This morning I am wearing pink yoga pants and a white fuzzy sweatshirt that is long enough to be worn as a very short skirt. Mistress chose them for me last night to wear. Putting them on this morning along with a nice spray of perfume has me sitting at my desk with a nice little sub-spacey buzz. I love it when she chooses my attire or makes me dress and/or wear feminine items.
The other day, I took the cane from the dungeon storage closet and placed it on the bed in our bedroom before work. It was where I left it when I came home from work so I moved it to a less obvious place. I wasn't sure how serious Mistress was about having the cane readily available for her use on me. Ever since then she keeps bringing it up so I am fairly certain I will soon be subjected an almost daily caning. I'd like to say that it frightens me, but my cock is hard. It's hard, not because I want to be spanked, but because I want her to wield her power over me, in all aspects of my life.
This last paragraph I'm calling my encouragement paragraph. It's easy to doubt one's self playing in the D/s dynamic, especially the female led dynamic. I want to let Mistress know that it't still very OK with me to keep me locked in chastity, collared, denied, and selfishly used for her pleasure. It's OK to make sure I am doing all the chores she doesn't want to do, to keep me locked in the cage, to force me to do things I don't want to do. It's OK to severely punish me for being disrespectful, to humiliate me, to have me serve you in any way you can dream up. Don't worry about going too far or pushing me too hard. We are a long way from my limits. I just want you to to feel confident with your power over me. I also want you to feel confident that I am here to protect you and love you as are my Queen.
The other day, I took the cane from the dungeon storage closet and placed it on the bed in our bedroom before work. It was where I left it when I came home from work so I moved it to a less obvious place. I wasn't sure how serious Mistress was about having the cane readily available for her use on me. Ever since then she keeps bringing it up so I am fairly certain I will soon be subjected an almost daily caning. I'd like to say that it frightens me, but my cock is hard. It's hard, not because I want to be spanked, but because I want her to wield her power over me, in all aspects of my life.
This last paragraph I'm calling my encouragement paragraph. It's easy to doubt one's self playing in the D/s dynamic, especially the female led dynamic. I want to let Mistress know that it't still very OK with me to keep me locked in chastity, collared, denied, and selfishly used for her pleasure. It's OK to make sure I am doing all the chores she doesn't want to do, to keep me locked in the cage, to force me to do things I don't want to do. It's OK to severely punish me for being disrespectful, to humiliate me, to have me serve you in any way you can dream up. Don't worry about going too far or pushing me too hard. We are a long way from my limits. I just want you to to feel confident with your power over me. I also want you to feel confident that I am here to protect you and love you as are my Queen.
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