Today's Mood

Counting days

I spend a lot of time counting days lately.  Tomorrow will be 4 weeks and Sunday will be one month since I have had an orgasm.  It is currently the longest I have gone without an orgasm in 8 or 9 years.  I have been in chastity 19 days which is the longest I have ever been locked up.  It's been 13 days since I have been close to the edge and that long since I have been able to be aroused without discomfort.  Again, another record.

It may sound like I am complaining, but quite the contrary.  I am amazed by it really.  Being locked certainly has its challenges, but with Mistress' encouragement and my own goals I am pushing ahead and enjoying it.  My fantasies are consumed with the thought of pleasuring Mistress.  Of giving her long massages.  Of giving her multiple orgasms however she wishes.  Of having my face buried in her pussy or the dildo gag in my mouth and my nose getting soaked in her juices. Of her using my cock for her pleasure without letting me cum.  Of me being inside her while we work to train me to pleasure her time after time without me being pushed past the edge.

My desire to go as long as possible without cumming is not about not having sex.  In fact I want as much sex with Mistress as possible. I want to see if the Tantric and Taoist theory's about being able to orgasm without ejaculation are possible.  I want to be a hot mess whenever Mistress uses me.  I want to feel pride and despair at the same time when Mistress makes me lock back up right after she has cum a dozen times and soaked the sheets.  I want to hear her taunting me of the orgasms she has without me.  I want to make her cum and cum and cum until she is exhausted.  I want to be teased until I am in tears and locked back up.

I am now at a point that if I had an orgasm, I would feel it was a punishment.  To go this far and to have to start back at zero would be devastating.  I get a certain amount of sub-drop or post orgasm drop after I cum and I can only imagine it would be a hundred times worse now.  Although I know ruined orgasms or prostate milking minimize the emotional drop and allow a sub to get back into that sub-space much quicker, even the slightest bit of release seems like would be more frustrating than the frustration I feel of not cumming.

I have no idea if what I just wrote makes any sense.  My mind is a bit of a mess.  My cock went hard a dozen times while writing that my brain is stewing in hormones.  I am in heaven!

 

Setting Records

I am currently setting some personal records when it comes to chastity and orgasm denial.  Other than a couple short times out of my device, I have been locked for 16 days straight and 10 days without being released for even one second.  I am pretty certain I have only been locked for 7-10 days before.  As much as I have written over the years about how uncomfortable chastity is I think it's because I never gave it enough time.  I have noticed over the last few days that I can't feel the device like I used to.  The chaffing has subsided and the constant need to adjust is gone.  There are times my brain knows I am locked, but I truly can't feel anything.  I was afraid I was going numb, but it appears I have simply gotten used to it.  I still wish I could feel my cock when I want to, but not feeling it is a constant reminder of my place.  We will see if it stays this way next week as we get back to normal life after the holidays.

Another record is the length of time I have gone without an orgasm with Mistress.  I am currently at 24 days since  have cum.  Looking back at my orgasm log  ORGASM TRACKER my previous record was 19 days and that was last January and into February.  This time is certainly different for me as I truly want to be sexual with Mistress, but I don't want to cum.  The chemicals running through my body right now are like a powerful drug.

Lastly I have worn a nighty for the last 16 nights and I am pretty sure I have never worn one 16 nights without weaseling my way out of at least one night.

I have to admit over the last couple days of wanting to be released from chastity.  When we had some company, we had a bunch of things to do around the house.  I was going to ask for release to make things easier but decided against it.  Looking back I am glad I didn't ask.  I got through it and now it makes me proud to have endured when I didn't want to.  It also kind of hot mentally to think I was locked when we had so many people here.  I was also going to ask to be unlocked yesterday when I manscaped.  One of the frequent things you read with guys in chastity is to be let out to clean and shave.  I can certainly clean myself (especially in a bath) and with a little extra effort I can shave while still locked up.  Again I am happy I didn't ask to be released as much as I wanted it.  It reaffirms in my mind that doing things I don't think I want to do end up being a turn on for me.

