and I had sex on Wednesday morning.  It was the first time we had sex in 26 days and therefore my first orgasm in nearly a month.  I am certain Mistress didn't wait 26 days for her orgasm.  I am sure she has had many which is a very hot idea of her cumming so many times while I don't.

Prior to being locked in chastity I had been going through a very difficult patch emotionally about work.  When Mistress locked me up, an amazing thing happened.  All of that negative destructive energy got redirected into my libido, my sexuality and my submissiveness.  I was very horny and very such wanting to be under Mistress' firm control.

When we were having sex on Wednesday morning I was able to give Mistress an orgasm before I got to the edge myself.  Her pussy felt so amazing on my cock.  Mistress told me to cum.  I begged to not cum, as I didn't want to lose this horny neediness that I had back to disappear.  As much as I wanted to stay orgasm free, my cock really needed the stimulation.  I asked Mistress for permission to cum and in a few strokes was able to fill her up with my cum.  She was kind and didn't require me to clean her up with my tongue.  We got out of bed and spent the rest of the day decorating the house for Christmas and getting ready for Thanksgiving.

Yesterday morning I tried to get a sexual repeat of the previous day.  The orgasm I had Wednesday did absolutely nothing to reduce my horniness.  In fact, I was even more horny.  The chastity and the orgasm reminded me of my place.  My submissive soul was released from the anxiety I had been experiencing for so long.  I believe that D/s has some therapeutic powers for guys wired like me and this seems to be one of those cases.  I was horny and ornery with Mistress most of Thursday morning.  Mistress was annoyed enough that she told me she would have locked me in the cage if she didn't need my help.  I commented, that maybe that was the reason I was being snarky.  She couldn't do much about it.  I spent the rest of the morning following orders and helping Mistress get ready for Thanksgiving.

At bedtime last night my libido was back on 10.  I tried to initiate a bit, but Mistress was tired and didn't let me get too far with my initiation.  That didn't stop my libido.  As I drifted off to sleep I realized Mistress and I had the next full 3 days and nights all to ourselves.  We had nowhere to be, and nothing to do.  My submissive mind quickly started coming up with ideas.  

A couple paragraphs below this one I am going to describe in detail my 3 day fantasies.  I am writing this to communicate and to get it out of my head.  However these descriptions could also be considered me being a pushy bottom.  Below the row of asteriks are my descriptions.  If you believe this communication is me pushing form the bottom, please don't proceed.

Lastly, I have been bad.  At bed time I was so horny I thought about sneaking off to rub one out.  I didn't.  When I woke up at midnight to go to the bathroom, I was awake for about an hour and a half with thoughts running through my mind.  I touched myself The first time I stroked my cock just to get it hard.  When it got soft, I did it a 2nd time.  When it got soft I did it a 3rd time, but before stopping I took two fingers and rubbed the most sensitive part of my cock like a girl would rub her clit.  I managed to edge 3 times before stopping long enough to fall asleep.  When I woke up at 5am, I had a hard-on and proceeded to squeeze it and push it around as it felt so good.  When I got out of bed I had already planned on writing this post.  I knew I would be aroused and had already demonstrated a lock of self control, so I locked myself back up in chastity and left the keys on Mistress' vanity.   Apparently the orgasm I had made me hornier.

