Quick Post

Just a quick post.  I painted my fingernails with clear nail polish as instructed by Mistress.  I also decided to wear something naughty today while out seeing customers as I am to do occasionally.

How to treat a (typical) man - I'm not typical

Last week Mistress texted me this picture and a comment saying how we need to make an exception for #9.  I added that we can make an exception for 1,2,6,8,9,10,11,13 and 14 based on our D/s relationship.

That really got me to thinking about how I like to be treated.  This book is titled "MAN LEADS, woman follows, Everyone Wins".  I hate any advice that acts like these is one size that fits all.  I can certainly lead and do so in my day to day, but I really strive to have someone lead me in the bedroom and in our relationship.

So the list above can be flipped for me as far my kinky needs.  Let's take them one by one.

1. Never belittle your man.  I get this on a day to day basis, but in the bedroom, I can really get off on this.  "Who's my little slut?", "Look at those panties on you", "Do you think you deserve to cum?"  I could go on and on, but there are a million ways I dream of Mistress belittling me.  I think it's hot and it gets me to the edge faster.

2.  Never talk down to him.  I don't know why the author thought this is different than #1 so I have nothing to add.

3.  Never ignore him.  I can think of a few times being ignored would be hot.  Locked in a cage.  Tied to the bed and left to stew in my own thoughts. Tied and ignored while Mistress gets herself off.  Made to stand in a corner.  Ignored while Mistress plays with a girl.  Orgasm denial is another great way to ignore me.  When we first met, Mistress had a hard time ignoring my orgasms.  I actually had to beg her to not let me cum.  She got pretty good at denying me, eventually sending me home without an orgasm after she had multiple.  Lately she has been very generous with my orgasms, but denying me fulfills a submissive need for me.  I think a daily orgasm for Mistress is good while I am limited to one or 2 a month. 

6.  Never cause him to feel embarrassed.  I edge myself to the idea of Mistress embarrassing me I find it so hot.  Kneeling naked, masturbating into my own hand and eating it. I can't think of anything more embarrassing.  Sucking a dildo and Mistress making me say how much I love cock.  Dressing feminine and going online to follow the instructions of others.  Not being allowed to take off my nighty in the morning or having to wear something feminine when Mistress comes home.  All of that just pushes my buttons so much.  I am hard thinking about being embarrassed.  I sometimes think Mistress tries to avoid embarrassing me which is a pity because I really do fantasize about her making me do things specifically to embarrass me.  It's one of the reasons I spend so much time thinking about cum eating, cross-dressing, being written on, and even considering piss play.

8.  Never manipulate him.  I love the idea of being manipulated.  Being told to wear my chastity device when Mistress knows how much I dislike it feels very manipulative to me.  Knowing I don't want to wear it, but knowing I need to do as she says to keep our D/s dynamic going.  It's a mind fuck to have to do something I don't want to do.  Also having to do things to earn release or to earn D/s is a hot way to manipulate me.  

9. Never boss him.  I like being bossed both in and out of the bedroom.  If Mistress wanted to boss me more than she does now I'd be very OK with it.

10.  Never laugh at his mistakes or faults.  I can imagine Mistress setting me up to fail at a task and then using that opportunity to make fun of me.  I can also imagine her laughing at me when I am tied down or dressed up and emasculating me for my "needs".

11.  Never put any person before him.  In the past Mistress has been with a woman, and for that reason I have long fantasized about Mistress having a girlfriend a Mistress or a female slave of her own.  I have thought about Mistress cuckolding me with a woman.  I would be home while she went out with her girlfriend, or I would be told to sleep in a cage or in another room while Mistress girlfriend stayed the night.  I would have to get up and cook them breakfast and serve it to them.  

13.  Never be inconsiderate of his feelings.  In a D/s context I relish when Mistress is inconsiderate of my feelings.  Whether it's not letting me cum, forcing me into chastity, hitting my balls, hitting me when I am restrained until I am begging to stop, making me wear nighties when I don't want to, making me do what I promised to do when I was on the edge.  All of these things require Mistress to be inconsiderate of my feelings.  Especially as I ask her to do things to me that I know will make me mad at the time.   It's considering my feelings to be inconsiderate of my feelings (With a double negative like that, no wonder D/s can be so hard in a relationship).

14. Never tell his personal business.  I have a fantasy of being outed by Mistress to another woman.  When I first met Mistress she shared our relationship with a friend or two, but I'm not sure how much.  I can still imagine Mistress telling someone something about my proclivities.  I imagine it would be in a drunken state on a trip far away from home.

