2017 was tough for me professionally and financially, but on the D/s side of things I was very fortunate. As I was waking up this morning with Mistress cock straining against its chastity cage, I realized my kinky side had a lot to be thankful for. Here is a rundown of my submissive 2017.
- I had only 21 orgasms in 2017. This is a new record for me. 18-20 years ago when I traveled for a loving I came at least 2-3 times a day if not 4-5. I would estimate I have 900-1000 orgasms per year back in my younger more sexually selfish days.
- I had zero orgasms in February, July and December.
- I had only one orgasm in March, September, and November.
- In May I had 6 orgasms or more than 25% of the whole year.
- I set a new record of 72 days straight with no orgasm.
- I spent 103 days in chastity. That beats my previous best year by more than a month. That is far more than any year in my life. It is also a great starting point to try for 365 days in 2018.
- I just no realized that I am now in the longest period of continuous chastity in my life at 37 days and counting. My previous record was 28 days, 2 years ago around this same time of year. I am very excited to find that out.
- I was dressed in feminine attire more in 2017 than all of my previous years combined. Not only was I dressed more, I wore perfume more, I wore heels more, I wore bras more, and I stayed dressed for entire days, not just a couple of hours. 2017 was not a record year for nighty wearing however.
- I embraced my feminine side.
- I embraced wearing a chastity device.
- I spent more hours locked in a cage than I ever have. This is not pleasure at all, so accepting it has been good for my submissive development.
- Mistress has started using me for her sexual pleasure while not concerning herself with my pleasure.
In so many ways 2017 was a banner year for me in my submissive mind. I am very fortunate to have a Mistress that accepts me for who I am and wants to help push me further. So that being said, here are my submissive goals for 2018
- My #1 goal is to break my nasty attitude and demeaning manner when communicating with Mistress. This part of me is the only part of my father I have in me. It's part of who I am unfortunately. It doesn't mean it can't be corrected. I cannot break it by myself, so I have requested Mistress to do whatever it takes to help me make it go away. We are coming up with a plan to help me, but I want to reassure her that she can do whatever it takes to break me of this nastiness. I need to fear the consequences.
- Fewer orgasms. I think something in the 2-6 range would be good, although an entire year without one sounds very exciting.
- 365 days of chastity. I don't know if this is possible, but it is something I am serious about making happen.
- Being collared 365 days. This morning I locked my collar back on. I will have a plan for being able to travel with my collar on as well.
- I would like to be dressed feminine much more, but it's been so long since I have been fully dressed than I am insecure about it and need Mistress to coerce me a bit. It's not just dress either, just something to keep enforcing my feminine side.
- Becoming more of a servant to Mistress. From serving her wine, to helping her bathe, I want to truly serve her like a servant in ancient Egypt would serve his Mistress.
- Being used by Mistress for sexual pleasure much more.
- Starting to play in some darker areas. Exploring things like temporary banishment, public feminization, forced-bi, and cuckolding. These last 2 are not something I want for real, but I do think being verbally taunted and threatened with them are kind of hot. I love a good mind-fuck.
- Now that Mistress and I both work from home, Mistress can fully control me in ways she couldn't working from an office.
- To be more owned then ever before and for Mistress to be more pleased than ever before.
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