Showing posts with label Teasing and Denial. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Teasing and Denial. Show all posts

Sunday, August 20, 2023

Thinking The Unthinkable - continued

Forced-Bi

Gotcha!  Forced Bi is still a hard limit for me.  I love playing with butt plugs and dildos.  I love having my ass penetrated and I love the humiliation of sucking on them. However, the rest of the male body and male attitude does nothing for me (not even my own).  While I am not into guys, I am super impressed with how creative and mean gay Masters can be.  I don’t ever fantasize about it a bisexual encounter, but it’s so common in the Femdom kink world I do consider how quite a few men end up in forced-bi situations.  Due to how I was brought up I believe I would have a hard time dealing with it if it did happen. That being said, I do believe that this is a hard limit that could be exceeded with the right circumstances.  I don't like the term 'forced'.  I prefer the term coerced.  Every one of my limits has been expanded with practice and being coerced to go just a little bit further than my perceived limit.  I don't see why this would be any different with enough time and patience and persistence.

I’m a huge believer in conditioning of the mind especially when it aligns with existing kinks. I don’t see it as a stretch that if Mistress wanted to me see with a man and was set on making it happen, it would, with the right training and conditioning.  Normalizing the concept in my head.

It would start with chastity. The longer I go without cumming the more my defenses get lowered. Mistress would make sure I watched lots BDSM porn that pushes my buttons but instead of Femdom it would be gay BDSM, trans or forced-bi BDSM.  

Mistress would make sure I spent hours almost every day with something in my ass, and have me practice giving head to dildos. Both sweet soft blowjobs to deep-throating without gagging. 

Mistress would often blindfold me and tie me to the bed. She would tease and deny me to keep me ramped up. She would tell me what her plans were for me and tease me about how much she would love it. She would make me repeat her plans for me so many times they become my words. She would force a dildo down my throat while stroking my cock or use the Hitachi on my cock cage. 



Mistress would use her strap-on with me. She would make me kneel and give her head as long as she wanted before making me bend over and making me beg to have her fuck me in the ass.  I could no longer call her Mistress but would have to call her Sir. 

Mistress would also make me post on gay online forums asking for advice and finding a gay Dom to assist in my training. Who better than a gay male Dom to know what to do?

After several months I imagine that my mind would be slowly accepting my fate. During our tease and denial sessions, Mistress would make me tell her stories and my thoughts. She’d make me say things like “I wish I could have a real cock in my mouth Mistress”. “Please Mistress, bring me a real cock” just to be able to have some stimulation.

At some point, I’d be tied to the bed. Mistress would have me teased to a frenzy. I’d be begging for a real cock and Mistress leaves the room. After a while, an attractive, naked man with a slightly above-average cock walks into the room and sits in a chair. I’m in shock. Mistress comes back to the bed. She’s now stroking my cock and asking me if I want a real cock. I look at the man and shake my head “No”, my eyes pleading. She tells me she won’t make me do anything.  I’m going to have to ask for it.  

She keeps me on the edge driving me crazy. I keep begging to cum, but she says I’ll have to ask for his cock before she’ll let me cum. 

I refuse. She then offers, how about I meet you in the middle?  If you’re not ready to suck his cock, how about I let him suck your cock until you cum?  Then he’ll leave. That seems like a fair trade doesn’t it?  

At this point I am so worked up and am relieved I won’t have to suck this guy's cock. I reluctantly agree. The guy gets up and comes over to me. He places his naked body in between my legs and starts expertly stroking my cock. I moan. He alternates between stroking my cock and sucking on it. Mistress sits on one side of the bed by my face and looks into my eyes with a devious smile. I ask her to let me cum. She says it’s not up to her. It’s up to my new gay Master.

He then tells me he’s an expert at edging and can break me. He keeps me on the edge and asks if I want him to stop. I do want him to stop but want to cum even more.  I ask him to please keep stroking me and to let me cum. He maneuvers his body around so that his mouth is over my cock and his cock is over my head a few inches from my mouth. He tells me he will let me cum if I just kiss his cock as brings me to the edge again. At this point, I’m a mess. I’m this far in and it’s just a quick kiss to get an orgasm. I give his cock a quick peck. He says “See, that wasn’t so bad” and he takes my cock in his mouth again. As I feel an orgasm starting he stops. He says “I’ve changed my mind. I want you to reach up and hold my cock in your mouth while I get you off.”  I relent. I lift my head to place his cock in my mouth.  He says, “Good job my little sissy”  I look over and see Mistress smiling, knowing that her training has paid off.