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Fantasy #1 - The Prisoner.  This fantasy involves me spending a full 3 days in much the same way a prisoner in jail would spend their time.  Mistress would have me prep everything in advance.  I imagine being put in very plain clothes, like sweats or plain pajamas.  Mistress would take me to our spare bedroom in the basement.  I would already be locked in chastity.  Upon arriving I would see a long length of chain coming from the bathroom in the bedroom.  It would reach to one side of the bed.  Mistress would lock the chain to my ankle to keep me from leaving the room.  She would leave me there for the next 3 days.  Visiting me only to feed me very plain meals.  I would have no phone, no TV, no computer.  It wouldn't be fun, but the loss of control would be so intense for me.  I wonder if I would try to use my safe-word?  She could also change it up.  Lock me up as before, but put me on 'work release' several times throughout the day.  I would be released from my cell only to be shackled to make her meals, be given chores, made to clean the bathrooms, etc.  I might be sent to the wardens office and used sexually before being returned my my cell.  Insubordination or doing a poor job cleaning would be dealt with harshly.  Time in the 'hole' (aka the cage) or the straight jacket overnight.  There are many hot prisoner scenarios online, but the ones over many days are very hot to me.  3 days seems to fit the bill perfectly.

Fantasy #2 - Sissy, Slave, Slut weekend.  I imagine going upstairs as soon as Mistress wakes up.  I would draw a hot bath and shave every hair off of my body, including my facial hair.  When I got done, I would lock up in chastity and I would plug my sissy hole with a butt plug.  I would then paint my toenails and fingernails in a color or colors picked out by Mistress.  While waiting for my polish to dry I would put on mascara, eyeliner, eye shadow, etc.  It's been a couple years since I have worn makeup, so I might need some help.  I would then dress in an outfit picked out by Mistress but most certainly something elaborate including stockings, bra inserts, corsets, etc..  Over the course of the next 3 days and nights I would live as Mistress female slave.  I would be expected to do chores in any outfit she chooses.  I would bathe Mistress. I would shave Mistress.  I would dress Mistress.  I would give her foot massages or full body massages.  I would service her sexually in any way she desires.  My cock would be locked away the entire time.  My ass would have something in it every waking hour and possibly 24/7 if I can endure it.  I would spend incredible amounts of time with my tongue between her legs.  I would be using my fingers, toys, or the dildo gag to give Mistress orgasms all weekend.  I would spend hours sucking on a strap-on either attached to Mistress' hips or attached to something else if she didn't want to wear it.  I would have to put on a fashion show.  Ever time I would see my nail polished hands I would be reminded of how feminine I have become with Mistress' encouragement and assistance.  Every bit of maleness would be swept aside.  Lastly at some point over the 3 days she would take me out of the house fully dressed.  We'd take her car as her windows aren't tinted.  We might even drop me off in one corner of a parking lot and make me walk to the other side.

                                    

Some other ideas I had, but without descriptions.  Collar, multiple predicament bondage scenarios I could pre-setup, panty water, shocking dog collar, gay/trans video torture, self prostate milking, online cam, e-stim, sleeping in bondage, frozen fluids, fucking machine, molly, Walmart humiliation, interrogation, bachelor games, iphone counter game, deepthroat, remote control, forced multiple orgasms, 

Getting worked up

So I have now slept in chastity and a nighty for the last 2 nights.  Mistress teased me a bit last night and threatened to tease me some more tonight, but without taking my device off.  Would that be uncomfortable? Yes.  Would it be as hot as hell?  Yes!

On top of that I cleaned up and rearranged our dungeon.  It's weird doing that as I forgot some of the things we have.  Seeing them all again gets some ideas going.

We have the black version of this.  It's strict and devious.  I imagine being in it and Mistress' pussy inches away from my nose and mouth while she brings herself to orgasm.



We have 2 sets of these.  One in black and the other in sissy pink.  They are designed to lock high heels on the wearer so they can't be removed.  No cheating with these.



I am shuch a shoe whore. I imagine Mistress doing this to me after a night we are out or after a long day of work.  Forced to smell her feet and falling deep into subspace.  There is something called "scent training" that is very powerful.

We also have a sensory deprivation hood very similar to below.  It has a soft, but substantial gag.  Coupled with some white noise through a pair of headphones and there is no telling where you are or for how long you've been there.  It's also nice because the padded blindfold and the gag can be removed to be used separately.

