Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Femme

Yesterday Mistress had me wear a camisole under my dress shirt while I went out to visit my customers in their offices.  The camisole I chose was a light blue one to go under my blue shirt.  It has a built in shelf bra and is very form fitting.  While I was getting dressed it didn't feel right to wear men's underwear with it, so I chose a pair of panties with the closest color.  These panties were lace so my cock and balls could feel anything on the other side of the lace.  They also offered no support, so my cock and balls were constantly reminded of being in panties.  While getting dressed my head was swimming with naughtiness and I had a slight buzz.  I was so buzzed I didn't wear a loose shirt like I was planning, but a fitted one to make it a little more risky (even if only in my mind)  During the day I would look in the mirrors in elevators and bathrooms.  I could easily see the top of the camisole, but I am certain no one else did. The mind fuck of thinking I would be found out even though the likelihood was one in a million was potent.  Last night when I came home I imagined being only in the camisole and panties along with a pair of heels.

Last night and into this morning the femme thoughts only got stronger.  I edges to the idea of panites or fishenets or panty hose under my clothes (without socks).  The camisole got me to thinking about wearing a bra.  Then it went to a body suit, body stocking, waist cincher, etc.  Before I worked out I thought of being in femme workout clotes and even thought about wearing a 90's era areobics outfit.

In short, I am in a Femme mood thanks to Miss Bossy.










Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Stuff

Last Tuesday night Mistress tied me down and beat the insides of my thighs.  Between the alcohol, endorphins and lust I had, she stopped before I safeworded.  I was sad at the lack of marks I had.  A week later I still have thin red lines from one implement as well as overall yellowing of the skin from the very light bruising I had.  I can't wait to repeat that.

Mistress is making me go out to see my customers today with a camisole on under my shirt.  I am a little nervous, but figure if I wear a looser shirt It won't be a big deal.  It took me awhile to find the camisole.  I have all of my feminine clothes in the basement.  I thought they were in a suitcase, but they were hanging.  While looking I was going through skirts, stockings, corsets, girl jeans, tights, etc.  That got me to thinking about wearing them.  That got me to thinking about what to edge to today.  I have read with some interest in the past about Mistresses that use a treadmill to make their slaves "walk a mile in their shoes".  Sometimes to punish their slaves for walking too fast when they are out, or to just get them walking more feminine.  Usually their cock is tied up to the front of the treadmill so the slave has to keep pace.  His hands are tied behind him, and the Mistress turns on the treadmill.  Speed isn't the goal, but distance is.

That in turn made me think about Mistress using the high heel locks on me while I am working from home.  I would be forced to wear heels from 6:30AM to 6ish PM.  I also edged to thinking about being locked in the stocks in the basement while wearing heels.  The combo of being bent over and also being on heels would be torture.

Edging while wearing the butt plug I was told to wear gets me so close to the edge so fast.  I did leak some,  but it wasn't so much me getting to close to the edge.  It;s the blug milking cum out as my kegel flexes against the plug and therefore my prostate gland.








  


Friday, September 13, 2013

Desires...

Some desires I have been thinking about but have not put in writing in some time.  I am doing this at the request of MBB.

My number one desire is to know what Mistress desires.  I always tell her my thoughts, but I really, really want to know what makes her hot.  I want to know what she thinks about when she gets herself off.  I want to know what she would make me do if she could.  Even if it does nothing from me, I want her to whisper her fantasies in my ear while we have hot sex.

My ass.  MBB asked me what I want done to my ass.  A good hard spanking would be one thing.  One to where I am begging her to stop.  Real begging.  We will have to work up to it to get her confidence level up.  She is worried about hurting me.  Ass fucking.  MBB telling me some afternoon to be clean and prepared for her.  It could be the fucking machine, her using a dildo, or her making me use a dildo on myself.  I also imagine her beating my ass while I have a shaved piece of ginger in my ass so my clenching makes it sting (http://tacit.livejournal.com/225189.html)

Chastity.  When I think of this I always imagine it being a pretty active scenario.  Lots of teasing, serving Mistress, pleasuring Mistress all with the idea that I won't be released or if I am released, locked back up without an orgasm.  I imagine lying in bed next to her, locked up and watching her pleasure herself (or being blindfolded while she does it).  Every night.
Unfortunately the chastity I fantasize about takes a lot of effort on Mistress' part.  Now on the flip side, I can still imagine chastity without all of that attention, but it would be much harder for me to take mentally and I can imagine some frustration and possibly acting out.

Cage.  We have a dog cage.  I desire to be locked up in it.  Not because I want to be in a cage, but because I want to know that MBB has the confidence to know she can lock me up and I will accept it.  I imagine after the first hour or 2 I would hate it, but knowing she "forced" me to do it, would be super hot.




Writing lines.  Either as punishment or as a way for me to end something (chastity) or to get something I want (scene time).  I'm not sure why this idea gets me hot, but I think it's because the task would take no effort on MBB's part, and it would be tedious and make me be focused.  I even found some online writing tools that track errors and add on lines for mistakes or delays.  http://writeforme.org/



























Feminization.  Panties every day.  Other undergarments when MBB chooses.  Nighties.  I really like her telling me to do it versus me just doing it.  It feels more like an order versus me just doing it.  Making me do something Femme in public.  Humiliating me in a feminine way.  Verbally taunting me about feminine things.

