Butt Plug Thoughts

I have been sitting on this for over 45 minutes when I started this post.

I still have an hour and 15 minutes to go.  In addition to this I am in my heels, dress and panties.  My mind is a horny mess as well.  Normally when I put the plug in, I am on my knees with my chest resting on the edge of the tub.  Comfort is my only goal.  This morning was different.  I lubed the plug and my tight hole with one of my legs up on the edge of the tub.  With my 6" heels I felt so slutty raising my leg like that.  I soon realized that I was tighter this way and needed to change positions if I was ever going to get this in my ass.  I almost went down on my knees but I wanted to try something different.  I bent over at the waist and locked my knees.  I slowly pressed the plug up against my hole and I pushed in a millimeter at a time, and pulled back out going back and forth.  I looked down and saw my legs in heels and my dress hiked up above my cock.  I felt so submissive and slutty taking it up the ass this way.  I imagined Mistress behind me pushing the plug in.  When I got to the widest point of the plug, I took a deep breath and pushed it in all the way.  I got flush from the strain.  I was now plugged and would remain so for at least 2 hours.  I was in subspace.

I am not plugged often, but when I am I can't avoid having super submissive feelings.  There are few things that remind me of just how desperate I can be in my need to be treated poorly.  In fact I am clenching my ass, trying to take the plug in deeper.  Sitting is easy, almost erotic.  Walking around is a challenge.  The constant stimulation of movement triggers the colon to want to expel it.  Keeping it in becomes a task. The worse part of wearing the plug is removing it.  The emptiness, the lack of stimulation on my prostate is a big let down. When the plug comes out, I will feel it for hours.  I will miss it.

Writing this post has me thinking about a couple of the more devious ideas I have read about.

• An hour in and an hour out.  All day.  Making the sub insert and remove the plug is more torturous than wearing the plug for an extended time.  The removals leave that empty hollow feeling, and the insertions irritate the hole in just the right way.  It's like a super slow ass fucking.
• Wearing one to bed.  I have never done this, but have read it can cause some interesting dreams.   Not sure how easy sleep would be, but I certainly would have sex on the brain.

Wearing this plug also has me thinking about things Mistress and I have done.  Of course a strap on dildo.  I love the helplessness of taking it in the ass.  Also a TENS controlled butt plug.  Having electricity pulse my ass and make it contract against my wishes.  That's a real mind fuck.

In closing, I am loving the things Mistress is making me do.  Dressing in feminine clothes.  Locking my collar around my neck.  Making me plug my ass.  I yearn to do more, to suffer more.  Thank you Mistress.

           

'Working' from home

My last orgasm was on January 13th.  After today it will be 60 days.  My all time record is around 75 days.  If I don't have an orgasm the rest of the month, I will easily set a new record and I want Mistress to be the record holder, not my ex.  Even after setting a new record, I am pretty OK with the idea of not being allowed to cum.  However at the same time, I think that forgetting how good an orgasm feels makes the denial easier.  There is something about having an orgasm that makes me want one more.

This morning Mistress got up before I did.  In my current state of mind, I decided to edge myself before getting out of bed.  It was very easy to bring myself to the edge and I had some thoughts running through my mind.  Mistress has started working from home exclusively.  When she went to an office every day, I had the ability to edge myself while she was at work.  I also was able to dress or not dress as I chose.  I could also occasionally do a little self bondage.  Now that she works from home, I have less freedom, which is exactly what I want.  So my edging this morning had me thinking of ways that Mistress could mess with me.

I thought of every cliched sexual harassment story you've ever heard, but with me as he one being harassed.  Being made to get her coffee, or a drink or some other task just so she can ogle me or feel me up.

That made me think of the secretary movie and how bondage and spankings made their way into the office.

That made me fantasize about having to wear restraints on my ankles and wrists on the days I work from home.  Making it easy for Mistress to restrain me at my desk or on our bed for an occasionally "break" during our day. 