In conclusion, Mistress is very, very good to me.  She respects me, loves me, puts up with this side of me and makes me feel like the most important person in the world.  I feel astronomically lucky to have found her. Sometimes I think she loves me so much she can't push me the way I think I want.  I think she may fear hurting me or pushing me away.  I can sense a reluctance to push my limits or maybe it just takes too much energy to do so.  Either way after spending nearly a week thinking about the book page she sent me and how I am wired, I can assure Mistress that I need the opposite of what the book says men need.  This is not meant to be a pushy bottom email, just a communicative one.     

Videos, Edging and Eating Cum

I have a lot to do today, but I wanted to make a quick post.  Last night Mistress had made sure I wore a nighty.  I truly appreciate it when she tells me to do something in a D/s way.  At the time I was not wanting to do it as my male ego got in the way.  However this morning I woke up very, very horny.  As I walked to the bathroom I felt the padded cups of the nighty.  Once I got to the bathroom I pulled up my nighty (I sit to pee due to the piercing in my cock).  I felt very naughty and submissive.  I also thought about as much as I didn't want it last night, I happy I was to be wearing it this morning.  The erotic humiliation is intoxicating.  I then weighed myself, picked out some new panties and my male clothes and got ready.  I removed my nighty and admired the marks from the straps on my shoulders, the marks left from the cup.  I turned to look at my back and was surprised how much the back was marked from the nighty.  I may have been lucky I didn't wear my nighty more on our trip.  Someone may have noticed when I took my shirt off (blush).

After Mistress left for work I found some more videos to be able to be viewed in our bedroom.  I focused on ruined orgasms, caning, post orgasm torture.

While waiting on a download I decided to edge myself a few times.  I am allowed to edge, but if any cum is released I must now consume it.  I found a video of a woman with her boyfriend locked in chastity and tied down.  He was also gagged with duct tape forcing him to breathe through his nose.  She verbally teased and tormented him while teasing his cock and making him smell her pussy.

Apparently the idea of being locked and teased was too much. My edging didn't go as planned.  I thought I would go for a good 10 minutes or so.  I edged myself and while I was still soft, a good drop of pre-cum escaped which I had to lick up before proceeding. I decided not to edge any more as I didn't want to eat any more cum.  Cumming and stopping before I even got hard was not part of my plan.  A half hour later I still have a sticky taste in the back of my throat.

  

Fall Is In The Air

Even though we are having an unseasonably warm fall, you can tell it's coming.  This time of year reminds of being a kid and going back to school.  There's football, the smell of fireplaces, leaves falling, chili in the crock-pot, I could keep going on.  But this time of year also seems to kick my submissive mind into high gear.  Here are some of the things I am looking forward to or wishing for.

• Painted toenails.  I've calculated that I wear nail polish in my toes for about 7 months out of the year.  Mistress likes blue and purple, which I do as well as it really stands out, but to me it's masculine enough to have some plausible deniability.  Pink, fuchsia red, etc are undeniably feminine and more emasculating (in a good way to me).  As much as flip-flops crack my heels in the summer, maybe I should wear nail polish year round :-)

• Feminine clothes under my male clothes.  With it cooling off it's much easier and more comfortable to wear things like pantyhose, tights, leggings, camisoles, bras, corsets, body shapers, etc under my male clothes.  I have been fantasizing about wearing women's undershirts that have lace around the neck, arms and bottom of the shirt.

• Markings on my body.  Having more skin covered up means the ability to mark my skin.  I dream of bruises (especially with my new fondness for rubber bands), magic marker, skin dye, temporary tattoos (tramp stamp) and maybe some scarring as well... 

• Around the house.  I have some lounging clothes that are better suited for winter.  Also, sleeping in a nighty or feminine pajamas won't be so uncomfortably hot.
• Hot Tub.  We use our hot tub more in the winter.  I have been thinking about wearing my bikini or getting a humiliating one piece for the hot tub.

I'm sure I am missing something regarding fall/winter naughtiness however I am very much looking forward to being naughty this fall.

Vacation Sex

Mistress and I went on a recent trip and we had a great time.  We had more sex in a week than we have in the last 2-3 months.  It was awesome.  Here are some takeaways from our trip.

• Porn.  Our hotel was an adults only hotel and they had one channel of free porn that was available all the time.  It was a little more hard core than I would have expected. There was some mild D/s themed programs which also surprised me.  We had sex quite a few times with the porn playing in the background.  However the best was when  Mistress had me tied to the bed and blindfolded.  She had porn playing which I could hear and she would describe to me what was happening.  It was such a rush, I have now figured out how to get porn in our bedroom.  I imagine lots of Femdom playing on the TV when we play, but also some guy on guy porn or transsexual porn when Mistress wants to fuck with me.