Mistress recently started her period.  It reminds me of something I have seen on a couple blogs.  When the Mistress starts her period, her slave is to go into chastity and remain there until her period ends.  It's to remind him to be aware of her situation as well as to make sure he shares in her discomfort.  Some even go as far as to have their man wear panty liners as a reminder.  Humiliating but I'm sure it's effective.

In short, I am setting records only because I have truly submitted.  It takes a certain mindset to have your cock locked for weeks as well as not orgasming. Especially when my mind is so focused on being sexual.  To be able to not only endure, but to look forward to additional denial is new for me.  For the first time in my life I feel like I am truly submitting and accepting what happens instead of forcing things.  
 

Ruined Orgasms

Just some ruined orgasm stuff that has my mind spinning.

Nice description - http://ruinedorgasm.tumblr.com/post/133197697924/hardonebattle

I dream of this...

Chastity, Feminization, Humiliation and internet stuff

I just wanted to take a few minutes to share some thoughts during the last couple days.

Chastity.  In the past I would be locked up as a punishment, or to prevent touching when we are apart, but mostly as punishment.  Mistress hasn't communicated why I am locked up, so I am calling it "because I said so", which I find pretty fucking hot.  Last night we went to a party and Mistress asked if I could wear a certain pair of jeans while locked.  I told her I could but I would certainly take any opportunity to be out.  While one side of me appreciates the gesture of being released the other half feels it's my job to take it even if it is uncomfortable. I wear baggy pants for working around the house and running errands, but can certainly be in chastity in tight jeans while sitting for a meal, hanging out a friends house, going to a movie or standing at a party.  As soon as I got up this morning I put on my device.  I wanted to show Mistress that I am submitting no matter what.  If I have to debate whether or not I should do something submissive or not, I will just assume the answer is yes, I need to submit.

Nighties.  As much as I like to think wearing a nighty every night makes it normal and it loses it's edge, it doesn't.  No matter how much into feminization I get into I can;t every imagine it feeling "normal" to me, nor do I want it to.  I like the erotic humiliation I feel.  I love/hate how I feel in the morning when I walk into our bathroom in the morning and Mistress sees me in a nighty.  It's a great mind fuck.

Humiliation.  I have been thinking about this a lot, especially as it pertains to chastity and feminization.  As I was reading emails from 5 years ago, when I first revealed my feminine side to Mistress, I was reminded of her making me show her my entire wardrobe.  She made me try on every single thing and decided what I could keep and what I had to donate to goodwill.  She made me get rid of the really slutty stuff and focused on things that made me look sexy.  Playing that back in my mind, I remember the humiliation and how much I loved it.  I think of Mistress making me do the same thing again, just for the humiliation aspect.  I think of her making my lie on top of the covers in my nighty for a bit before bed, since I currently hide myself under them.  I think of having to get up and change into girls clothes, even if it's and a girls shirt (bra added of course).  I think of her making comments when I am locked in chastity.  Things like "how does it feel to not be able to feel your cock?", "Don't you wish you could get a hard on?", "You liked being locked up for me don't you?".  "you deserve chastity don't you?"  "I had an orgasm today, thinking about you locked up for me." I dream about her frequently rubbing my device or making me open my pants to show her or making me post pictures of me in chastity.  The mental aspect of this is just as exciting as the physical.

To end, here are some postings that really spoke to me on Friday.

I have frequently thought about Mistress cuckolding me with another woman.  This 2 part story is probably one of the hottest I have ever read, and I think a lot of it is because I am pretty sure it;s true and not some dude's fantasy.  This is the same woman that I quote frequently.

Part one Husband Punished by Wife in front of Escort
Part two Girl Sex with the Escort!!!!

A blog post...

I believe we are at the two week mark today.  Two weeks of chastity and denial for him.

Two weeks of fantastic orgasms and borderline-sadistic torturing for me.

