After many years of fits and starts I truly believe we are heading in a direction that will put me further and further under Mistress' control. I'm very excited.
Since we both work from home now Mistress truly has the ability to control me 24/7 if she so chooses. Gone are the days where she would head off to work and I would be able to do whatever I wanted. I am incredibly excited about the direction this can go and hope that there is no turning back.
Last night as Mistress and I were about to get into bed, Mistress threw something on the bed. I looked down and it was a pair of keys. Mistress told me to remove my chastity device as she wanted to use her cock. I went into the bathroom and removed my device and used a wet wash cloth to clean any scent from her cock. I went back into the bedroom and Mistress was lying on a couple of towels and was playing with herself. Almost as soon as I climbed back into bed, I got very hard and I was inside of Mistress almost instantly. I thought for sure that I would be in the edge in no time, but I was able to go longer than I expected. Even though I went longer than expected it still wasn't long enough to get Mistress off. When I stopped to keep myself from cumming, Mistress had me use my fingers on her G-spot. I teased and edged her a couple times before giving her an orgasm.
After her orgasm she told me to put my cock inside her. I did and as I got closer to the edge, Mistress asked me when my last orgasm was. I told her that it was November 22nd or 8 weeks and 1 day. I added that I was in chastity the entire time less 2 days. Mistress told me that she felt it was time for me to have an orgasm. I pathetically begged her to not make me cum and that I would to anything to avoid that fate. I then told her flat out that I was going to refuse her order and accept any punishment she decided to dish out. After a few minutes of her telling me to cum with my cock inside of her and me refusing, Mistress told me to giver her another orgasm with my fingers. This time I got her off in less than 30 seconds. I then put my cock inside Mistress and after a few strokes she told me to stop. I didn't. She commanded me to stop a few more times before I relented. She told me she was done with me and to lock myself back up. I offered to give her another orgasm but she refused.
I went into the bathroom, washed my cock off again and locked myself back into chastity under Mistress' supervision. Mistress hid the keys as I went back to bed. When Mistress got back into bed, she teased my balls and told me to put the cane on her bathroom vanity when I got up in the morning. She plans on caning me and she also plans on restraining me for it. I asked her to not restrain me and see how much I am able to take, but she refused saying she didn't want to have to deal with me being unrestrained.
To be fair, her concern is warranted. I believe that a proper beating requires restraints. A fight or flight response will happen if she beats me the way I need to be beaten. I need to be pushed past that point and the only way is with restraints. There will be a point where I will get mad and if I am tied up there is nothing I can do about it. I need to stay tied up until I have recovered from the anger and frustration and am back into my submissive mindset. I'm not big on aftercare, but some tenderness and discussion while I am still tied up and recovering is the way I imagine being the most beneficial. Being given a verbal reminder that I have asked for this a long time and I am finally getting the cruelty I have begged for, for so long.
As we drifted off to sleep I thanks Mistress for not making me cum. I didn't want to be the guy that I am after an orgasm I also assured Mistress again that I am very excited about where we are headed and that no matter what, I am hers to do with as she pleases. I let her know that she doesn't need to worry about pushing me to hard or being too cruel. No matter what she does to me I will take it. I am here to serve, be her domestic slave, her sex slave, her sissy slave and do whatever she wishes.
Side note. For whatever reason I can't think about a spanking without thinking of a pair of panties I have like these. It seems like the perfect target as the butt is framed and exposed. However, I have been reading about how important the spot where the thighs meet the butt is such a good punishment spot and these cover that spot.
Since we both work from home now Mistress truly has the ability to control me 24/7 if she so chooses. Gone are the days where she would head off to work and I would be able to do whatever I wanted. I am incredibly excited about the direction this can go and hope that there is no turning back.
Last night as Mistress and I were about to get into bed, Mistress threw something on the bed. I looked down and it was a pair of keys. Mistress told me to remove my chastity device as she wanted to use her cock. I went into the bathroom and removed my device and used a wet wash cloth to clean any scent from her cock. I went back into the bedroom and Mistress was lying on a couple of towels and was playing with herself. Almost as soon as I climbed back into bed, I got very hard and I was inside of Mistress almost instantly. I thought for sure that I would be in the edge in no time, but I was able to go longer than I expected. Even though I went longer than expected it still wasn't long enough to get Mistress off. When I stopped to keep myself from cumming, Mistress had me use my fingers on her G-spot. I teased and edged her a couple times before giving her an orgasm.
After her orgasm she told me to put my cock inside her. I did and as I got closer to the edge, Mistress asked me when my last orgasm was. I told her that it was November 22nd or 8 weeks and 1 day. I added that I was in chastity the entire time less 2 days. Mistress told me that she felt it was time for me to have an orgasm. I pathetically begged her to not make me cum and that I would to anything to avoid that fate. I then told her flat out that I was going to refuse her order and accept any punishment she decided to dish out. After a few minutes of her telling me to cum with my cock inside of her and me refusing, Mistress told me to giver her another orgasm with my fingers. This time I got her off in less than 30 seconds. I then put my cock inside Mistress and after a few strokes she told me to stop. I didn't. She commanded me to stop a few more times before I relented. She told me she was done with me and to lock myself back up. I offered to give her another orgasm but she refused.
I went into the bathroom, washed my cock off again and locked myself back into chastity under Mistress' supervision. Mistress hid the keys as I went back to bed. When Mistress got back into bed, she teased my balls and told me to put the cane on her bathroom vanity when I got up in the morning. She plans on caning me and she also plans on restraining me for it. I asked her to not restrain me and see how much I am able to take, but she refused saying she didn't want to have to deal with me being unrestrained.
To be fair, her concern is warranted. I believe that a proper beating requires restraints. A fight or flight response will happen if she beats me the way I need to be beaten. I need to be pushed past that point and the only way is with restraints. There will be a point where I will get mad and if I am tied up there is nothing I can do about it. I need to stay tied up until I have recovered from the anger and frustration and am back into my submissive mindset. I'm not big on aftercare, but some tenderness and discussion while I am still tied up and recovering is the way I imagine being the most beneficial. Being given a verbal reminder that I have asked for this a long time and I am finally getting the cruelty I have begged for, for so long.
As we drifted off to sleep I thanks Mistress for not making me cum. I didn't want to be the guy that I am after an orgasm I also assured Mistress again that I am very excited about where we are headed and that no matter what, I am hers to do with as she pleases. I let her know that she doesn't need to worry about pushing me to hard or being too cruel. No matter what she does to me I will take it. I am here to serve, be her domestic slave, her sex slave, her sissy slave and do whatever she wishes.
Side note. For whatever reason I can't think about a spanking without thinking of a pair of panties I have like these. It seems like the perfect target as the butt is framed and exposed. However, I have been reading about how important the spot where the thighs meet the butt is such a good punishment spot and these cover that spot.
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