  

The next one scares the shit out of me.  It's the clothespin zipper.  I have even gone the next step and converted a rotisserie from an old grill to slowly automate the process of ripping them off.  I'm sure I will regret doing that sometime in the future.  I've even devised a way of being able to use the rotisserie alone but haven't got the guts to do it.

 

The other thing that scares the shit out of me.  Electric shocking.  Here you see 2 devices we own, and that I hate.  That being said, the fear they put into me makes me very, very agreeable.  It's one of the few things that will make meg beg as well as put the "fight or flight" response into me.

Breath play.  I ran into a plastic bag we use for breath play.  I also have a gas mask that the intake can be blocked.  I also ran into some swimmer's nose plugs which when combined with duct tape is very effective at breath control.  

I also ran into some plastic syringes that make me think of this.

Lastly, I wanted to comment on my chastity.  While I wish I weren't in it (as usual), I'm really, really enjoying everything that goes through my mind while I am locked up.  I like the idea of Mistress being mean to me.  I like the idea of her thinking of ways to push my buttons, frustrate me and even making me mad in a D/s context.  I fantasize about her thinking "how can I be meaner or how can I humiliate him today'?  I am so worked up right now.  

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Cleared a hurdle

Last night as we were getting ready for bed, I was playing a game on my phone wearing my male clothes.  Mistress was in bed, ready for me to turn out the lights and go to sleep.  She didn't mention anything about my male attire either because she didn't think about it or she wanted to see what I would do.  In my own mind I was debating what to do.  I was feeling insecure about putting a nighty on.  I was slightly humiliated at the thought.  My male ego was trying to take over.  I debated a little bit more and decided I really want to do 100% of what my Mistress asks of me, even especially if I don't like it.  That is what true submission is about.  That being said, from about 4 am until I got up, I had many naughty thoughts running through my mind.  I woke up horny as could be.  I got through my self doubt, and submitted.  This is the first time I can ever remember of not letting my macho male ego get the better of me, and doing what I was told to do without it becoming an "issue" in my relationship.  I really feel my mindset changing and the pushy bottom part of me leaving.

For today's edge I thought about Mistress fucking with me this weekend.  Mistress will be going out of town this weekend for about 24 hours.  While I will likely just hang around the house or go grab a drink somewhere, I couldn't help thinking about other possibilities.    I edged to the idea of Mistress telling me to wear a bra and stockings with garters and my chastity device and having me go to a strip club.  Although I think it would be more fun having her with me for something like that.  I edged to the idea of her having me take her to the airport and/or pick her up, but I would be wearing womens clothes (jeans or slacks and a femme shirt, something not obvious but still a mind fuck for me).   If we didn't have our pets, I thought about her putting me in chains, shackles and chastity, naked and putting me in the dungeon and locking the door.  She would have webcams on me the whole time.  I would have a pair of bolt cutters in case of an emergency, but I would be in jail for 24 hours.  I imagined her locking me in the dog cage.  I would have to sit in it until she sent me the combination to the lock. I imagine her giving me a household chore or chores she wants done while she is gone.  I would be judged on how well I completed them.  I imagined Mistress teasing me with pictures of her or her taunting me about her slave at home.

I love my Mistress very much!

Today's Edge - Packing

Mistress and I have a dungeon in our house in a spare bedroom in the basement.  Oou water company needs to replace our water meter and it's in that bedroom.  We are also looking at remodeling and the that room is right below the remodel.  Soooo, I am packing up the dungeon until we get through these projects.  I started packing the other day and that got my mind racing this morning.

My alter ego Sophia has an entire suitcase of clothes (panties, stockings, etc) as well as a partial closet I need to pack or move.  These clothes used to be upstairs, but I moved them when Mistress and I had a disagreement in January.  I haven't moved them back yet.  I did edge thinking about all of the sexy outfits Sophia has.

I packed a ton of hitting implements, to which I edged about thinking about a hard beating with bruises.  I packed the clothespin zipper, hood, blindfolds, gags. etc.  to which I also fantasized about.

