Recalibration

I am currently away from home and my Mistress.  I am out of town working and last night attended a Christmas get together with co-workers.  As I was just starting my evening at the restaurant, I got a text telling me to check my email when I had a break.  Of course I couldn't wait.  I immediately checked my email while being very aware of my surroundings.  I have had a submissive mind since I was a pre-teen, and have spent 30 years with D/s as a part of my life.  The email I got was one of the hottest communications I have ever received.  I have read it and re-read it many times,  I like it so much I am immortalizing it here...

cal·i·brate

ˈkaləˌbrāt/

verb

1. mark (a gauge or instrument) with a standard scale of readings.

o correlate the readings of (an instrument) with those of a standard in order to check the instrument's accuracy.

o adjust (experimental results) to take external factors into account or to allow comparison with other data.

When you return tomorrow night, we are going to revisit (or recalibrate) standards of excellence and go forward expectations. I will leave you with a picture to remind you of home...

What you are seeing is my steel chastity device with the most humiliating of my nighties.  The nighty is something what was purchased at a Wal-Mart many years ago.  It's the kind of nighty some guy that is clueless would buy his wife as a gift.  It's Cheap.  It's tacky. The padding in the cups is excessive.  The colors are many shades of pink and lavender.  It's incredibly see thru.  When I wake up in it I have a great deal of erotic shame.  It's not a nighty I would ever choose for myself so it is a perfect choice for D/s purposes.

Other than nighties and chastity I have no other clue what Mistress has in mind.  I am excited, but also trying to be careful of what I wish for.  Just writing this post has my cock incredibly hard.  No matter what happens to me, I know I need it.  I am looking forward to re-calibrating my submissive brain and yearn be the best slave a Mistress could have.  Regardless of what is asked of me it is my goal to obey, learn and serve. I really want Mistress to enjoy having control over me and benefit from it so that it feeds a desire in her to be more and more in control of me.  I am up for the challenge what ever it may be.  My head is spinning in a good way...

Hungover, Horny and Homesick

I am currently out of town on business.  Last night I had dinner and drinks with a co-worker and drank a little too much.  This morning I could have slept in, but I ended up with my common hangover horniness keeping me from falling back to sleep.

Mistress had decided to not do any D/s stuff with me on the road, which in some ways is nice, but at the same time my slutty little self misses it.  As I tossed and turned trying to fall back to sleep I imagined being locked in my plastic chastity device for the trip since it won’t set off a metal detector.  In addition to being locked I imagined being in a nighty and thinking of my locked cock wanting to rub the fabric.  I fantasized about having magic marker writing all over me or having a fake tramp stamp tattoo on my back or finding panties hidden in my suitcase.  I thought about Mistress using her strap-on on me and ignoring my cock while making me thrust myself on her cock.  I got excited thinking about being fully dressed up as Sophia.  I dreamt about an upcoming trip we have to the mountains and Mistress finding ways to tease and/or torture me in our hotel.  I edged myself at least a dozen times thinking about Mistress being mean to me and I managed to not spill even one drop of cum.  It has been weeks since I have edged, I forgot how good it felt.  I was really riding on the edge and it felt amazing.  In short, I am a little worked up thinking about my Mistress and miss her so much.

Freed

Last Thursday I was in chastity at 4am not knowing when I would get my release.  At a minimum I had planned on 2-3 days.  I went about my day obviously thinking about my cock the entire day.  While waiting for Mistress to come home I was watching some porn with a male Dom and a female submissive.  I found in interesting the only time I have watched porn in weeks is when I am locked in chastity and even then it wasn't Femdom.

When Mistress got home we went to happy hour with some friends.  Almost the entire time I was reminded of my locked cock.  When we got home we hung out a bit before bed and when we got into bed I got a little frisky with Mistress.  She told em to go get some towels for the bed.  I reminded her I was locked and she said "oh yeah".  She went to grab the key to my device and we were quickly having sex.  Between my stupid libido and alcohol I begged Mistress to lock me back up and make me wear my nighty as soon as I came.  She said I would certainly be wearing a nighty but didn't say anything about chastity.  I came in no time and as we cleaned up Mistress reminded me of my nighty. Of course I had a post orgasm let down and as much as I didn't want to wear it, I was in no hurry to go back into chastity so I complied.