• Rubber bands.  I brought some rubber bands on the trip which I put on myself prior to Mistress tying me to the bed.  I was somewhat drunk the night of the rubber bands so I think the pain may have been a little numbed. While I remember it was painful I really, really liked the marks it left.  I liked how Mistress could cause so much pain and she didn't even need to pick up an instrument to hurt me.  I am turned on about thinking about experimenting more with rubber bands, especially with winter coming and bruises being easier to hide.  I think about Mistress "writing" words on my body with bruises from rubber bands as well as bruising my cock and balls with rubber bands.

• Feminine wear.  A few nights I had to wear a nighty and I wore panties one or 2 times.  It's such a catch-22 for me.  I love Mistress to make me wear feminine items, but when I have choices my ego gets in the way and I revert back to my male ego.  This was especially true this trip since I had so many orgasms, wearing a nighty was about the last thing I wanted to do.  So not wearing one to bed felt like a minor victory, but when I would wake up in the morning I would miss the erotic humiliation of waking up in a nighty.  Wearing a nighty especially when I don't want to is a great show of her power over me.  It's such a conundrum for me, my male ego fighting with my kinky side.  But ultimately, Mistress forcing femininity on me goes straight to the deepest part of my brain.  Being told what to wear very fulfilling.

• Cum Eating.  One night I talked Mistress into a deal.  If I came inside of her and didn't immediately lick it out of her that she would force me into chastity for an entire month.  Just the thought of either item got me close to the edge.  Mistress verbalizing me locked up and teasing the fuck out of me got me to the edge instantly.  Mistress didn't think I would do it, but as soon as I came I went down on her.  We didn't get much of a chance to see how far I would go or how good of a job I would do since room service showed up about 5 seconds after I put my head between her legs.  Saved by the bell!    

• Pee.  One might Mistress peed in a place that a few people could have seen.  I certainly saw it but I don't know if anyone else did.  I was shocked as this wasn't like her.  Being my my drunk and horny state my submissive mind took off.  I took her straight back to the room to have sex and to see what happened.  While were having sex I told Mistress that when I was feeling particularly nasty I fantasized about piss being part of my fantasies.  She said that she would tie me up in our shower and piss on me.  As I write this the thought of it grosses me out but at the same time it's making my cock very, very hard.  The humiliation and the loss of control overrides the "ick factor".  I have had some thoughts on how to incorporate piss in our play.

All in all we had a very sexual week.  We traveled with some friends we couldn't have me running around with bruises or risk one of them seeing panties sticking out of my pants, but hopefully on some future trip I will be Mistress' chastity wearing panty slave.  I love our life.  

P.S.  I edged and had some pre-cum leak out.  I licked it up as required. 

In a mood

This morning I woke up not feeling so well.  That tends to make me go to my happy place which is normally easy for me to think of things.  For some reason today I had no specific thoughts.  That was until I came across a post on Tumblr.  This one post and 5 pics got me going.

After I saw those 5 pics my mind was off and running.  I dreamt of Mistress gagging me and making me smell her panties or even worse, smelling my own panties.  I thought about other things like having Mistress dirty tights gagging me and her crotch tied right under my nose.  The only way to breathe would be through my nose so I would be engulfed in her scent.  I can imagine the endorphin rush just from that.  Then my mind drifted off to being gagged with panties crusty with my cum (and Mistress cum too).  I was surprised how many pics there are of women gagged with panties, but hardly any guys.  Stupid internet.

 

Some Eye Candy for Mistress

Mistress has commented on how she likes this slaves pictures.  Here are some recent ones from http://deviantdisplay.com/

Devoted Pet.
No matter how many thousands of miles I traveled, my little slut followed me obediently, trying to be useful in any way imaginable. -Mistress

Summer vacation for a sissy.

To make sure Pet was on his best behavior, he was locked up whenever we ventured outside. I loved seeing his poor cock strain against the hot metal cage, keeping the slut stimulated and frustrated all day. -Mistress

Shameless.

My caged pet looks delicious in the sunshine. It makes me want to do very depraved things to her. -Mistress

Cock tease.
While recently out of town I left Pet uncaged with the caveat that he not cum prior to my return. He made use of the time by teasing himself in anticipation. -Mistress

In his proper place. 
This is one of my favorite photos of Pet. It’s exactly how I want him to be at all times–dressed like a slut, on the floor, plugged and caged. -Mistress

Like a toy.
When I tease Pet by pulling the chain attached to her cage, it makes her cock drip. Pet enjoys being on a short leash. -Mistress

Show and tell.
Pet couldn’t wait to model the new “panties” I got him. I think it makes his ass look even more fuckable than it already is. -Mistress

Marinating in Horniness

I'm not sure what's going on with me.  The last few weeks I have been on 11.  I have been feeling super slutty.  Anything feminine just gets me going.  Mistress' comments last week about having me plan scenes has pushed me up to a 12.  