Last night was no exception. He knows he is not allowed to have an orgasm and must beg me to stop whatever I am doing to prevent that or be punished. I rode him until I was satisfied, then made him ride my Feeldoe until he was edged to my satisfaction.

Then, with him cuffed and collared, I used my vibrator on his incredibly sensitive cock until he was literally writhing and begging me to stop before he was unable to control himself any longer.

I kissed him on the forehead and went to sleep, leaving him a molten mess - which, truth be told, is exactly where he longs to be.

Frustrated to the edge of insanity. – KH

A picture...

This must be the best ruined orgasm I have seen.  It's like a full 5 seconds from when she quits stroking him to him spurting.

            

A recap of last night's scene

Mistress and I have had a TON going on lately.  Not only has our time to be intimate been reduced, we've had a lot of work to do and stress has been higher than normal.  With increased stress I have been a little bit snippy lately.  I have had a bad tone to my voice and for lack of a better term, I have talked down to Mistress.  I hate it when I get this way.  It's one reason my marriage failed so I know I have some work to do.  I catch myself getting frustrated and have a lot self-talk about how it's not anything she is doing, but it's about how I react.  Mistress took the high road and gave me a session last night to try and deal with my attitude.  Here is my recollection.

During the last day or so Mistress had been hinting that I'd better watch myself or she was going to do something about my attitude.  Her talk escalated into talking about a sever edging session with a good beating.  Part intrigued me and part scared me especially with all of my talk about wanting her to hurt me beyond what I want.  When we got home early from a party she had me get the bed ready as well as myself.  We use some very simple straps that go under the bed, but they hold me as strong as any 4 poster bed would.  I put on my pink wrist and ankle restraints, put some towels down and put some femdom porn on the bedroom TV.  Mistress had me blindfold myself  and slide some big rubber bands around my upper thighs while she went around the bed securing my limbs to the 4 corners of the bed.  I was spread out and couldn't move.  Mistress teased my cock some and talked to me about my attitude.

Now here is where my story may jump around and get fuzzy.  I had a slight buzz going on from alcohol at the party and a few drinks of wine I had when we got some.  Being tied up always makes my mind a little mushy and the endorphins I had running through me made me lose a sense of time.

As Mistress proceeded to talk to me about my attitude, she would alternate between snapping the rubber bands around my upper thighs and stroking my cock.  I know I am wrong and had no qualms about admitting it.  She mentioned that to help me remember our talk I would be going back into chastity for a week on Monday morning.  As much as I don't want that to happen, I also think it will be good for us.  It will remind me that Mistress has full control over me and she can do what she wants.  I also hope that by me willfully and enthusiastically accepting it, it will empower her to be crueler to me.

Mistress put something in my mouth.  It was her wet fingers.  It was heavenly.  I so wanted her to keep feeding me her pussy juices.  I longed for her to put her dirty panties under my nose.  I wanted that so much I played a video with a Mistress doing just that.

 

Mistress also put her strapon in my ass.  She didn't wear it, but she got it in my ass (I am guessing about half way).  It has been a few months since I had something in my ass.  As much as I hate to admit it, it was heavenly.  While I occasionally wear a butt plug this was much better.  Being close to her, having her cock in my ass while stroking my cock was a perfect cocktail of lust.  I wanted her to rape my ass at that point, but didn't tell her so.  She edged me close enough that the dildo was able to milk some cum out of my cock.  I imagined her fucking my ass to get me to use my safe word.  Maybe we will have to get the fucking machine out of storage to make that happen some day.

Still during all of this Mistress would snap the rubber bands or hit me with some other device.  I kept begging her to hurt me until I used my safe word.  She kept bringing me to the edge over and over again, expertly not letting me get too close.  It was like she had gotten much better at edging me.