Friday morning Mistress commented on how lucky I was to be out of chastity.  I don't think that she planned on letting me out so soon and I was surprised and fortunate that she didn't lock me back up once she realized I was free.

Friday night I didn't put on a nighty as we had a niece staying with us.  However both Saturday and Sunday I put on a nighty without being reminded.  The humiliation I feel when I have to do it without a word from her is hard to describe.  In my own mind I imagine I am "forced" to wear one.  I could certainly choose not to wear one and Mistress could choose not to dominate me.  So instead of "forced" I call it "coerced".  Either way I feel a little slutty wearing one and I like that Mistress makes me do it.

As much as I hate being locked there is no denying it's effect on my behavior as well as my libido.  I always play back my time in head and end up aroused.  


The day I was locked up I saw this online and thought "that's kind of hot".

 

      

some links that spoke to me today.

http://sensationlevels.tumblr.com/post/134830621506/4am-desires-and-this-is-why-massages-are

http://houstonsubblog.tumblr.com/post/133344328343/chastitypoet-ohilovemymuffinboy-the

http://tdenialman.tumblr.com/post/133627053487/madamekeyholding-he-needed-to-roll-above-nine

Do the crime, do the time...

Last night after Mistress went to sleep, I checked my email.  There was an email from her for my tasks she needed me to do today.  After a couple of standard couple tasks, the last one was telling me that I was to lock myself in chastity and send her a picture.  Since she wanted a picture I think she was ok with me waiting until after she left for work.  As much as I hate to admit it, getting that email made my cock super hard and my mind started racing.  I even considered locking myself up right then and there, but decided against it so I could sleep.  I woke up around 4, and half the time I can go back to sleep.  But between the nighty Mistress had me wearing and knowing I would be locked up for some unknown time, I couldn't fall back to sleep.  Stupid submissive mind...

I got out of bed and put on my device right away.  I also sent her a picture  to make sure I followed her instructions to the letter.

While I could have likely delayed it, I figured the sooner I started the sooner it would be over.  Also my male testosterone in the morning makes me more susceptible to naughtiness.  As much as I hate chastity I can honestly say I am OK with it since I disobeyed Mistress.  Being punished (whether chastity or other means) resets my submissive button.  I don't purposely misbehave to bring D/s back.  I get insecure and my mind reverts back to trying to be a macho male.  My macho male side convinces my dormant submissive mind that it's OK to disobey.  I am lucky that Mistress reminds me of my place, my submissiveness gets restored and I am in the right frame of mind for quite some time.

Yesterday I was feeling naughty and wanted to show Mistress how I was feeling.  I wore some fishnet type stockings under my work clothes all day.  I also ran to the local grocery store and imagined what people would think if they knew what I was wearing.  I kind of wish I wore it until bedtime so Mistress could verbally taunt me for being such a slut.

Next week I will be out of town for 2 nights on a business trip.  I have been fantasizing about ideas to keep me D/s focused.

• Getting a brutal ass spanking before I go so that every time I sit I think of Mistress.
• A lock being locked in my cock piercing.
• Being written on in permanent marker all over my body.
• After laying out my clothes, Mistress would finish packing my suitcase to surprise me when I got to my hotel.

Now that I am in chastity the mind won't stop racing.  I am a little bit of a mess right now with all of the ideas going through my head.

To finish, here is a random Throwback Thursday post.

http://missbossybitchsboy.blogspot.com/2014/10/in-my-mind.html

 

 

Recent Happenings

It's been two and a half weeks since my last post.  Our lives have been hectic lately so we're lucky just to be doing our day to day stuff.