  

Having Mistress set out my attire for the day.

Or even better.  Having to service Mistress and or suck her strap on like the slutty office secretary.  I imagine having to give Mistress an orgasm every hour during our work day.

Or having to work in my cage for the day at Mistress feet.

Or having Mistress control my butt plug during the day.

I managed to edge myself about a dozen times while I thought about all of the nasty ways Mistress could use me.  I finally stopped when I almost leaked a bit of pre-cum.  I didn't want to have to lick up cum first thing in the morning.  I got dressed up in my 2nd shortest skirt with heels and a blouse.  I am in such a mood.   

In closing, Mistress now has the ability to really keep me under her thumb in so many ways.  

Moving forward

Mistress responded positively to my last post.  We had sex that night and told me that she did indeed have lots of time to deal with me.  With changes at work she could certainly put me under her thumb as much as she needed/wanted to.  She told me I would be plugging myself for 2 hours on Friday.  Failure to do so would put me in the cage for a long time.  She also reminded me that I owe her some cage time.  She added that during cage time I will be dressed in humiliating ways to add to the effect.  I have the feeling that she will be breaking me of some of my issues.  I'm hoping my post gives her the confidence to embrace her dominant side and give her tools to handle me when I disobey.  I am determined to be an obedient submissive, I just need help at times when I have insecurities and feelings of guilt.  I assured her I would love it if she had more control.  Control over my computer, money, clothing, etc.   I woke up super horny this morning even though I just came a couple days ago.  I believe it's due to the prospect of where this can take us.

Last night Mistress allowed me to skip wearing a nighty but only if I would wear feminine boy shorts and a camisole.  I picked out a pair of pink women's boxer briefs and a pink spaghetti strap camisole.  Waking up in this outfit my cock was straining against the shorts.  I tossed and turned this morning thinking of getting some feminine sleep outfits.  I thought about Mistress putting perfume in my nighty drawer as an added mind fuck.  I also thought about having to sleep in various forms of bondage.  Cuffs, even if not attached to anything, straight jacket, etc.  That's when I came to the realization that if Mistress makes me wear feminine clothes to bed every night that I will spend one third of the rest of my life cross dressed.  The thought of it makes my head spin a bit.  I am so horny that I am still wearing my outfit under my house clothes.

I just wanted to write a quick post about how lucky I feel to have been able to define my issues and move forward with my total submission to my Mistress.

A couple days ago I found this.  Normally a list like this is something I can;t agree with 100% and I would edit something out.  In this case I feel every one of these things.

Stuff running through my mind

Instead of a topic, this post is just a bunch or random stuff going through my mind.

I was given a list of tasks today.  I enjoy being able to help Mistress with things she feels need to be done.  On top of it she added the kinky task of my butt plug.  2 times in less than a week.  I feel very fortunate.  I also vacuumed the house as I know Mistress wanted it done even though she didn't ask me to.

Chastity is still going very, very well.  I don't know my record being locked up, but believe it's in the 10-14 day range.  I have gone far longer without cumming, but that doesn't really count any longer.    Normally I feel sorry for myself or get pissy because I am not getting other D/s, but my mindset has changed.  For some reason, chastity feels right this time around.  I mention this to let Mistress know I am really ok with staying locked up or released for some fun and locked right back up.  If this changes or I am having issues, I will communicate and not let it build up.

Nighty.  Mistress is continuing to have me wear a nighty.  Here is last night's.  This one is a little tight but it certainly goes straight to my head.  I have been in such a mood the last 3 days I have worn my nighty long after I woke up.  It's too cold to wear it by itself, but I put my pajama pants and shirt on over the nighty.  I am able to still feel the straps and the bottom of the nighty.  It makes me feel very naughty.  I imagine having to wear my nighty under my clothes some nights before Mistress gets home from work as well when I get up.  In the summer, nighty only.