At one point during the scene, Mistress used a device on my balls to try and get me to safe word.  She expertly hit one testicle.  The sensation was of a smack to the scrotum which hurt, but went away, but then also a deep throbbing pain in my testicle.  Out of everything she had done to me, this was the most likely to get me to safe word, but I was resolute that she would have to do it to me 10 or more times to get me to crack.  After she hit my ball she stroked my cock.  The sensation was something very unique.  While my ball hurt in a bad way, the stroking felt amazing, but at the same time agonizing.  As I got closer to the edge, my testicle would hurt more.  It was a perfect mind fuck as I wanted her to keep stroking but the pain in my ball made me want her to stop.

Mistress kept up her teasing.  She used the Hitachi under my balls and stocked my cock.  She would bring me to the edge so quickly and so strongly that I thought I would cum.  Mistress would remove her hand but press the Hitachi under my perineum which would just keep me on the edge.  She would touch my cock, but I don't know how she was doing it as the buzzing from the Hitachi overrode how I could feel things.

Mistress stopped this for a bit and hit my other testicle.  This one hurt just like the first, but it also brought back the pain from the first hit.  As she stroked my cock , both of my balls throbbed with pain as my cock enjoyed the stroking.  This was a good mind fuck.

Mistress went back to using the Hitachi on me and stroking my cock to keep me on the edge.  I am not kidding when I write this.  This was the best edging experience of my life.  Instead of going up to the edge and back, she just kept me right at the top of the sensation.  As great as it was it was also terrible.  I was straining every muscle to try and cum.  My body wanted to cum badly, but my submissive brain didn't want me to.  My biological need to cum was battling my submissive brain.  I was straining, begging her to both let me cum and also to not let me cum.  I wanted her to hurt me worse.  I wanted to beg her to stop.  I was afraid I was going to safe word from this sensation and not physical pain.  I wanted this heaven & hell sensation to last forever.

In the end Mistress coaxed the beginning of an orgasm from me.  She stopped before I got the full effect, so in effect it was partially ruined.  It was enough that I got some sub drop and used my safe word before anything else could happen.

Looking back to last night I have some takeaways.

• Again, best edging experience of my life.  It kind of scares me how intense it felt.  I would liken it to the forced multiple orgasms you see girls get in porn, as I had intense pleasure almost bordering on pain and it wouldn't stop.  I could see myself getting literally exhausted if it had kept going.
• I am in pain, not from the beating but from straining my muscles during the tease.  Especially my back muscles and my hip flexors. It was a great workout.
• While the rubber bands and beating hurt, I likely could have taken twice or three times as much.  I really do want to be hurt until I'm mad and in tears and until I safe word.    
• The ball hitting.  This is the part that intrigues me the most.  As much as I hate that feeling of having my testicles hurt, the sensation was undeniable.  Adding stroking to it and it was a perfect heaven and hell torture.  I'm reminded of when I first met Mistress and we were in a hotel for a Halloween event.  She tied me to the bed, gagged me and beat the hell out of my balls.  I get hard just thinking about it.
• I wish Mistress would have had an orgasm or 10, as the whole thing was pretty much about me.  I was hoping she would have taken multiple orgasms for herself while I sat suffering in pain.
• I am very, very happy to see Mistress take control of me and put me in my place.  I don't do well trying to be the bossy one or getting defensive.  Last night was a good "reset" for me.  I crave living in a Female Led Relationship with a good dose of Female Domination.
• We have another couple stressful months so I'd better behave before I end up beaten, bruised and in chastity, or worse, no D/s...       

I love my Mistress!        

How to treat a (typical) man - I'm not typical

Last week Mistress texted me this picture and a comment saying how we need to make an exception for #9.  I added that we can make an exception for 1,2,6,8,9,10,11,13 and 14 based on our D/s relationship.

That really got me to thinking about how I like to be treated.  This book is titled "MAN LEADS, woman follows, Everyone Wins".  I hate any advice that acts like these is one size that fits all.  I can certainly lead and do so in my day to day, but I really strive to have someone lead me in the bedroom and in our relationship.

So the list above can be flipped for me as far my kinky needs.  Let's take them one by one.