He again starts sucking my cock again. As he brings me to the edge he stops again. He tells me that he will now get me off if I want, but he will time the strokes of his mouth to the strokes of my mouth. If I want him to go faster on my cock I’ll have to go faster on his cock. 

At this point, I’m too far gone. I go to town on his cock. He lowers his hips so that I am taking him deeper into my mouth and I speed up my pace sucking his cock. He speeds up his pace sucking on my cock. I was so close to the edge that I should be cumming by now but I’m not, I’m still riding on the edge. I notice that the faster he goes, the less stimulation he gives me. He’s edging me and not letting me cum!  

I moan in frustration at my predicament. He raises his hips and takes his cock out of my mouth. He says, “Have something to say sissy?” I reply, “Please let me cum.”  He says “Please let me cum, what?”  I say “Please let me cum, Sir”.  He says "Beg for my cock in your mouth and I’ll finish what I started." He starts sucking my cock again keeps pushing me to the edge and stopping each time he senses me getting too close to an orgasm.  

I give up in desperation. “Please Sir! Please put your cock in my mouth!” He tells me to repeat it until he’s convinced I really want it. 

“Please Sir! Please put your cock in my mouth!”

“Please Sir! Please put your cock in my mouth!”

“Please Sir! Please put your cock in my mouth!”

He looks over at Mistress and tells her “I told you I could get him to beg for my cock”. She laughs and tells me “Open your mouth you little slut”. 

As I open my mouth, he lowers his cock into my mouth and presses his hips against my face. His cock goes to the back of my throat. If Mistress hadn’t spent months with my deep throat training I’d be choking right now. Instead, I relax my throat and focus on not choking and the amazing blow job I am getting. My eyes are watering as he puts additional suction on my cock. I feel the orgasm starting to erupt after months of denial. I try to scream out as I can feel my prostate release but my scream is blocked by his cock. As my body shudders and cum starts shooting out of my cock, he pulls his cock out of my mouth.  I gasp for air and scream in ecstasy.  Then I realize he's not stopping.  He's still sucking my dick and I start screaming due to the over-stimulation. Fuck!  Post-orgasm torture. I squirm and beg while he says "I am in control sissy.  Next time you shouldn't fight it so hard".  All I can think at this point is at least he didn’t make me swallow his load.





He finally stops and I catch my breath.  I'm not prepared for what happens next.  The man walks over to Mistress and tells her to kneel.  She drops to the floor and kneels in front of his cock.  He tells her to suck it and make him cum.  I am in shock.  Mistress would never let me talk to her like that.  While she goes to town on his cock he tells me that he is the guy she has been fucking on her dates.  He tells me that occasionally she likes to give up control, but she wants a dominant man and not a submissive sissy pretending to be dominant with her.  



He grabs her hair and forces her head deeper onto his cock.  I'm even more in shock. She seems to be liking this treatment.  His eyes roll back into his head as he starts to cum.  Mistress eagerly sucks every drop from his cock just like he did to me.  He releases his hold on her and as she dries her lips with her hands, she looks at me like the cat that ate the canary.  She says, "I told you I would get you to take a cock without forcing you to do it".  

Thursday, October 15, 2020

Cock Rings & Panties at the pool

 Mistress and I are on a quick vacation. We’ve both been reading erotica and I’ve gotten myself so worked up that I’ve been trying to be secretly naughty. 

The last couple of days I’ve been wearing panties and a cock ring under my swimsuit. The panties are tight and the cock ring keeps my cock hard when the erotica turns me on. 

I’m big into FemDom but the best story I’ve read all week has been a Male Dom story. It makes me realize that although I skew submissive I have a very creative Dom side. Here is the 1st of the series. 

https://www.literotica.com/s/change-of-control-ch-01

Now I’m off to mentally torture myself some more. 

Saturday, September 28, 2019

What I did

Mistress was out of town for a couple of days but is coming back this evening.  I had some alone time for the first time in over a year.  So what did I do?

First I wore my feminine outfit until I had to get ready to leave the house.  When I did leave the house I wore a vinyl thong with a built-in cock ring.  When I got home that night I put on my pink lounge clothes. 