I packed a stack of magazines that I spent hours and hours mmasturbating to when I was a younger man.

I packed the cock sucking machine as well as the e-stim machine.  I edged thinking about being electro tortured by Mistress as well as milked dry.

I have about half the dungeon packed and still need to pack the rest and disassemble the furniture.  The rest of the packing should give me more things to think about while I edge.

No Edge Today

Mistress told me we were going to have a session in the dungeon over the next few days.  To save myself, I didn't edge today.  What I did do was go through my Tumblr account.  Holy Cow!  I must have been in some crazy horny moods when I posted some of those.

Deeper and Naughtier

I guess it was inevitable that I was going to get to this stage.  It has been 16 days since my last orgasm.  I am edging again and writing about it.  Mistress has been putting me in a nighty.  All of that plus the 2 of us have been getting along pretty well has me in such a submissive head space right now.  

Today's edge had me edging to the idea of our D/s relationship being more hard core.  Some of the things I was getting super turned on by were as follows.

Mistress would go through my wallet and take all of my debit/credit cards and hide them from me.  She would have me fill my gas tank each weekend and give me a cash allowance (something small like $5-$20).  She would forbid me to make any purchases without her permission.  Anything I would want to buy I would have to ask for money to do it. 

Mistress would make me start taking naughty pictures of myself and posing them on the blog or on my Tumblr page.  Each month about 450 people visit the blog and I wouldn't know who was seeing them.  I'm sure it wouldn't be long before they showed up in other places online.

On Saturday Mistress had her nail appointment, and I enjoyed a bike ride.  This morning I dreamt of being given a task list of things to do or to be locked in the dungeon while she was being pampered.  As I typed that, I thought of going on her appointment with her, but I would have a plug in my ass and would be wearing other kink items.

I did imagine my cock locked up in Chastity.  Stupid Libido.

I imagined Mistress taking me to Drag Shows or other venues to get me conditioned to the idea

I imagined Mistress would make me pay her for sessions

Mistress would tell me what to wear or ask if my wardrobe is ok

I imagined Mistress using the rotisserie that I already converted to BDSM usage to pull a clothespin zipper off of me.

I imagined Mistress whoring me out online to a Master.

I imagined Mistress letting me cut her name or initials into my body

I imagined having all of my feminine clothes back in our room. 

My mind is spinning just thinking of it all

Today's Edge - Fucking Machine

Today's edge had me thinking about the fucking machine Mistress and I have.  I have used it once in my ass, but not with Mistress.  I imagined her telling me to make sure I am "cleaned out" an hour or so before we start.  I get myself ready and cleaned up.  I show up in the dungeon ready to go.  Mistress would either tie me down to the cross on up or down, or on the kneeling stockade.  She would then proceed to lube up my ass and work a finger or some of our smaller toys to get me loosened up a little.  She would then place the fucking machine ready to fuck my ass.  I imagined her telling me that my cock is not going to get any attention (except possibly pain) and my ass will be the focus of my ordeal.  I imagined it being a slow deliberate deep fucking, but of course Mistress could make it fast and furious.  I imagine her playing with the controls with an evil smile as well as making me beg for more lube when things dry out.

I imagine her using her glass dildo on herself as well as our Hitachi.  She would get multiple orgasms all the while teasing me about how I can't orgasm from my ass - or can I?

The dark side of me thinks about her making me cum in the 1st couple minutes of the session so my ass is getting fucked when I am not horny.  I would be cursing her and using my safe-word and having her ignore it. I would be pissy but know deep down it would make me horny thinking about it.

MBB's Friend

I wanted to thank Miss Bossy Bitch for bossing me around lately.  Yesterday I painted my toenails pink, my fingernails clear.  My mind had a little bit of a submissive buzz while painting my nails.  I also had to sleep in a nighty last night.  The nighty was a total mind fuck, because part of the night I couldn't sleep, but I could certainly feel the fabric of the nighty surround me as well as the padded cups giving me breasts.  Add that to the morning edging and I am getting to be quite a mess.  Thank you again MBB!

