Mistress mentioned that she liked the idea of me being locked during her periods as a reminder of what she is going through. I was looking for some relevant blogs. This is the most relevant one I could find.
http://flr-reading.tumblr.com/post/144909606913/chastity-and-orgasm-control-the-28-day-cycle
This woman has it down to a science. She has his entire month of chastity and orgasms synced with her monthly cycle. 28 days perfectly choreographed. She goes from giving him 4 days of orgasms (5 a day) to a dead stop (the day she starts her period) to maximize his compliance when she needs it the most. When her period is over his libido is built back up. In the premenstrual days he is at his most obedient. He is only unlocked 4 days a month and whenever she desires sex for the other 24 days. His peaks coincide with hers. Kind of hot really.
That means he is locked 313 days a year (shudder).
A couple articles referenced in the post are linked below.
http://www.dreamloverlabs.com/harnessego.php
https://ladylubyanka.wordpress.com/2008/04/16/prostate-milking/
Monday, August 22, 2016
Sunday, August 21, 2016
Ramped up
I'm a little surprised how quickly 24+ hours in chastity has gotten me ramped back up. Last night I had lots of dreams that I faintly remember as being sexy and with D/s elements, but I don't remember any of them. I do know that I woke up a few times with my cock straining against my chastity device. When I got ready for bed last night I stood in front of the mirror in my nighty and with my chastity device sticking out from underneath. I felt so erotically humiliated. This morning when I got up, and went to the bathroom I pulled up my nighty and sat down to pee with my pink chastity device squeezing my cock. Again, so erotically humiliating. To be a masculine guy at my age with such feminine and submissive tendencies just makes my head spin. Just writing this makes my head spin.
I ran into a blog yesterday that I have been reading a bit http://wedlocked-femdom.com/ I haven't read much, but the few things I have read are her keeping her man in chastity pretty much 24/7, she frequently chains him to her bed, and he's forced to wear latex shorts as well as a latex maids dress http://wedlocked-femdom.com/2014/03/29/locked-in-a-pvc-maids-dress/
I don't know why the longer I go without cumming the more my brain fills with feminine thoughts. I understand why I get more extreme fantasies, but the feminine part surprises me. I would think the more cum I get stored up, the more I would have masculine thoughts. Either way, my mind is a mess today. A nice horny, desperate mess.
I ran into a blog yesterday that I have been reading a bit http://wedlocked-femdom.com/ I haven't read much, but the few things I have read are her keeping her man in chastity pretty much 24/7, she frequently chains him to her bed, and he's forced to wear latex shorts as well as a latex maids dress http://wedlocked-femdom.com/2014/03/29/locked-in-a-pvc-maids-dress/
Saturday, August 20, 2016
Friday, August 19, 2016
New Opportunities
We have had some recent changes in our world. This means we will be spending much more time together and will have free time we didn't have before. The other night Mistress said something to the effect of " since I have less control at work, I plan to take more control of you". That is one of the hottest things I have ever heard.
My job has gotten to the point of where I work form home much more than I had. This morning in my horny haziness of trying to wake up I had naughty thoughts of being put in unusual situations during the day. I read lots of stories of Mistresses that make their slaves stay naked around the house. Others make their slaves wear a suit while others keep their men in feminine wear or bondage all day. Some torture their slaves during the day in intervals https://msscarletuk.wordpress.com/ I thought of having to wear clothes I see in ads in gay bondage websites or slutty outfits all day.
Mistress now has more time to watch or read naughty things. She has the ability to be a task master and make me drop what I am doing to do whatever she wishes. She can essentially have 24/7 control over me as her job won't interfere like it did before. Mistress is very creative when she has the time and ability. When we first met she had a voracious appetite for learning my proclivities and put me in some very unique situations.
I adore my Mistress and want her to be the happiest woman on the planet. I am very excited to please her in any way I can.
My job has gotten to the point of where I work form home much more than I had. This morning in my horny haziness of trying to wake up I had naughty thoughts of being put in unusual situations during the day. I read lots of stories of Mistresses that make their slaves stay naked around the house. Others make their slaves wear a suit while others keep their men in feminine wear or bondage all day. Some torture their slaves during the day in intervals https://msscarletuk.wordpress.com/ I thought of having to wear clothes I see in ads in gay bondage websites or slutty outfits all day.