When it was time to go to bed, I had one thing to try.  I have been wanting to see if it's possible for me to have an anal orgasm with no stimulation on my cock.  I have tried this before without success, but this time I had success.  I used my Aneros prostate massager as well as the Hitachi.  It took me quite a while to find the right combination of D/s items and vibration, but eventually, I did it!  I needed some extra stimulation so I used a spider gag to imaging being fore fed my cum.  I wore nipple clamps as well as a cock and ball strap.  Of course, I had to wear something feminine since I was trying to cum like a girl.


The next morning I had to run some errands and decided to dress up under my clothes. These look like grandma panties, but in reality, they are a thong in the back so my ass cheeks stick out.  Perfect spanking panties as the ass is framed perfectly for aiming a spanking implement.


When I got home I decided to play with my Venus 2000.  I ended up tease torturing myself, not allowing me to get close to the edge.  I wasn't able to do this very long as I wanted to cum very badly, which I did.  It was amazing!  If only I was tied up and Mistress kept me going like this for hours without cumming.



As I was getting the toys out of the storage area, I ran across a bullwhip I bought Mistress years ago.  I playfully smacked myself with it about 15 times.  Just enough to make it sting, but nothing I consider very hard.  Imagine my surprise when I see that I am marked by these fairly light flicks of the whip.  This really, really wants me to experiment more with the whip

Bummed it's out of focus
Well, that's it for playtime.  I have to put everything up and clean up the house before Mistress gets home.  I may have to wear something naughty to go pick her up at the airport.  I sure did miss her.  This kind of play is so much more fun with Mistress.

  


  

Wednesday, June 26, 2019

Chastity and Orgasm Update

I have been tracking the amount of time I spend in chastity for almost 5 years.  I have also been tracking my orgasms for almost 7 years.  My chastity tracking is pretty accurate as that was never a secret with Mistress.  My orgasm tracking, on the other hand, didn't become accurate until last year when I started tracking the times I have cum without permission.  I wasn't about to put in writing all of the times I came without permission to avoid punishment. 

Nowadays, I am to the point of wanting very strict orgasm control.  Notice that I don't say orgasm denial, but orgasm control.  Do I want to be denied?  Absolutely.  I want to be more denied than I ever have, but that's not up to me.  I want Mistress to control my pleasure or preferably my lack of pleasure 100%.  I was fairly good on the honor system, but not good enough.  Chastity is keeping the control portion of my desires intact. 

So we are almost half way through 2019.  Here is where things stand. 

Orgasms
  
By this time last year, I only had 5 orgasms.  None of them unauthorized.

Feb 20th - Full 
March 3rd - Full 
March 24th - Full 
April 23rd - Full 
May 28th - Ruined/full 

So far this year I have had 7 orgasms, with Mistress only giving me permission to cum 3 times.

Jan 22nd - Full  
April 7th - Full 
April 8th - Full - Unauthorized 
April 10th - Full - Unauthorized 
April 13th - Full - Unauthorized 
May 22nd - Full 
May 28th - Full -  Unauthorized 

3 of my 4 unauthorized orgasms happened on a trip we were on.  Once I had that orgasm (with permission) on April 7th, I was unable to control myself.  Hotel rooms make it extremely difficult for me to want to be denied without being locked up.  Mistress likes having easy access to my cock when we travel, apparently, so do I. 

Last year I had a total of 14 orgasms, so I am on track to have more orgasms this year than I did last year unless Mistress helps me with my cheating. 

Chasity 

At this time last year, I was locked in chastity for 55 days. 

This year so far, I have been locked up 124 days, which 69 days more than last year at the same time. 

If I stay locked for at least another 45 days through the end of the year, I will break my annual chastity record.  If I remained locked for the rest of the year, I would spend over 10 months in chastity. 

Now all of this is clearly fantasy land for me.  Mistress indulges me when I really wish she forced it on me.  I love the idea of being locked while Mistress uses me.  I want to give her orgasms every single day.  I want to use my fingers on her G-spot and use her favorite glass dildo, and the Hitachi, and the fucking machine.  I want to wear a thick cock sleeve so I can fuck her properly with no chance of me cumming.  I want to use a strap-on with her while my cock is helplessly locked away. 


Mistress has done a great job lately, of keeping me aroused while locked in chastity.  She grabs at my cage, she pinches my nipples a few times during the day, and she will make comments on either me being locked up or about something feminine.  I fantasize about her ramping up the teasing and flirting all while I am locked up.  I dream of scenes where my cock is ignored completely or I am teased until I have tears in my eyes with frustration.  The goal is to make me so sexually frustrated that I want this chastity game to end - and it doesn't...