Mistress Bossy Bitch also happened to mention that she and a friend of hers have recently spoken and intend to meet up.  The only reason this even comes up is that this friend, (I'll call her Miss J) knows about our lifestyle and has expressed some interest in trying some submissive type activities   MBB even offered to let me crop Miss J a while back although nothing came of that.  Now I don't think anything would ever happen, but it doesn't mean my teased and denied brain doesn't have a mind of it's own.  While edging this morning, I thought of a few things.

With me as a submissive...

• Serving MBB and Miss J wine and dinner while I wore a suit or some other "uniform".  I would not be allowed to drink or eat with them as my role would be purely to serve.

• Being made to watch MBB and Miss J be sexual with each other while tied up or locked in a cage.

• MBB using me to teach Miss J how to Domme her husband.

• Miss J would push MBB to be more strict and demanding of me by giving her moral support.

• MBB would have Miss J hold the key to my chastity device.

• Having Miss J meet Sophia (the name MBB has given me when I cross-dress).  I imagine this would horrify me even though it was in my thoughts this morning.

• Be made to Chauffeur MBB and Miss J to dinner, drinks clubs, etc.  I would have to stay in the car.

• Forced cum eating.

• Double penetrated with strapons.

With me and MBB as Dom and Domme (while I mostly like to bottom I think I am a  pretty good Top, but MBB doesn't like to switch)...

• Crop, Cane and Single Tail Miss J.

• Put Miss J in some difficult predicament positions.

• Forced Orgasms - no stopping.

• Electricity!

To reiterate, I have no illusions (or real desire) of any of the above happening and Miss J isn't my type at all.  Things I wouldn't normally consider become easy to think of in my current state of mind.        

Weekly Post

This last week was a good start.  MBB had me prepare our dungeon on Thursday night for some naughtiness.  I found myself tied to the cross with a vibrating inflatable butt plug in my ass while she stroked my cock and teased the fuck out of me. Between the buzzing in my ass and her expert hands that I have missed so much it wasn't long before I was ready to cum.  After extracting dirty confessions out of me, she stroked me to an orgasm...  But she stopped short.  Too Short.  I came, lots, but with no real orgasm.  With the plug still buzzing in my ass, she probably could have ruined a 2nd orgasm in short order.

I would have thought our scene would have taken the edge off.  Instead all it did was make we want MBB to be more of a Bossy Bitch.  I am getting a little sub spacey just thinking about it.  I am really looking forward to her doing things SHE wants to have me do or to do to me.  I want her pleasure to come first no matter that it means for me.  If it's vanilla sex, with or without an orgasm for me, that's what I want.  If she wants me to pleasure her with toys, and I get nothing, that's what I want.  If it makes her wet to beat me to tears and leave me locked in the dark, that's what I want.  I really am wanting to do what she wants.  I believe I can find happiness doing things she wants to do and things I don't think I want to do.  Just the idea is making me hard.  I am in love with my Mistress!      

What I have learned...

Over the last few months, but particularly in the last month, I have figured out a lot about myself.  1st thing is I am not a submissive. That doesn't mean I'm not submissive whatsoever.  It means I go through submissive periods.  These periods can be long, intense and extreme.  They can also be short and lighthearted.  The more intense periods I almost liken it to going on a bender.  I am all about it, I will do anything to get my fix and can go for days or weeks.  Other times, it's just fun for the time.  All of this makes it hard on me and certainly hard on my current partner and partners in the past.  This lifestyle almost requires labels.  While I have labeled myself a submissive for the most part, I would now label myself as a submissive/bottom/switch/do me submissive, depending on my mood or life circumstances.  So what does this all mean?