Cum eating.  I don't want to taste my cum (I really don't), but certainly want to be forced.  Addressed in detail HERE .  Actually I can think of a few things I don't want in my mouth, but the idea of it being forced gets me hot.

Some sort of scene where I am safe wording due to pain, frustration, fear, humiliation etc.  I imagine myself almost in tears before she decides to stop what she is doing.  I am sure pushing me this hard scare her, but I think we could build up to it.  I really dream of not being in control of a situation.   Like the saying goes, it's not bondage until you want out.

Skin cutting or marker writing.




Predicament bondage.  Much like one I used on her when we first met.  She could even make me create it...

Those are the things that have been running through my mind most recently.  Thank you Mistress for making me put them in writing again.



Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Today's Edge - Feminization

Between the weather turning cold and all of the new season of fashion magazines showing up at our house, today's edge had me thinking about feminine attire.  Panties, stockings, skirts, dresses, workout clothes, boots, heels, nighty's, etc.  It makes my head spin a little bit. What is unusual is I don't really get the feminization desire until longer times between orgasms.  I really do think it has something to do with the weather.  It may also have something to do with a few pictures I saw over the last couple days with very passable dressers.  I'm jealous of a couple of them...

















Monday, September 9, 2013

Today's Edge - Upcoming Trip

Mistress and I just got back from a nice long trip.  It's good to be home though.  During our trip we got to have sex and it was great.  Mistress said a few things when we did that got me off very quickly, and they have stuck in my mind ever since.  This morning I edged to those thoughts.

I have to travel for business this week.  Mistress told me that since she didn't want me wearing my steel collar on the road I would have to paint my toenails.  Now that always weirds me out since we have to take off our shoes at the airport, but other than wearing super thin socks, no one would know.  I always imagine people are paying far more attention to me than they are.  The other thing she said was that she planned on beating my ass so that I had something to remember her by.  I imagine me being tied face down on the bed and her going to town on my ass.  I edged thinking of being bruised (deeply).  I am sure I need to be punished for something.  I edged again thinking of Mistress gagging me with dirty panties so that our poor dog doesn't think she is killing me.  I edged again thinking of her giving me an "unsafe" word.  Since we don't play with safewords it would be a way for me to signal to her to not stop.  I could signal I have had enough, but that wouldn't mean that she has.  I edged again thinking of spanking me while plugged so that every clench fucks my ass.  I imagine her then using my cock for her pleasure while she feels the heat and the welts on my ass.

I then imagine the hard plane seat causing me discomfort for the next 2 days as a constant reminder of what I crave from her.  I also imagine her coming up with something else to humiliate me while out of town.

I do love her so much.

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Today's Edge - Edging

Today's edge had me thinking of being edged and edged without stopping.  I also ran into one pic of a guy gettting shocked by a dog collar.  His and her reactions are hot.






Shocking Dog Collar




































Monday, August 26, 2013

Today's Edge - Repeats

Today's edge had me thinking about a couple old articles I read some time ago.  I'm fairly certain I have shared them with MBB before.  These have a huge effect on my mind.

From the book "Female Domination":

Occasionally my husband will require correction. Lately we have been using a technique called Riding the Horse and I learned about it on the Internet. The horse is basically a bench with a beam. The idea is that he is made to stand with his male sexual organs resting on a pointed, but not actually sharp, wooden board as he straddles the beam. The board is just a little too high, so that having both feet flat on the floor is just too painful. His hands are usually handcuffed behind him and attached to the ceiling by rope, forcing his body to lean slightly forward, which exposes primarily the perineum and his organs to the pointed beam. Time becomes the big enemy, since eventually his leg muscles tire and he must adjust positions to relieve the stress.  But that just causes new stress and pressure, so there needs to be another shift, and so on. It creates a downward spiral where shifting becomes more and more frequent. All the while his organs are being raked across the pointed beam.

When he gets to the point where he is shifting continuously, he is now properly Riding the Horse.  It usually requires just under an hour for him to get to that point and during that build up time we have some very productive discussions. Once he is fully Riding, it becomes impossible to have a coherent conversation since his mind is pretty much occupied.  Sometimes I have him wear high heels, which both increases his discomfort, and makes a really great sound. The time he is made to ride depends upon the infraction being corrected. The pain level is obviously intense which is, of course, the point. A session on the Horse makes him very penitent.

By the way, I recently began introducing him to the idea of cuckolding. He put up a bit of fuss (for him) at first, but a session on the Horse can be very persuasive. The great thing about the Horse is that it requires hardly any effort from me. Time and weight, physics if you will, do all the work. In fact, the only effort required from me is to make it stop, and I have all the time it takes. We also use other punishments, but the Horse is fast becoming my preferred correction instrument.



How to make the Horse:

The horse is SUCH a wonderful addition for any female dominant household! In its simplest form, the "horse" is basically a sturdy saw horse with a pointed cross beam. Please share the photos with whomever you wish.