1. Never belittle your man.  I get this on a day to day basis, but in the bedroom, I can really get off on this.  "Who's my little slut?", "Look at those panties on you", "Do you think you deserve to cum?"  I could go on and on, but there are a million ways I dream of Mistress belittling me.  I think it's hot and it gets me to the edge faster.

2.  Never talk down to him.  I don't know why the author thought this is different than #1 so I have nothing to add.

3.  Never ignore him.  I can think of a few times being ignored would be hot.  Locked in a cage.  Tied to the bed and left to stew in my own thoughts. Tied and ignored while Mistress gets herself off.  Made to stand in a corner.  Ignored while Mistress plays with a girl.  Orgasm denial is another great way to ignore me.  When we first met, Mistress had a hard time ignoring my orgasms.  I actually had to beg her to not let me cum.  She got pretty good at denying me, eventually sending me home without an orgasm after she had multiple.  Lately she has been very generous with my orgasms, but denying me fulfills a submissive need for me.  I think a daily orgasm for Mistress is good while I am limited to one or 2 a month. 

6.  Never cause him to feel embarrassed.  I edge myself to the idea of Mistress embarrassing me I find it so hot.  Kneeling naked, masturbating into my own hand and eating it. I can't think of anything more embarrassing.  Sucking a dildo and Mistress making me say how much I love cock.  Dressing feminine and going online to follow the instructions of others.  Not being allowed to take off my nighty in the morning or having to wear something feminine when Mistress comes home.  All of that just pushes my buttons so much.  I am hard thinking about being embarrassed.  I sometimes think Mistress tries to avoid embarrassing me which is a pity because I really do fantasize about her making me do things specifically to embarrass me.  It's one of the reasons I spend so much time thinking about cum eating, cross-dressing, being written on, and even considering piss play.

8.  Never manipulate him.  I love the idea of being manipulated.  Being told to wear my chastity device when Mistress knows how much I dislike it feels very manipulative to me.  Knowing I don't want to wear it, but knowing I need to do as she says to keep our D/s dynamic going.  It's a mind fuck to have to do something I don't want to do.  Also having to do things to earn release or to earn D/s is a hot way to manipulate me.  

9. Never boss him.  I like being bossed both in and out of the bedroom.  If Mistress wanted to boss me more than she does now I'd be very OK with it.

10.  Never laugh at his mistakes or faults.  I can imagine Mistress setting me up to fail at a task and then using that opportunity to make fun of me.  I can also imagine her laughing at me when I am tied down or dressed up and emasculating me for my "needs".

11.  Never put any person before him.  In the past Mistress has been with a woman, and for that reason I have long fantasized about Mistress having a girlfriend a Mistress or a female slave of her own.  I have thought about Mistress cuckolding me with a woman.  I would be home while she went out with her girlfriend, or I would be told to sleep in a cage or in another room while Mistress girlfriend stayed the night.  I would have to get up and cook them breakfast and serve it to them.  

13.  Never be inconsiderate of his feelings.  In a D/s context I relish when Mistress is inconsiderate of my feelings.  Whether it's not letting me cum, forcing me into chastity, hitting my balls, hitting me when I am restrained until I am begging to stop, making me wear nighties when I don't want to, making me do what I promised to do when I was on the edge.  All of these things require Mistress to be inconsiderate of my feelings.  Especially as I ask her to do things to me that I know will make me mad at the time.   It's considering my feelings to be inconsiderate of my feelings (With a double negative like that, no wonder D/s can be so hard in a relationship).

14. Never tell his personal business.  I have a fantasy of being outed by Mistress to another woman.  When I first met Mistress she shared our relationship with a friend or two, but I'm not sure how much.  I can still imagine Mistress telling someone something about my proclivities.  I imagine it would be in a drunken state on a trip far away from home.