Obviously D/s is a big part of who I am.  I feel D/s should be about 99% of my sex life, but that isn't necessarily practical.  In my mind if I was a dominant or switching but in a dominant role, I would be more inclined to initiate sex, but it would be D/s as well.  Since D/s is important to me, but 24/7 is impossible I am trying to figure a way to make it all work.  Some ideas that have come to mind is that I wear my collar when I am open to being ordered around and following rules.  However I imagine that if I were to put in the collar that it would be of the mindset that I would agree to wear it for a certain amount of time and do whatever I was told to do without limits.  Maybe a few days or a week or a month.  Maybe you would say, don't put on your collar until you are ready to commit to a month or I would like to own you for an entire weekend, will you put on your collar?  I am just throwing out ideas here and am open to any suggestions.  Of course, any time you want to tie me up, I am game.  There doesn't have to be a collar, or protocol or anything elaborate, we could do it just for fun.  I would also agree to rules such as telling you when I am approaching orgasm, whenever you did have me tied up.  I guess what all of this is about is tying to find a win/win without all the BS my flakiness introduces.  Lastly, some of the things I have been thinking about this week.

Sophia as well as being femme when working from home.
Subtle femme stuff in public
temp tattoo
dungeon time
cum play
being outed in some way

I love you and appreciate you always trying to make this work.

New Year, Restoring Old Dynamic

Even though I don;t have to post until Sunday, I thought I would do a "pre post" to communicate how I am feeling.

The email MBB sent me on Sunday was scary and hot at the same time.  I haven't posted since September 15th and for all practical purposes it's been 3 and a half months since we had led much of a Fem Dom relationship.  I was going to say it was 90% due to life circumstances, but in reality it's 100% due to that. 

While I have enjoyed the freedom to do as I please, when I please, how I please, at the end of the day I am not fulfilled.  Relinquishing control of my cock, my wardrobe, my wallet to some extent, etc. while difficult and not "natural" seems to give me an inner peace.  I know I will either forget things or rebel in some ways, but I am fully aware this is what I want and need.  The hardest thing for me will be doing things without being told to do so.  It's very hard for me to put on my nighty or dress in feminine clothes without being specifically told to do so each time.  The financial penalty phase makes it so I mentally decide if a fine is worth "forgetting" to do something.  For some reason a painful punishment didn't work the same way.  Also the financial punishment takes no effort on MBB's part whereas a pain punishment requires her to take time to restrain me and deliver the punishment.

While I am dreading my time in chastity, the mere thought of having to do something I hate so much gets me going.  There is really something hot (that I can't explain) about being coerced into doing things that are very low on my list of turn ons.  The thought of having my own cum forced into my mouth or other disgusting things, being locked into a cage or just being locked in the dungeon for hours or days would piss me off to no end.  However, to have control taken from me and to know MBB has the confidence to take it to such an extreme gets me all hot and bothered.

Also, the thought of not cumming (or should I say not having an orgasm) until the middle of February gets me pretty ramped up too.  I have gotten way to used to cumming the last few months and am looking forward to the mental sexual fatigue and lack of sleep that comes with tease and denial.  I am also looking forward to having many of the tools in the dungeon used on me as well as being MBB's sex slave and complete slut.

I will post later this week on what's going through my mind.

Almost forgot.  Recent developments had me dig up a couple old posts I found online a while ago.

Since the dungeon is now up and running and the "horse" of out of storage.   http://elisesutton.homestead.com/horse.html

And since we have acquired a fucking machine (read the last story from Janet W.)  http://elisesutton.homestead.com/Aug10.html


 

It's been a while

Its been awhile since I last posted, but not because I haven't wanted to.  To the contrary, I have had lots of things going through my mind.  I have been thinking a lot about what I had with MBB prior to me flipping out.  It was the type of female led relationship with very strong D/s overtones that I had dreamed of.  Of course it wasn't 100% perfect, because no submissive male should get 100% of what he wants.  He should always be yearning.  So while I am happy I have been unable to unravel some of the things I had a hard time with mentally (chastity) I do miss a lot of the feelings of being "owned" that I had.  The term "be careful what you wish for" can go both ways.  You should be careful when you ask for too much, but also be careful when you ask for less.  You may just get it.