  









Thursday, March 21, 2019

Well denied

I’ve been locked in Chastity for 83 of the last 85 days. 80 of those days have been in 2019. Last year I was locked 169 days so I am already locked close to half of what I was last year.  My last orgasm was over 8 weeks ago. I’ve only had one orgasm this year. Last year I was at 3 at this time of the year. 

Mistress had been surprisingly good with me being locked. We have been so busy that there hasn’t been a lot of time for any sort of physical intimacy so this chastity period is kind of convenient in a way.  My new attitude of if I’m unlocked that must mean I’m allowed to masturbate might also play into Mistress’s decision to keep me locked up.

Between work and our dog, one of us gets up way before the other.  Most days Mistress is up and I am left in bed. I used to be able to edge during these times and sometimes my edging would be a bit too much and I would leak quite a bit. There is no edging now.  The closest I get is getting super hard in my cage, over and over while I fantasize about Mistress tease torturing me.

I want to cum, but I really don’t want to cum.  If I were unlocked right now I would be in my home office.  I would be looking at some sort of porn where a guy is tied helplessly tight and edged over and over and over.  I’d get close enough to orgasm to leak, and I would lick up the small amounts. And I’m in enough of a mood that I would stroke myself to orgasm right into my office trash can. I wouldn’t consume that cum, even though I should. Being locked in chastity keeps me from having an occasional unauthorized orgasm, accidentally or on purpose.  It keeps me under control which is what I really crave. 

What I really crave is Mistress using me sexually without letting me have pleasure. I yearn to use my mouth and fingers to bring her to orgasm. I fantasize about fucking her with a strap on while my cock stays locked up. Fucking her for as hard and long as she wants as there is no over stimulation on my part. I fantasize about Mistress cumming every single day with my help or on her own while I stay denied. When she does masturbate she lets me know about it as it’s a great mindfuck.  I know that being used for her pleasure while I stay denied would really, really make me unbearably horny.  I want to be so desperate that I am nearly in tears...

Today's mood...









Wednesday, February 27, 2019

More and More Desperate - And Loving It

Every morning, I am sexually desperate.  A combination of testosterone, mixed with nightly feminization mixed with full-time chastity is driving me sexually mad.  Each day as my body slowly starts to wake up, my mind stirs with disturbing thoughts. My cock gets hard and strains against my chastity cage. I fantasize about having painful, humiliating or disgusting things done to me.  I yearn to be treated harshly and to be made to do things that challenge me. I fantasize about the idea of cumming and at the same time hoping that I remain denied. I fantasize and cringe at the same time about electric play.  Electric devices scare me but fascinated me at the same time. I also have fantasies I wish I didn’t have. Ones that I don’t want to happen but my mind still goes there.

Some mornings I am so desperate to feel more naughty that I will wear a feminine item under my male clothes.  A feminine tank top or camisole rubs against my chest as I take the dog for a walk.  Making me even hornier.  I’m erotically ashamed of this behavior and hide it from Mistress.

As the day goes on my horniness drops. I’m too busy to be hyper-sexualized. That doesn’t mean my desperation goes away, it’s just reduced. I have constant reminders of my situation. Chasity is always there. I occasionally get a whiff of the intoxicating perfume I wear.  Whenever I am barefoot, my pink painted toenails make my brain twitch a bit.

Each night the cycle starts over as I slip into a nighty before climbing into bed. Occasionally I try to skip the nighty but Mistress catches this and makes sure I obey. I love her for doing this to /for me.  Some nights I have dreams.  A recent one had Mistress reverse sitting on my face with the threat of me not breathing unless I licked her furiously.  Another had me going to a private executive suite dressed in my male clothes with instructions to change into my feminine attire once I arrived. Mistress would use a webcam to give me humiliating tasks and to ensure I stayed dressed in this busy office.

When I dream like this I am even more ramped up and desperate the next day. Thanks to chastity and orgasm denial I don’t see my frustration ever ending. That makes me horny, happy and eager to serve my Mistress in any way possible.

Today’s mood.









Thursday, February 14, 2019

Making Chastity More Challenging and Frustrating

The last couple of days, I have woken up, extremely frustrated and horny.  Mistress was out of bed before me and I yearned for the days when I could edge myself and cum whenever I wanted.  It's been 3 weeks since my last orgasm and the need to cum is back up, but I can also see where I am yet again getting used to not cumming.  I was reminded of my recent post about how I believe that occasional orgasms "remind" me of what it is like to have one and that makes the denial more real.