Errands.  With the mood I am in I can sexualize just about anything.  When I go to the dry cleaners I imagine Mistress only having me drop off my feminine clothes.  Or even worse, just one item that clearly is a little slutty and in my size.   At Walmart or Costco, I imagine Mistress telling me to buy something feminine with the other things.  Today they had women's Speedo one piece swimsuits at Costco.  I imagined having one that I would have to wear in our hot tub.

Orgasm without ejaculation.  I have been doing a lot of reading on this topic and it seems like it's something that can occur with some practice.  The best part is that it seems multiple orgasms can be achieved.  I can only imagine the mindset I would have going months without post orgasm let down.

Massage.  Mouth, fingers and toys.  Until I am up to a stage where I can orgasm without cumming, I have thought A LOT about serving Mistress with my hands, mouth, and toys.  I want to tease (in a good way to build up an orgasm).  I want to make her write with pleasure and squirt all over.  I want to be able to know her body like I never have so that she can derive the most amazing pleasure.  And the best part is my needs don't matter.  If she wants my cock in her, I will do that.  If she wants me locked up I will do that.  I just want to make her cum over and over and over again until she is spent.  

Communication.  Mistress warned me the other day that she would need time to ramp up into more of a D/s mindset.  I completely understand.  I tend to get over excited, however this time around I have a different mindset.  I have no preconceived notions of things happening.  I want to enjoy my chastity and denial and focus that energy into pleasing and serving Mistress.  I am excited to focus on Mistress pleasure sexually, and while I still want intercourse I'm hoping to delay my next ejaculation as long as possible.  I can appreciate Mistress wanting to take getting back into D/s slow.  To help me with it, I just need a little bit of encouragement.  Tasks, picking out my nighty or other naughty items, and occasionally bringing up my situation in a naughty way will go a long way.  I get mentally insecure, so for me to know I am doing something that turns Mistress on in some way is a great way to take away any doubt I may have.

     

Delaying

Mistress gave me a task to wear my butt plug for a minimum of 3 hours today.  Normally I do it as soon as possible to get it over with.  Today I will wait until I get home from work.  I want the anticipation to build all day.  To think about how long it's been.  To have everything build up.  I want to be plugged when Mistress comes home.  I want to feel the shame and erotic humiliation of the things I am willing to do.  I want my early morning horniness to go away so the shame is even greater.  I dream of Mistress making me drop my pants to show her I am plugged or to have to ask permission to remove it after the three hours.  I also dream of her making me put my plug in before bed but still having the 3 hour minimum rule.  I would either sleep with naughty thoughts or barely sleep at all.

Gotta run!

Update

So it's been over a month since I last posted.  Life has gotten very, very busy with me starting a new job (while I still have my old one).  Mistress and I also went 3 weeks without having sex.  That's pretty close to the longest we have gone in over 4 years.

This weekend we got to have sex again.  Mistress was pretty verbal during sex and got me pretty ramped up.  She told me things were going to start getting back to where we both want them.  With me wearing things under my clothes.  Going into chastity when I am with female clients, (which I find very hot).  I added that although I am much busier now we can take some of the tasks I would do during the day and do them during the evening (like wearing a butt plug for X number of hours, or a bra until bedtime).  I think it's hotter to be wearing things with her around any way.

In addition to the above Mistress is "forcing" nighties on my again.  As much as I don't like wearing them, they do speed up my libido.  The very first night she had me in a nighty, I had a dream about me wearing pantyhose (with a hole cut out for my cock) while having sex with my Mistress as well as dreams about wearing panties 24/7 and people knowing about it.  I have been pretty ramped up the last few days thinking about all of my D/s fantasies with my Mistress.

I'd love to do a nice long drawn out post, but I don't have time.  That being said, I did find another blog post that I found pretty hot.  Here it is.