We have thunder in the mountains coming up soon.  It will be our first time together in the scene.  I am a little nervous, but very much looking forward to it.  I went to the site and was checking out the vendors.  One of them had a great deal on a "body bag".  I google body bag and found these sites. 
http://fox-bound.blogspot.com/2011/05/leather-bodybag.html?zx=aa32173dbb095077  http://mistressadira.net/2010/12/06/sleepsack-sessions-for-my-collared-slaves/ 
What an amazingly strict position to be in. 

I have also been thinking of MBB having me cum on Friday night.  Her thought being that by letting me cum, I wouldn't be too horny when we were apart Saturday night and that I would be a better behaved boy (at least that's my take on her intentions).  In reality, the more she controls my orgasms, the more I am in tune to her and our dynamic.  The more horny I am, the more I am into serving, obeying and doing whatever I can to keep the horniness going.  That horniness is what got me so hot and bothered that I bought so many feminine things last week.

Lastly, I have been thinking of all the more intense things we have done or that we have talked about.  Super restrictive bondage, painful positions, gags, cages or isolation, breath play, publishing photos, chastity (yeah I know), collars, electric shock (all sorts), feminization, not allowed to say "no", etc.  Just a jumble of dark fantasies.

I am happy to finally have it in my mind that I have everything I want with MBB.  I really think MBB and I can move on from my "ick" and we can have a deeper more meaningful relationship as well as a more D/s relationship.  I am very excited.

 

A lot of naughty thoughts

Even though I just had an orgasm last night, today has been a lot of dirty thoughts.  I have had a lot of thoughts lately about dungeon scenes in the Men in Pain videos.  Dark dungeons with chains and ropes hanging everywhere.  I think of myself in a leather harness that holds the chest (the videos have rope harnesses).  My arms would be bound behind my back, but high enough I couldn't use my hands to block my ass from a beating.  Since my arms wouldn't be above my head, I could stay in this position for an almost unlimited amount of time.  I imagine MBB fucking with me on lots of ways and giggling every time she made me mad or frustrated.

I also have been imaging being tied in a chair that allows my ball to hand freely.  MBB would have them bound in a tight little package so she could tap them for minutes on end.  Tapping them at the same mild strength and pace, until the tension builds so much I am screaming and sweating.  She would joke about how lightly she was actually hitting them and would occasionally give it a harder tap to show me just how lightly she is actually doing it.

Very soon we will be able to do these things without worrying about digging out the toys and putting them away.  I can't wait!.

Today has been an interesting day.  I have been very busy at work and the day has gone by entirely too fast.  That being said, I am in a very horny mood, but nothing specific.  My thoughts have been all over the board.  Most of my thoughts though have been thinking about moving soon and being able to set up a real dungeon.  Being locked in the stocks or tied face up on the cross lying flat with me at MBB's mercy.  Just the thought of it makes me hot.

I found an ad today of a bi female sub looking to submit to a Mistress.  I could see MBB having a female slave as an assistant when MBB wants to torture me.  I also imagine MBB would keep me hooded or blindfolded in this sub's presence so I would never know what she looked like.  That would be a real trip.  Or MBB could have her slave over, lock me in the cage, play with her slave and not allow me to interact at all.  That would be a real mind fuck too.

Thinking about all the thing that we could do just because it's all set up and ready to go.  I can imagine some intense scenes due to having access to all of the gear.  Also MBB would be able to have all of the equipment in sight and would probably be more inclined to use some of it. 

I also got to suntan a little bit today.  I am starting to get faint tan lines on my butt and on my hips.