As I was laying in bed this morning I started to wonder if it would be possible to increase frustration and desperation without the occasional orgasm.  Of course my early morning, testosterone-fueled libido took over and my mind took over.  Here is what I came up with.


  • Occasionally being required to take viagra while locked up
  • Having to send Mistress pictures of myself locked up
  • Verbal teasing and taunting of me being a chastity slave
  • Going down on Mistress while staying locked up
  • Using my mouth and fingers on Mistress as much as she wants while staying locked up
  • Mistress masturbating herself and telling me how many times she cums every day without me
  • Using a strap-on to fuck Mistress while my chastity device smacks helplessly against Mistress
          
  • Unlocking and being tied down to endure a long teasing session and locking back up afterward
  • Frequent anal stimulation (plugs or strap on) to ensure only pleasure is anal
  • prostate stimulation while locked
  • Bedtime teasing through my cage
  • Being released and made to fuck without cumming.  This is the riskiest as I almost always leak too much.
  • Rough BDSM scene while locked the entire time.
  • Feminine attire to enforce the emasculating effect of chastity.
All in all, I think there could be a lot of ways to increase the frustration of chastity while still keeping me denied.  The best part is Mistress should have all of the orgasms she can handle and we can still be intimate and make sure she is pleased.  
  


Thursday, December 27, 2018

Locked, painted and sleeping in a nighty


We’ve been busy.  Very busy, so I am not able to post as much as I would like to.  Here’s a quick update on the last few weeks.

I have been unlocked from my chastity device since November 30th which means I have been free for 3.5 weeks.  I also haven’t worn a nighty or had my toenails painted for the same amount of time.  I have been occasionally wearing a pair of panties when I am overcome with naughty thoughts.

Since I have been unlocked I have been touching myself a fair amount.  Mistress has been getting out of bed before me and when I can’t fall back asleep I reach down and edge myself over and over.  In some cases, I edge 40-60 times before getting out of bed.  That's not as much as it sounds as I can edge a few times a minute.  I don’t leak much, but when I do I lick it up.  That’s one way to start my day, with the taste of cum in my mouth.  Ick.

While edging I have many, many fantasies.  My more frequent fantasies are predicament bondage and extreme edging, denial and forced orgasms. 

I love the idea of being tied in a way that makes me uncomfortable and where I have to choose between 2 bad choices.  Nipples tied to feet.  Tied bent over in heels.  Tied in a squat position.  Clothespin zipper that I inevitably have to rip off myself.  So many ideas. 




I also long to be tied for hours upon hours being edged.  Of course this long of a scene would be somewhat boring for Mistress so I dream of automating it on some level.  Using the Hitachi and cock sleeve on an intermittent timer that I have.  I can set it to run 30 seconds and off for a minute or any variation of those times.  It can run indefinitely.  If I cum?  Too bad.  The vibrations don’t stop.  I imagine similar treatment with the Venus 2000 sucking machine.  For this, I imagine it being on a very slow sucking motion and I am kept on the edge for hours.  Once I cum, the machine is turned up and the sucking gets stronger and faster.  The goal being,  to make me cum as many times as possible, and when I do cum, to have a brutal post orgasm torture.  I imagine this treatment being used as a punishment instead of a reward.  The first orgasm would feel good, but I would fight having it knowing what would happen after I came.  Mistress could certainly use my mouth or masturbate next to me, but to be able to do this for hours she would need to be able to leave me.  We have a baby monitor app that could be used to monitor me.



 

As I stated it’s been almost a month since I had any kink/chastity/feminization.  That changed yesterday.  Mistress had me give her an orgasm with my cock.  As I was pleasuring her, Mistress commanded that I lock myself up in chastity, paint my toenails and start wearing nighties again.  That put me over the edge.  I tried to keep from cumming and ended up ruining my orgasm in the process, right before asking for even more tasks.  Thank you Mistress! Please feel encouraged and emboldened to add extra torments, tortures, tasks and humiliations to my world. I yearn to suffer for you.

Good thing Mistress had me lock back up.  There is nothing like a ruined orgasm that makes me want to masturbate to orgasm.  This morning would have been the time to do it too, as Mistress got up before me.  I’m fairly certain I would have had an unauthorized orgasm. I have been planning on getting myself off after my next orgasm. Chastity is keeping me honest.   