In conclusion, Mistress is very, very good to me.  She respects me, loves me, puts up with this side of me and makes me feel like the most important person in the world.  I feel astronomically lucky to have found her. Sometimes I think she loves me so much she can't push me the way I think I want.  I think she may fear hurting me or pushing me away.  I can sense a reluctance to push my limits or maybe it just takes too much energy to do so.  Either way after spending nearly a week thinking about the book page she sent me and how I am wired, I can assure Mistress that I need the opposite of what the book says men need.  This is not meant to be a pushy bottom email, just a communicative one.     

Videos, Edging and Eating Cum

I have a lot to do today, but I wanted to make a quick post.  Last night Mistress had made sure I wore a nighty.  I truly appreciate it when she tells me to do something in a D/s way.  At the time I was not wanting to do it as my male ego got in the way.  However this morning I woke up very, very horny.  As I walked to the bathroom I felt the padded cups of the nighty.  Once I got to the bathroom I pulled up my nighty (I sit to pee due to the piercing in my cock).  I felt very naughty and submissive.  I also thought about as much as I didn't want it last night, I happy I was to be wearing it this morning.  The erotic humiliation is intoxicating.  I then weighed myself, picked out some new panties and my male clothes and got ready.  I removed my nighty and admired the marks from the straps on my shoulders, the marks left from the cup.  I turned to look at my back and was surprised how much the back was marked from the nighty.  I may have been lucky I didn't wear my nighty more on our trip.  Someone may have noticed when I took my shirt off (blush).

After Mistress left for work I found some more videos to be able to be viewed in our bedroom.  I focused on ruined orgasms, caning, post orgasm torture.

While waiting on a download I decided to edge myself a few times.  I am allowed to edge, but if any cum is released I must now consume it.  I found a video of a woman with her boyfriend locked in chastity and tied down.  He was also gagged with duct tape forcing him to breathe through his nose.  She verbally teased and tormented him while teasing his cock and making him smell her pussy.

Apparently the idea of being locked and teased was too much. My edging didn't go as planned.  I thought I would go for a good 10 minutes or so.  I edged myself and while I was still soft, a good drop of pre-cum escaped which I had to lick up before proceeding. I decided not to edge any more as I didn't want to eat any more cum.  Cumming and stopping before I even got hard was not part of my plan.  A half hour later I still have a sticky taste in the back of my throat.

  

Thank You!

This is a quick post to my Mistress.

Thank you for tying me up on Saturday.
Thank you for stretching me so tightly.
Thank you for making me put something in my ass.
Thank you for manipulating my prostate.
Thank you for hurting me.
Thank you for hitting my balls.
Thank you for leaving marks on me.
Thank you for teasing and denying me so much.
Thank you giving yourself orgasms while I could only listen.
Thank you for squirting all over my cock.
Thank you for ruining my orgasm :-)
Thank you for making me paint my toenails.
Thank you for making me wear a nighty last night.  That's why I was awake so early, thinking naughty thoughts.
Thank you for humiliating me with my feminine clothes, and making me show you my purchases.  I hate it but I love it.

As ordered, here are pics of my 2 outfits.  The first one fits terribly, The second one fits nicely.  In fact I gave myself a task of wearing the 2nd one until I finished this post.

Update

So it's been over a month since I last posted.  Life has gotten very, very busy with me starting a new job (while I still have my old one).  Mistress and I also went 3 weeks without having sex.  That's pretty close to the longest we have gone in over 4 years.

This weekend we got to have sex again.  Mistress was pretty verbal during sex and got me pretty ramped up.  She told me things were going to start getting back to where we both want them.  With me wearing things under my clothes.  Going into chastity when I am with female clients, (which I find very hot).  I added that although I am much busier now we can take some of the tasks I would do during the day and do them during the evening (like wearing a butt plug for X number of hours, or a bra until bedtime).  I think it's hotter to be wearing things with her around any way.

In addition to the above Mistress is "forcing" nighties on my again.  As much as I don't like wearing them, they do speed up my libido.  The very first night she had me in a nighty, I had a dream about me wearing pantyhose (with a hole cut out for my cock) while having sex with my Mistress as well as dreams about wearing panties 24/7 and people knowing about it.  I have been pretty ramped up the last few days thinking about all of my D/s fantasies with my Mistress.

