Meaner

A few weeks ago I read a post that has had my mind going. It was a survey a blogger did as she was under the impression most submissive's wanted a "meaner" Mistress. Another reason that this stuck in my mind is that my Mistress (MBB) had recently mentioned how she would make a great pro-Domme because she could be so mean to clients they would come begging for more.

The Survey...

What Do You Mean By “Mean?” 

Harsher punishments 98 (53%)
More humiliating tasks 88 (48%)
Longer periods of denial 81 (44%)
More ruined orgasms 73 (39%)
Longer periods of chastity 70 (38%)
More chores to perform 41 (22%)
More stifled orgasms 32 (17%)

Votes so far: 183

Full article is here http://mistressivey.blogspot.com/2013/01/mean-poll-results.html?zx=ed0a1ed083d5df37

Add my Mistress' comments about being mean if she was a pro and that has kind of had my mind spinning.  What would she do to other guys?  How mean would she really be?  Does loving me make it hard for her to be "mean" to me?

So what is mean? To me, mean is what someone else looking in would think was mean. For me being in a D/s relationship it actually means the opposite. It means my Mistress cares enough about me to treat me in ways only she could. To push past my pre-conceived limits and take me to new places would probably seem "mean" to me even initially, but would actually be a huge wow afterward.  Even chastity which I hate so much has a place in the mean category.  I often fantasize about things that are gross, humiliating, painful, boring, etc.  When I fantasize about it, I imagine hating it, even getting pissed off, but to see MBB looking me in the eyes while she did it, as she pushed through my pissiness would be so fucking hot.  To be taken to anger, fear or embarrassment and brought back from it seems so amazing.  To have the strength to do that on her end would be a challenge as well.  It's tough to seriously fuck with someone you care about.

All of that being said, I have a raging hard on just writing about all of this.  

   

Fucking Machine

Yesterday's edge had me thinking about all of the possibilities of our fucking machine.  Too bad there aren't more ideas of submissive guys having to endure such torture.

Venus 2000

Today's edging had me thinking about the most diabolical machine for orgasm/tease torture.  Just like the machine, I got to the edge very quickly this morning.

Some random online images...

Switcharoo

Today's edging exercise had me thinking about what I would do if my Mistress liked to switch or decided she was actually submissive.  Things I fantasized about.

Deciding on what she would wear on some days to work (stockings and heels).
Make her wear a corset one day to work.
Short skirts on weekends.
Tying her to the bed and alternating between teasing and several forced orgasms.
Have sex with her on the website where people can watch.
Make her masturbate in front of others from her PC.
Cane her until she safe-worded.  She is very, very stubborn so that could produce some nice bruising.
Predicament Bondage.
Make her use her mouth to clean off toys she just came on.
Ball Gags, and ring gags.
Remote control toys while we are out at dinner.
Breath play and choking while having sex.
Switching weeks of who is in control.  I could see it escalating week to week, getting even and such.
Take her to see a pro Domme


I think it would be easier for me to initiate sex if I was the on in "control".  As a submissive I don't feel it's my place, and I know that causes us some issues.

 


 

Predicament Bondage

This morning's edging had me fantasizing about predicament bondage.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Predicament_bondage

It's such a mind fuck to have to choose between to situations, neither which is pleasurable.  I can think of so many ideas, I'm surprised I can't find more pictures.

9 to 5

Last night found me tied down to the bed with a blindfold on.  My Mistress alternating between stroking my cock, smacking me in the balls or hitting me with various implements on my inner thigh (no bruises today though).  We chatted about my post from yesterday and she commented that me in a sub role would be her preference.  Mainly to show her friend the power a woman can wield with a man and the rush she gets.  MBB then told me she was going to ruin my orgasm.  I begged her not to.  I would rather have a full one or none at all.  I did get a little lucky though. She waited until cum actually started shooting out.  By then I was half way into my orgasm, so I got to have some of that awesome orgasm feeling.  My horniness went from a 9 to a 5.  Darn-it!

This morning's self edging had me thinking about what her and her friend would do to me if they could...

MBB's Friend

I wanted to thank Miss Bossy Bitch for bossing me around lately.  Yesterday I painted my toenails pink, my fingernails clear.  My mind had a little bit of a submissive buzz while painting my nails.  I also had to sleep in a nighty last night.  The nighty was a total mind fuck, because part of the night I couldn't sleep, but I could certainly feel the fabric of the nighty surround me as well as the padded cups giving me breasts.  Add that to the morning edging and I am getting to be quite a mess.  Thank you again MBB!

