I have been ordered to wear something sexy under my clothes this week. Yesterday I chose pink leggings. These were by far the sexiest feeling garment I have worn all week. The leggings were thick and tight. I almost felt like I was restrained while I was wearing them. Every step I took I could feel them (even more than garters). They smashed my cock down, so where I would normally have a bulge I had none. That was a little emasculating, but in a good way. All I could think of is "what if the person I am talking to knew what I was wearing". While I was physically relieved to get out of them, mentally I was not. It was kind of like being untied. The discomfort went away, but the stimulation did too.
In addition to wearing something sexy under my clothes during the day I also have to wear a nighty to bed each night. There is something different this time about having a standing order. I have to think about what I want to wear. I have to plan it and make it happen. There can be no excuses or MBB will punish me by taking away D/s. It's a mind fuck because I have to overcome my inhibitions and insecurity and just do it. I have to own it and I have to accept that I like dressing up. I am emasculated in a way that is so sexy to me, especially when she sees me in something sexy or naughty. It affects me deeply in a very good way.
One thing about this week is I keep thinking "I wish I had this or that to wear". I have imagined several outfits and sleeping clothes. I can't help thinking this way. I go into sub space just thinking about it.
Today's edge was me fantasizing about everything above as well as the concept below.