I'd love to do a nice long drawn out post, but I don't have time.  That being said, I did find another blog post that I found pretty hot.  Here it is.

Right now hubby is “sleeping” in the bedroom and enjoying(?), well maybe not so much enjoying but ENDURING his Thanksgiving morning! It’s no parade for him this morning, hahaha! I have my honey stuffed with the large Njoy plug, tied to the bed and the magic wand secured firmly to his chastity cage. What an amazing way to spend your thanksgiving morning, don't you think??

About a half an hour into having him restrained like this I received a few texts and nothing does them justice like just taking a screenshot. He really was having a tough time because the wand was giving him just enough to edge him and keep him wanting to cum but he just wasn't getting pushed over. I told him he likely wouldn't want to cum because that wand was just going to give him some massive Post Orgasmic Torture, simply because I have no plans to turn it off if it does happen. :)

 The best part of all of this is when I went in there and straddled the wand, just like it is there, and gave myself one awesome orgasm. I soaked right through my panties! Fuck it was fantastic! I did torment him a good portion of the morning already. He is still restrained and the wand secure but I turned it off for now to give the wand a rest so I can do it all over again.  It's going to be a long day for him.

Locked up again

So I am in chastity for the 3rd time in less than a month. Apparently Mistress likes me locked up and as much as I want to say I don't like it, I do.  I like the helplessness and being controlled.  So much my cock just got very hard typing those last 2 lines.  

Since it appears I will be in chastity more often now, I added another page to the blog.  It will track the time I have been in chastity.  It's more of an FYI, but it will help me keep track of total days locked up as well as continuous days locked.  Maybe we will break some records :-)

In addition to the device.  Mistress told me I would be painting my toenails "girly pink" as well as clear polish on my finger nails.  She indicated she might add clear mascara as well, but didn't elaborate.

This morning I probably could have got away without locking myself up.  Mistress is wiped out from our trip and started her period so I am sure my cock is the last thing on her mind.  Unfortunately for me, when I first woke up this morning I remembered my instructions to lock myself up.  There was no way I was going back to sleep so I locked myself up (with the Prince Albert piercing lock) so I couldn't escape if I wanted to.  Just being locked up has my mind spinning a million miles an hour.  I want to be such a sissy little bitch today.

  Since Mistress is having her period, I can't imagine she has any use for my cock for some time, however here are some things I've been thinking about since I woke up.  A boy can hope, right?   I love my Mistress.

Teasing while watching TV

No need to unlock you to ruin your orgasm

There is no way I will push you over the edge

So close yet so far

 

Every great once in a while, Mistress needs to assert herself — and my need to have the reset button firmly pushed — overlap squarely.

Handcuffs, armbinder, ring gag, plug and no set amount of time locked in the crate. Not an erotic thing so much as a Total Power Exchange experience, for which it was ‘time.’

I remained that way far longer than was comfortable, which is to say until those buttons were firmly set for both of us.

Follow up to yesterday

Last night Mistress mentioned she liked my post from yesterday.  It has been some time since she has commented on a post, so based on her comments, I found some additional pictures and words based on yesterday's post.

Teasing Him to Tears... Medium length true story http://monkeyinacage.wordpress.com/2013/11/29/teasing-him-to-tears/

There’s something wonderfully erotic about being helpless and having a woman happily yet mercilessly drive you crazy like this!!!! Your options are limited to writhing, pleading, squirming, begging, and finally just enduring until you end up screaming!!! If I had to guess based on this video, I’d say he’s going to get to do ALL of those and maybe MORE before she’s done with him!!!! Lucky HIM!!!!



DAMN but I LOVE this video!!!! And i know EXACTLY how this feels, and it makes me go EVERY BIT as crazy as he looks!!!!!