Mistress Bossy Bitch also happened to mention that she and a friend of hers have recently spoken and intend to meet up.  The only reason this even comes up is that this friend, (I'll call her Miss J) knows about our lifestyle and has expressed some interest in trying some submissive type activities   MBB even offered to let me crop Miss J a while back although nothing came of that.  Now I don't think anything would ever happen, but it doesn't mean my teased and denied brain doesn't have a mind of it's own.  While edging this morning, I thought of a few things.

With me as a submissive...

• Serving MBB and Miss J wine and dinner while I wore a suit or some other "uniform".  I would not be allowed to drink or eat with them as my role would be purely to serve.

• Being made to watch MBB and Miss J be sexual with each other while tied up or locked in a cage.

• MBB using me to teach Miss J how to Domme her husband.

• Miss J would push MBB to be more strict and demanding of me by giving her moral support.

• MBB would have Miss J hold the key to my chastity device.

• Having Miss J meet Sophia (the name MBB has given me when I cross-dress).  I imagine this would horrify me even though it was in my thoughts this morning.

• Be made to Chauffeur MBB and Miss J to dinner, drinks clubs, etc.  I would have to stay in the car.

• Forced cum eating.

• Double penetrated with strapons.

With me and MBB as Dom and Domme (while I mostly like to bottom I think I am a  pretty good Top, but MBB doesn't like to switch)...

• Crop, Cane and Single Tail Miss J.

• Put Miss J in some difficult predicament positions.

• Forced Orgasms - no stopping.

• Electricity!

To reiterate, I have no illusions (or real desire) of any of the above happening and Miss J isn't my type at all.  Things I wouldn't normally consider become easy to think of in my current state of mind.        

Helpless

I must start with a thank you to my Mistress for giving me an order this morning.  I was instructed to paint my toenails pink and my fingernails with clear polish.  At first I thought I was to paint my fingernails pink too.  My heart skipped a beat knowing I would be looking an pink fingernails all day.  I clarified that it was to only be clear nail polish.  Either way, I was slightly humiliated at the thought, and instantly got hard thinking about it.  I'm not sure how I acted after she told me to do this.  I have a hunch it might have come across as indifferent or something less than enthusiastic, but I want to ensure that she knows it means the world to me that she gave me a task to do.  I am very excited to do as told.

This morning's edging had to do with being helpless.  We have been catching up on episodes of the TV show Dexter.  Every time he has a victim on his table I can;t help but think of my kink.  Being plastic wrapped to a table, naked, head immobile, I can think of so many better (naughtier) things to do other than kill the person. This morning I imagined MBB wrapping me up and causing major discomfort, breath control, CBT, etc.  The helplessness of it all gets me all hot and bothered.

Tease and Denial

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Erotic Humilation

Let me start by thanking MBB for making me wear a nighty to bed last night.  There is no way to sleep in a nighty and not think about kinky things.  Every time I moved positions I had to adjust the nighty and that would remind me of my place and my mindset.  The nighty is what made today's edging fantasy very easy to come up with.  Erotic Humiliation, here are things that while mild to very humiliating, I find very hot.

Panties
Wearing a bra any time but particularly in public
Wearing pantyhose
Wearing lip gloss or tinted lip balm in public
Clear mascara
Clear nail polish
Colored nail polish , I can actually feel it on my nails, but seeing it is extra humiliating
Fake nails - typing all day would be a mind fuck
Collar

Masturbating in front of MBB
Wearing anything feminine in front of MBB
Feminine jewelry - toe ring, anklet, piercing items

 

Wearing Pantyhose with shorts in the summer.  Being made to get out of the car (ATM, Gas)
MBB taking Sophia for a drive
Going on a trip together and finding only toys and femme clothes in my luggage
Anything to do with my cum, especially more humiliating after orgasm
Fucking myself in the ass with a toy in front of MBB
Femme fake tattoo on lower back - have temp tramp stamp in nightstand drawer
Temp Tattoo anything, anywhere

Using Sharpie Pen to write on my body - lot's of ideas come to mind here

Femme deodorant, perfume, etc.
Being outed
Dog cage

Sucking strap on
Shocking dog collar - because I am such a wimp when it's on me
Bikini sun bathing
Sleep in bondage
Webcam exhibitionism











Milking myself with anal toy
Shopping for embarrassing items
Standing in corner
Made to watch MBB masturbate while in chastity
Hogtied inches away from MBB pussy and can only watch
Fucked in the ass while in chastity

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Erotic_humiliation

Wow.  It's amazing what a little edging does to me.