Last week Mistress and I had an early morning quicky and she whispered all sorts of naughty things in my ear.   Normally it takes me a long time to get to the edge in the morning, but her comments and her pussy got me there quickly.  She told me noticed that I had only been wearing men's underwear and that she wanted to start seeing me in naughty underclothes and that particular day she wanted me to send her a picture.  Said also wanted my fingernails painted clear or subtle pink as well as for me to wear a nighty at night.  In no time I was ready to cum which Mistress allowed me to do.

Of course I had post orgasm drop, and our lives were still very hectic so I chose not to do what I was told to do.  In my mind it was not so much an order but a suggestion, but that was just an excuse.

On Friday night Mistress noticed I hadn't done what I was told to do and she told me I would be going into chastity on Saturday.  She also had me put on a nighty immediately.  She commented on how if I didn't obey orders she would stop giving them, that stuck in my mind. The next morning Mistress said I would be given a temporary reprieve until Monday due to us having so much work to do around the house.  I was relieved.   Saturday night Mistress fell asleep on the couch  It would have been a perfect opportunity "forget" my nighty.  I was hoping to get out of my chastity punishment, so I put on the nighty before bed not even sure if she knew I wore it.

That night I woke up in the middle of the night and was trying to think of alternative punishments to chastity to recommend.  A through spanking came to mind, but that obviously takes effort on her part.  It's supposed to be my punishment not hers.  I thought of having to wear a bra 24/7 until she decided I was punished thoroughly enough.  That may be as bad as chastity.  Then I thought of a particularly devious one.  Recently I have been mentioning "corner time" and realized we have a perfect setup for it to make it effective and easy to implement.  We have a new security camera setup.  I could take a camera or 2 and set them up to monitor the punishment.  These cameras have motion detection.  Mistress could sentence me to an hour or 2 of corner time, make me set up the cameras and a phone timer and I would be stuck.  Any motion detected would add additional time now or later.  To add to the misery I could be put in a public part of the house and/or made to wear a bra, panties, and heels to add discomfort.  She could check on me or just let the motion detection do the job.

In the end I decided not to be a pushy bottom and not recommend any deviations from her plans. I managed to fall back asleep for a few more hours.  Upon waking Sunday morning I painted my nails clear (I couldn't find my subtle polish) and left the bottle out for Mistress to find.  I was hoping that eventually doing as ordered would lessen my punishment.

On Monday morning I got up and started to do some work around the house.  Monday was supposed to be chastity day and I was dreading it but knew I deserved whatever she decided to do to me.  I was willing to go into chastity but couldn't bring myself to reminder her in case she forgot.  The closer it got to Mistress leaving for work, the more nervous I got.  I expected to be summoned to our bedroom or to have her bring the device to me but neither happened.  I was relieved for the time being.  That night Mistress told me we needed to have a date night so I could be beaten for not obeying.  She told me she hadn't forgotten.  As it turns out or schedule is busy again so a traditional date night of going out is not the best option.  I was trying to figure out a time but it's either tonight, this weekend or next week.

All of that being said, things are getting a little more back to normal.  I wore some panties yesterday which now has me ramped up a bit.  While I don't want to go into chastity, I need to be punished one way or another.  I need Mistress to be in control of me and am working to get our D/s dynamic back.

A Timely Post

A couple weeks ago Mistress and I were driving and this woman cut us off.  We both yelled at her but I used a less than nice word about this woman.  Mistress even commented on the word I chose, but nothing became of it.  Not 2 days later a blog I follow had a post that was very timely.  As much as I wanted to post it when I saw it, she really took her slave to task.  I have avoided posting it until now.

F'ing B*tch

Oh boy did I have to ever punish my husband the other day!

He was driving in traffic in the city, I was in the car, and another driver cut him off. It was pretty egregious. They cut right in front crossing three lines of traffic causing david to have to brake hard, and then cut into a right turn only lane, and then went straight through the intersection cutting off another car and not even turning right! In the natural flow of traffic we happened to catch up and it turned out it was a female Asian driver (Chinese I believe). Fairly young looking. Fairly oblivious looking. david glared at her (she did not even see) and then muttered "fucking bitch".

Ooooh! He didn't! Nice opportunity for a scene.