Applying CONSTANT and REPETITIVE pressure to the underside of the glans (frenulum; aka “sweet spot”) is the perfect way to EDGE your buddy and turn him into a moaning spaced out fucker in record time. If you really want him to go apeshit, continue to rub your thumbs over this area and up and down on his piss slit during and AFTER ejaculation. Keep doing it until he cums a second (third, fourth?) time.



Edging must include a factor of random outcome. To know beforehand that he will only be edged, then denied, will lead to the male losing hope. While this is effective at crushing any remaining hope in having control of his own penis, losing such hope can affect the quality and responsiveness of his erection, not to mention erode his mental state. If he never knows how edging will end for him (orgasm, ruined orgasm, cbt) he'll continue to hold out hope and be fully responsive.



I'm gonna hit that edge over and over. I will drive you nuts. You will be begging me real soon.



For the love of God, please… let me cum.



Once a month Mistress plays a little game:  she tries out some new and interesting ideas she has picked up on the blogs for how to make her man’s cock swell and ache the most;  she will keep going until he begs her to cum or to stop because he is going to cum.  If he makes it more than 30 minutes, she will take his blindfold off and do a strip tease and fuck him nice and slowly (until she cums - but clearly he doesn’t).  If he can’t make it 30 minutes, she leaves the blindfold on, gives him a full body lap dance while getting herself off with a vibrator (all while touching, sitting, and leaning on him).  Then, back in the cage - either way.



The position and pace are so tantalizing…



The sweet torture of her edging.  Super light touches to keep him on the edge and frustratingly deny him his release. I need an intermittent feather light touch when I’m on the edge otherwise it’s game over!



"… Ooooh oops, so sorry, it just slipped. Want me to try again boy?…:"




Edging…. hours of entertainment…. turning men into babbling idiots who will agree to almost anything for release….mmmmm


"…Too much?.. .Don't worry, it will be…"



”..Something like this you had in mind when you begged to be touched?….”



Unless he can come, driven by my moans and my spastic movements, he’s shit outta luck…  Once I’m finished, it’s over.  I’ll send him off to wash my girlcum off his prick and lock himself in his chastity device.



”.. Some loud screaming was heard through the house. Her hands was force emptying him for the 5 time that day - It was so painful and he couldn't believe it. After the 1st one she had smiled teasingly and in in her playful sing a song voice said  ”that was 1 of 12 today boy”……”



The night before last, I edged him so many times he shuddered violently each time I pulled my hand away. He whimpered and writhed so much, grinding himself against the wall, I thought I was going to lose him down the side of the bed. I couldn't see his face but his breath came in sobs and whimpers, his whole body convulsing each time I stopped. Finally, I climbed on top of him and slowly danced my pussy over his hard length, edging him at first before finally giving him permission to cum for the first time in a week of edging. The noise that came out of his mouth surprised even him. Halfway between a sob and choking on his own saliva. I collapsed on to him and held his sweat soaked shivering body and thought how lucky I am to have such a beautiful responsive toy to play with.


Of course, I'd like to return the favor.

Slow, slow, slow. You’re not going to cum tonight, but if you can surrender to me and be patient, I’ll eventually speed up and bring you to that begging, frenzied state you love so much. Would you like that, toy? Then breathe for me, close your eyes, and just concentrate on how my tongue is slowly, lightly licking up and down. Slowly, lightly, up, and down…



Stare at this for me. Just stare and breathe half as fast as she’s breathing. Two seconds to inhale, two seconds to exhale… nice full breaths… still a little faster than normal, isn't it? Keep breathing and watch. Imagine what time of day it is. Wonder how long he’s been doing this. Notice the cuffs on her wrists and the blindfold over her eyes. Did you notice the plugs in her ears? Watch his neck as he obviously works his tongue. Appreciate her stomach moving as he licks, she has that intake of breath. Continue those deep, measured breaths as you realize that this tiny snapshot in time probably felt like an eternity for her.. and that after this moment was surely more of the same, slow tonguing that will soon have her squirming and whimpering in her bonds.