As for where ours came from, we adapted it from an existing saw horse -- which is useful for so many household projects. Our saw horse is very sturdy -- not one of those collapsible kind that some people have. All we added to this were uprights at either end, made from 1"x4" wood screwed deeply (at least 1.5" screws) into the horse. The cross beam was cut from a 1"x6" (I think) piece of wood using an angled blade on the table saw. It is a couple of feet long. The angle itself is about 30 degrees and is sanded just enough to remove splinters, but it is still rough. The cross beam is attached to the added upright pieces also with long screws.

The height is by trial and error. It must be high enough to ensure that at least one barefooted heel is off the ground at all times. (If you require the man to wear 5" high spikey heels, as I sometimes do, then
both heel points can rest on the ground. The pressure on his feet and calves should be enough to soon get him squirming. I add blocks of wood under the saw horse to make up the additional needed height). I believe that it is best if the "rider's" feet are about shoulder width apart. Our horse has rails near the bottom for this purpose, and to use as a tie point for the ankles. An ankle spreader would work just as well. Fasten his hands behind his back or in the front to his collar, or to a ceiling rope. Either way, you must ensure that he cannot use his hands or arm strength to relieve any of the pressure from the cross beam. It is that pressure, and the eventual need to shift it from one contact point to another, that will do the work.

The "horse" may not seem like it is doing anything at all for the first many minutes. But just give it time. He should be going clipity-clopity within an hour or so. Your experience may vary. A blindfold will also "enhance" his experience.




From Janet W:

Dear Elise, I wanted to share with you and your readers, especially the women, that technology can greatly assist a woman as she dominates her husband. I know some women complain that D&S is too time consuming and that men need too much domination in the bedroom in order for them to be obedient outside the bedroom. That is where technology and the use of gadgets can greatly help.

One example is strap-on play. There are devices available over the internet or at fetish shows known as “Fucking machines”. There are different types from hand held devices to elaborate machines. We have one that runs by motor and it has different stroke settings. Now I like strap-on play and we still do it the old way but sometimes I want to dominate my husband without having to go through the physically demanding workout of strap-on play. I want to use strap-on play as a discipline and the machine can go longer and harder than I can.

I will make my husband get naked on the bed and I will bind him in the desired position, either bent over something or on his back with his ankles fastened to the bed canopy post. I will use my fingers to lubricate him and then I will position the machine so that the dildo is against his anus. I guide the dildo into him and once I am sure it is in the proper position, I turn on the machine and it will fuck him for as long as I want.

If it is a D&S session, I might straddle his face and have him pleasure me or I might utilize other implements like whips and what not while he is being fucked by the machine. But there are many times the machine does all the work as I just observe. I do not leave him unattended but I might talk on the phone while I sit on his face or I might just sit there and read or I might just observe. It is easy on me and I love it when he gets to that place where he begs me to stop the machine. I can adjust the RPM and make it faster and more intense.

I can also control it with a remote control. I love to get him to the edge of orgasm and then turn it off. Then I will wait a minute or two and turn it back on. I can go back and forth like this which really drives him crazy. I can also get him to where he agrees to about anything I want. The fucking machine is great for both rewarding and disciplining a man.

Another device I like to use is a remote control cock ring that transmits electrical shocks. I can discipline my husband while he is doing chores or while he is pleasuring me by shocking his genitals at the touch of a button.

We had a spanking machine. It was a motorized device that swung a paddle and I could set the frequency and the harshness of the paddle. I could paddle him long and hard without ever getting out of my chair. Unfortunately that device broke and we have yet to fix it.

My point is that it is possible to discipline a man and have D&S sessions with a man without exerting much energy. Technology makes that possible and there are more and more devices being invented all the time. A woman can lay back and have her slave orally pleasure her and with a remote control she can spank him, fuck him, shock him, administer an enema (we did this before with a timed device that released the pre-determined amount of water in an enema bag into the enema nozzle that was inserted in his rectum), or whatever the imagination can come up with.

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Today's Edge - Packing

Mistress and I have a dungeon in our house in a spare bedroom in the basement.  Oou water company needs to replace our water meter and it's in that bedroom.  We are also looking at remodeling and the that room is right below the remodel.  Soooo, I am packing up the dungeon until we get through these projects.  I started packing the other day and that got my mind racing this morning.



My alter ego Sophia has an entire suitcase of clothes (panties, stockings, etc) as well as a partial closet I need to pack or move.  These clothes used to be upstairs, but I moved them when Mistress and I had a disagreement in January.  I haven't moved them back yet.  I did edge thinking about all of the sexy outfits Sophia has.

I packed a ton of hitting implements, to which I edged about thinking about a hard beating with bruises.  I packed the clothespin zipper, hood, blindfolds, gags. etc.  to which I also fantasized about.

I packed a stack of magazines that I spent hours and hours mmasturbating to when I was a younger man.

I packed the cock sucking machine as well as the e-stim machine.  I edged thinking about being electro tortured by Mistress as well as milked dry.

I have about half the dungeon packed and still need to pack the rest and disassemble the furniture.  The rest of the packing should give me more things to think about while I edge.