As I have written many times is that I am not a good initiator of sex. I find that when I imagine initiating, I almost always end up imagining D/s with me in a dominant position. In my mind, I can't be turned down if I am the bossy one. Of course, real life isn't that way, but that is where my mind goes. Here are some stills of the videos I edged to this morning. I can get pretty worked up thinking about Dom'ing my Mistress (if she'd let me ever again).