For example.  Yesterday Mistress told me to wear something sexy under my work pants.  I took it to the next level and wore a fishnet body suit.  I could have removed it as soon as I got home, but the little brain in my cock wouldn't let me.  I got so fucking turned on wearing this under my clothes while working and running errands.  Whether is was the attractive account executive for another company talking to me at a luncheon or the checkout girls at the grocery store or Wal-mart I felt very humiliated thinking they knew what I was wearing under my clothes.  Of course they didn't but that's where my mind goes.  The contrast of feeling my body encased in fishnet and my cock and balls free was a nice mild mind fuck.

Lastly, Mistress has been quickly reading my posts and she has been commenting on them.  Having her comment on something I just posted humiliates me in a good way.  It's a huge turn on to get her feedback, especially if it's something she likes. 

I ave posted 2 new scene ideas (HERE) and this will likely be my last post for a week or 2. 

Chickened Out

I recently posted about "bra training" Mistress mentioned that it made her think of a pink bra in my panty drawer.  Last week I tried it on to see how it would look and it looked surprisingly good.  I have a defined chest so it wasn't too obvious.

This morning I woke up and was in my hangover mood which means I am extra horny as a way of going to my "happy place".  When I got out of bed I put on that pink bra and the closest pair of panties I could find to match it (I'm surprised I don't have more matching sets).  I then got dressed and thought I could pull it off without Mistress noticing.  As I got to the bottom of the stairs I chickened out wearing the bra.  The padding was maybe more obvious than I thought, and then I got self conscious and then took the bra off before going upstairs.

I added another scene as well.  Also, even though the scenes are posted, they are not done.  As I think more and more about them, I will edit them, update them, add more variations as well as pictures.  If a scene title sounds interesting, go back and revisit as it may have changed.

Pushing Limits

Last night Mistress had a girl's night out.  I was in a bit of a mood so I wore this while watching TV.

Despite being horny, I almost fell asleep on the couch.  I decided I was no longer horny and was ready for bed.  Mistress came home a short while later and got into bed.  She said "put your nighty on".  I did as told and my horniness was re-awakened. I went from almost falling asleep on the couch, to not falling asleep for 90 minutes.  Mistress' one comment hit me in the brain.  That and me wearing a nighty.

As I tried to fall asleep I had some thoughts.  So far all of my scene ideas are "extreme".  Not extreme in the general sense, but they are all scenes where I want to be pushed past my limits.  For example, my rotisserie self bondage scene (described HERE) was specifically designed to push me past my limits.  There is no way in the world I would purposely yank clothespins off my cock and balls, let alone slowly.  As much as it hurt, my only regret was that I was able to jerk away and speed up the removal.  In my fantasy world Mistress would tie me so I couldn't move and she would whisper in my ears how this was my doing.  She would taunt me for being such a twisted slut.  She would be masturbating while I scream suffer.  While I know she cares, I would love to see her enjoy my suffering.

The same goes for the spanking, cum eating, the face fucking, and electricity.  I don't want her to stop when I start begging her to.  I don't want her to stop when I start shutting down and getting angry.  I want her to stop when I have accepted that she wont stop.  I suspect it will be difficult for us initially as we learn how to respond.  Sub-drop and top-drop are to be likely.

No matter what though, just thinking about Mistress pushing my past my limits has my cock so hard right now.

Also, I dreamt up some new scenes last night, posted here Scene Ideas

    

Mistress has my mind spinning

Mistress' recent comments about wanting me to loosely script some scenes so she doesn't have to take too much time to plan has my mind spinning lately.  I have had many, many ides going through my mind, but putting them to words is a little time consuming.  Since Mistress made me sleep in a nighty last night, it's all I could do to go back to sleep the few time I woke up during the night.  Feeling the silky material all over my body, the straps digging into my shoulders and the padded cups.  I would have naughty thoughts while trying to go back to sleep.  It made me want to wake her up and have my way with her...  That being said I woke up early and couldn't go back to sleep so I have added some scene ideas to the list.  I managed to have a nice little edge while researching some ideas for my electricity post.  I didn't ooze as I didn't want to risk having to taste my cum today.

Here is a previous picture of the nighty I wore last night...