Here is the rest of this exciting and scary post of hers...
http://strictjuliespanks.blogspot.com/2015/11/fing-btch.html?zx=63fb0399bc995e5c

Lucky Slave

Last night Mistress and I had date night.  After an appetizer and some drinks we rushed home for some naughtiness.  I got our room ready.  I pulled off the blankets, pulled the under bed straps out from under the mattress, put on a femdom porn video,  and put on my restraints and a blindfold.  Mistress tied me down and put a pair of panties over my head.  I am pretty sure they were a pair that I had  my dried cum in them, but can't be 100% sure.  Mistress alternated from stoking my cock and hurting me.  She seemed to be a little meaner, which I really enjoyed.  Mistress also bit me a few times, which I usually don't like, but I really liked it last night.

Mistress would comment on the video that I couldn't see which I found to be pretty hot as well. Mistress edged me many times and with my buzz, I am lucky she didn't ask me to speak.  I likely would have begged her to do many things to me I would later regret.  With a couple of my recent blog posts I could have been in a nasty situation.  As it was, I tried to pull the nasty panties in my mouth to suck on and show Mistress what a little slut I could be.  I really, really wanted her dirty panties from the day to be over my nose and mouth.  That would have pushed me over the edge!

Mistress toyed with not letting me cum, which would have made me mad and frustrated, but ultimately would have made me an even hornier and more desperate slut.  While last night's orgasm should have taken the edge off of my horniness it seems to have escalated it.  I woke up in my nighty (which I so did not want to wear) feeling all submissive and used.  I have some good marks on my skin.  One appears to be form a hitting implement as well as a couple marks that I am guessnig are bite marks.  I love being marked up by my Mistress.  I am so very lucky to have such a Mistress.

Here is something I read this morning that is so very true.

Why edging is the perfect compliment to denial.

You see, when existing in pure denial, it is sometimes easy to slip into that non-sexualized situation where cumming doesn’t seem important. Without reminders, it is possible to exist like that for days, or even weeks.

But with a simple command to edge (or to have someone edge you), your body is reminded about just how good it would feel to cum, and therefore the realization that you are not allowed to is so enhanced.

Even more so with multiple edges. After each one, the cock craves to be touched again, but as the hand is wrapped round that throbbing, rock hard penis, there is that sinking feeling that the end result will be even more frustration.

How to's

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Slut Shaming

I ran into this post this morning, and I shuddered a little inside.  I can't stop watching it...

Princess always laughs at my humiliation

This speaks to me on many levels.  The blue shimmer dress, the stockings, the pink bra, the hair with a pink bow, the slutty panties, the bracelet and especially the nails painted to match the dress.  I'm certain there are a pair of slutty heels that we just can't see.  I know he is looking at the nails on his hand as he strokes.  With the nail polish they look like someone else's, but he knows it's his own.  The reason I shuddered is I have done a combination (not all at the same time) of these things in the past so I know how I would feel.  Getting all dressed and made up, it would take a long time.  Looking in the mirror and feeling so slutty and sexy knowing what was about to happen.  Getting myself in a relatively uncomfortable position.  Aiming my cock at my face just so I can cum on myself all because I am wired a certain way.

It wouldn't take long for me to cum and on so many levels I wouldn't want to cum.  As I get close to the edge, emotions wash over me.  Knowing the shame I will feel as the post orgasm let down hits me, but I would still want to cum anyway after taking so much time getting ready.  As I started to cum I would be tempted to open my mouth, half because I want to be sluttier, but half so I don't have to clean so much cum from my face.  After an amazing orgasm I know the shame would run all over me.  I would get up and the cum would be dripping all over.  As I go into the bathroom to clean up I would see my reflection and wonder why I am so fucked up in the head.  I'd wonder how I got this way and if I would ever be "normal".  I'd also know that no matter the thoughts and regrets I had, I would eventually put myself in a similar situation again.  A slave to my submissive soul as well as a slave to my Mistress.  As I remove the makeup I would be amazed at the amount of time spent getting ready and getting cleaned up, all for a few minutes of ecstasy.  Over the next few hours I would think about what I did, the shame running over me time and time again.  Over the next few days the shame would turn to arousal and I would fantasize about doing it all over again, but being even more slutty and depraved the next time.  It's a major mindfuck to get turned on by deep shame.