If I stay in chastity the rest of 2018, I will have been locked up for almost 4.5 months in 2018.  For short of 365 days, but  I will be locked up almost a month longer (29 more days) in 2018 as I was in 2017, and locked up 2 times as much as I was in 2016.

All in all, 2018 has been good.  I don’t ‘like’ being locked in chastity, but I LOVE being made to wear a device as much as possible.  I don’t ‘like’ sleeping in a nighty, but I LOVE that I have to wear it or any other item of Mistress’ choosing.  I don’t ‘like’ painting my toenails, but I LOVE the rush I get when I see my painted toenails and what that means.  In short, I LOVE doing many, many things I don’t ‘like’. 

Here’s to a naughty 2019! 






Sunday, December 9, 2018

Orgasm Denial Reset

I was finally allowed to orgasm after 89 days of denial. Unfortunately the orgasm after that long of denial isn’t as good as you would expect.  Don’t get me wrong, it was great, just not what 89 days of denial make it. That makes it my 12th orgasm for the year.  

I was locked in chastity for 63 days. Not a record, but still one of my longest lockup’s. 

All of this chastity and denial ended last week when Mistress and I went out of town for the week. Mistress unlocked me for the flight and hasn’t locked me back up yet. Mistress chose to not have me wear nighties while we were traveling ☹️. 

One night Mistress fell asleep while we were watching TV. It was the first time I was unsupervised in the trio and the first time I was able to touch my own cock in over 3 months. I was very sensitive to say the least.  I edged myself numerous times before rolling onto my stomach and humping a pillow like a desperate little slut. This pushed me so close to the edge that I was afraid I would have a ruined orgasm all over my bed. I was fortunate that I had stopped in time.  I stopped that night but edged a few more time over the course of the week. I was very tempted to go into the bathroom and get myself off.  That’s why I preorder to stay locked when we travel.  I get drunk and horny and want to sneak off and cum. 

A few days later Mistress came over to my bed at 6 am with a couple of towels. She wanted me to fuck her.  I wanted to fuck her too. We had stayed out late partying with co-workers and both had hangovers. Because of this I was able to fuck without stopping. I was finally able to give Mistress the orgasm(s) she deserved. While we had sex I let my mouth run a bit. 

Mistress and I talked about her being meaner to me. We talked about me being dressed feminine more, much more. We talked about me starting my day with a quick caning to help with my attitude. I begged to be treated more harshly by Mistress and held accountable. These words resonated deeply with me and my wish is for them to be more than just words. I yearn to be a total slave. 

That night, I wanted to give myself an orgasm. This is one of my biggest cheating issues. After a long period of denial, my orgasm is less than perfect. I’m also reminded how good it feels to cum. I also figure that since I just came Mistress won’t notice another orgasm.  I usually cheat and get myself off. It’s why I prefer to be locked up right after an orgasm, especially a ruined one, especially in a hotel room.   I did not cheat this time, but the temptation was strong. 

The next morning Mistress came to my bed and teased my cock and hit me in the balls for about 2 hours. I was in heaven but also very frustrated. I wanted to plead my case again about all of the things I’d love to have done to me. The humiliation, pain and degradation I want to be out through. Mistress teased about keeping me tied up and teased.  I added how hot it would be to be tied to a bed for an entire day and driven mad with teasing.  Eventually Mistress stopped and we headed home from our trip.

We’ve been back for a few days. Yesterday Mistress got out of bed before me. I was able to edge myself 40-50 times.  I fantasized about all the things we talked about as well as some deeper desires. The entire time my brain telling me that I could sneak an orgasm and Mistress would never know.  I was soooooo tempted to just get it out of my system.  I stopped edging before getting too close for comfort. l didn’t cum.

So that’s where we are today. After being allowed to orgasm last week, I have been reminded of just how awesome an orgasm can be. It’s the main reason I think that being denied longer works in reverse. I need to be reminded of what an orgasm feels like so that when I am denied, the desire is that much stronger. 

Here are a few pictures of my mood this morning.








Wednesday, November 28, 2018

Still Denied

It's now been 82 days since I have had an orgasm.  I have been locked in chastity for 62 days with a one day break.  Needless to say I am horny and desperate.  My early morning mind is consumed with lot's and lot's of dirty thoughts, but I am too busy to do anything with these thoughts.  Here are a few pictures of what I have been fantasizing about.