Right now hubby is “sleeping” in the bedroom and enjoying(?), well maybe not so much enjoying but ENDURING his Thanksgiving morning! It’s no parade for him this morning, hahaha! I have my honey stuffed with the large Njoy plug, tied to the bed and the magic wand secured firmly to his chastity cage. What an amazing way to spend your thanksgiving morning, don't you think??

About a half an hour into having him restrained like this I received a few texts and nothing does them justice like just taking a screenshot. He really was having a tough time because the wand was giving him just enough to edge him and keep him wanting to cum but he just wasn't getting pushed over. I told him he likely wouldn't want to cum because that wand was just going to give him some massive Post Orgasmic Torture, simply because I have no plans to turn it off if it does happen. :)

 The best part of all of this is when I went in there and straddled the wand, just like it is there, and gave myself one awesome orgasm. I soaked right through my panties! Fuck it was fantastic! I did torment him a good portion of the morning already. He is still restrained and the wand secure but I turned it off for now to give the wand a rest so I can do it all over again.  It's going to be a long day for him.

Tease and Denial Fantasy While Plugged

I sit here plugged more than 2 hours and working on my 3rd hour task.  This is my first post since Mistress released me from chastity.  It was by far the longest I had been locked.  Mistress was nice enough to release me for 30 minutes to use me for her orgasm (as well as giving me one) and mean enough to lock me back up.

She has since been adamant about me wearing a nighty every night which I find kind of hot.  Hot because she wants to see me in it, not hot because I am wearing it.

Since I am posting I wanted to add the fantasy that has been running through my mind since I've been released.  It has Mistress tying me down and teasing the hell out of me.  Getting me close (or not even close) to the edge of cumming.  I imagine her doing it for hours and taking frequent breaks or going as far as to tying me down while she watches her programs.  I'd be blindfolded and possibly have headphones in.  Either way, she wouldn't let me cum.  She would do it until I was a sweaty mess of a man with tears in my eyes.  She would interrogate me about fantasies.  She would put suggestive ideas in my mind.  She would tease me about making me dress up in public or other humiliating things. She would make me agree to do things she knows I don't want to do.  Essentially she would break and destroy me by working me over so bad.

Here are some inspirational images.

Feeling Slutty

I wanted to write this while my testosterone is still at its morning high.  I'm plugged with my largest plug, pantied, my fingernails are painted clear and my toenails are painted one shade pinker than clear.  Last night Mistress surprised me by making me wear a nighty.  After being in chastity all day and wearing the nighty last night, this morning's tasks have me hyper-sexualized right now.

I have to confess.  As much as I dislike the physical discomfort of chastity, it's more than compensated by what it does to my brain.  I am pretty much a helpless little slut right now even though I am not locked up.  Replaying the last couple times in my brain and how I felt has me very amped up.  I will probably regret what I just wrote, but I can't deny the effects of chastity.

I was so ramped up last night after being told to wear a nighty that I had a hard time going to sleep. I had so many naughty thoughts going through my mind, but most of them were not about my pleasure, they were about Mistress using my for her desires.  I fantasized about her going out with a friend of hers to a swingers club with me locked in a cage at home.

Today's fantasy...
If I didn't have so much to do today I can imagine me sitting here in just a bra and panties. My nipples clamped, the dildo gag in my mouth, a posture collar around my neck, high heels on my feet, restraints locked on my ankles and wrists.  I would be locked in chastity, and instead of a butt plug, Mistress would have me put a dildo on my ass.  Mistress would text me telling me I had to stay like this until she texted me back.  I wouldn't know if it was for how long.  My jaw would ache, my nipples would be on fire.  I would get a text, but it would be her saying she is watching me on cam.  She would tell me to rise up and down on the doldo in my ass.  She would taunt me about what a slut I have become.  She would be saving pics to humiliate me with later.

A couple things that spoke to me this morning.

Confession: this is on my wish list.

Shocking dog collar

Very Hot

 

Today's edge

I scrolled by this and had to come back to it.  There is technically no D/s here, but it's still hot.  I don't think I'd last long...