As I wrote that I kept thinking of Mistress tying me this way, and after making me cum she would say "I am going to leave you tied up until that cum dries.  I want you to think about what a slut you are".  Or worse, she would unite me and not let me clean up.  My post orgasm self fighting the need to clean up.  The humiliation would be the worst.  So fucking hot...

Pic above came from this blog http://selfcumeating.tumblr.com/archive

Tumblr

I've had a Tumblr blog for a few years at https://www.tumblr.com/blog/mbbsboy

As of today I have 324 followers and I have made 4,937 posts.

I like Tumblr because it can be as little or as much as one wants to post.  I can also post things that intrigue me without having to explain them, so depending on my mood there are some fairly extreme posts on my Tumblr.

I see one post get reblogged constantly and it's extreme enough that it surprises me.  That made me wonder which of my Tumblr posts are the most popular.  Here are the top 10.

9247 reblogs

5959 reblogs

819 reblogs (this is the one that surprised me the most)

568 reblogs

566 reblogs

417 reblogs

217 reblogs 

204 reblogs

198 reblogs
















173 reblogs

Going to Regret

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Night Time

3:15 AM
I turn in my sleep
Something feels strange
I'm in a pink nighty Mistress told me to put on at bedtime
My cock gets hard
I pull the nighty down to cover my cock
My cock gets harder
My brain starts thinking about Mistress doing nasty things to me
I drift off to sleep with thoughts going through my mind
5:15 AM
I turn in my sleep
Something feels strange
I'm in a pink nighty Mistress told me to put on at bedtime
My cock gets hard
I pull the nighty down to cover my cock
My cock gets harder
My brain starts thinking about Mistress doing nasty things to me
I can't go back to sleep
I keep thinking about nasty things
I lay next to Mistress feeling pleasantly humiliated
I get up to go to the bathroom
I lift up my nighty and sit like a girl
I notice the lace of the nighty and my pink toenails
I walk out and see my reflection in the mirror
The nighty clings to my body
I wish it were warmer in the house
I wish I had the guts to wear the nighty until it's time to get dressed for the day
I take the nighty off
I notice the bra-like marks the nighty leaves in my skin
Mild humiliation runs through me
I hang up the nighty for all to see and to humiliate me throughout the day and evening
I feel very, very fortunate that I have a Mistress that is willing to indulge me and push my boundaries

Oral Worship

For the most part Mistress isn't into receiving oral sex.  I don't think it does much for her, as she is big into penetration.  However that doesn't mean I don't fantasize about being required provide oral sex or to be tortured with her pussy.  For some reason in both Male Dom and Female Domme porn, being required to service the dominant is seen as submissive.  For that reason I frequently fantasize about Mistress making me service her pussy and ass, her smothering me with her pussy and ass as well as squirting all over my face when she comes.  I dream of her taking her juices and smearing them all over my face and not untied until they are dry. Forbidden to wash them off. I think about hours spent between her legs, sometime gagged just so I can be immersed in her scent.  Mistress using her body to not only pleasure herself but to humiliate me in the process, I get hard just thinking about it.  I want to be her pussy worshiping slave.

Here are some hot examples (many, many examples)

Delaying

Mistress gave me a task to wear my butt plug for a minimum of 3 hours today.  Normally I do it as soon as possible to get it over with.  Today I will wait until I get home from work.  I want the anticipation to build all day.  To think about how long it's been.  To have everything build up.  I want to be plugged when Mistress comes home.  I want to feel the shame and erotic humiliation of the things I am willing to do.  I want my early morning horniness to go away so the shame is even greater.  I dream of Mistress making me drop my pants to show her I am plugged or to have to ask permission to remove it after the three hours.  I also dream of her making me put my plug in before bed but still having the 3 hour minimum rule.  I would either sleep with naughty thoughts or barely sleep at all.

Gotta run!