Mistress now has more time to watch or read naughty things. She has the ability to be a task master and make me drop what I am doing to do whatever she wishes. She can essentially have 24/7 control over me as her job won't interfere like it did before. Mistress is very creative when she has the time and ability. When we first met she had a voracious appetite for learning my proclivities and put me in some very unique situations.
I adore my Mistress and want her to be the happiest woman on the planet. I am very excited to please her in any way I can.
Chastity
I did some quick math and realized I have spent more time in chastity this year than the last 2 years combined.
2014 - 17 days
2015 - 21.5 days
YTD - 48 days
We still have 4+ months to go. Eeek!
2014 - 17 days
2015 - 21.5 days
YTD - 48 days
We still have 4+ months to go. Eeek!
Tuesday, August 16, 2016
Thursday, August 11, 2016
New Outlook On Chastity
I started experimenting with chastity back in 1999 or 2000. At the time I started with the CB-2000.
This was such a new concept. The thought of being under control by my then wife was so exciting. The device was terribly uncomfortable, but I made due. The biggest issue was that my wife never really got into the chastity thing. I take that back. She got into having me lock up and then forgetting about it. I traveled quite a bit back then and to be on the road, locked up and having your keyholder ignore the situation was awful. I am willing to trade some discomfort for the excitement, but the excitement wasn't there. The device eventually broke while sleeping one night. It was so painful that I still remember it.
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This was such a new concept. The thought of being under control by my then wife was so exciting. The device was terribly uncomfortable, but I made due. The biggest issue was that my wife never really got into the chastity thing. I take that back. She got into having me lock up and then forgetting about it. I traveled quite a bit back then and to be on the road, locked up and having your keyholder ignore the situation was awful. I am willing to trade some discomfort for the excitement, but the excitement wasn't there. The device eventually broke while sleeping one night. It was so painful that I still remember it.
I then upgraded to the CB-3000
The device was a mild upgrade, but still not worth the hassle without a keyholder that was not an active participant. I became resentful. Not at the concept of chastity, but at how it was implemented.
Many years later the wife at the time started to get a little bit more into D/s and FLR. We attended some events, visited a pro-domme a few times and that created an opportunity to try chastity again. We decided to invest in a custom device. I got a Price Alber piercing to prevent pulling out from the device. We did lots of research and spent way too much money on a beautiful custom device.
This device was the best I have owned. It was heavy but for the most part comfortable. I still had the issue of my balls being pulled and after a week my scrotum would start to chaffe to to all the readjusting. It's very secure, especially with the lock that goes through the piercing. Within a year of getting this device my marriage had ended. My new partner and now Mistress and keyholder took more interest in chastity, but the same issues came back. I became resentful about chastity.
In the last year I had a mindset change and decided that my being chaste was of showing I was invested in D/s. The mindset helped quite a bit. At the end of 2015 and into 2015 I went 4 weeks and 1 day in chastity. It was the easiest chastity experience as Mistress was more involved than normal. However the device was still more work than it was worth.
Over the last couple years I started seeing devices that didn't need to support itself off the testicles. I was intrigued. Men really seemed to like these devices and swore they were more comfortable. I was skeptical as I have already invested a small fortune in devices. I came across a plastic device that was 3-D printed.
It's super lightweight. In fact the lock on the device weighs as mush as the device itself. If I use the plastic security tabs it;s only a couple ounces. Since my sweet spot for an orgasm is right below the glans, I don't need a device that covers my entire cock. Just the top third is enough to prevent me from trying to stimulate myself. I can cheat and get an orgasm from a Hitachi, but you can do that with any device. I really don't like Hitachi orgasms as much as friction based ones anyhow.
So after 15 years of chastity resentment I have determined it was due to the discomfort of the device. My current device is comfortable enough that I don't need the constant attention of my keyholder to override the discomfort of the device. Obviously the more attention, the better, but the device itself creates no resentment for me. I can ride my bike, run, lift weights, swim, etc and really not have to worry about the device all that much. I can pee standing up for the most part but I still sit at home which most guys with piercings do anyhow. I can wear whatever I want. Feminine clothing is much more comfortable with this device vs other devices.
All of that being said, I now find chastity enjoyable. I recently went 2.5 weeks without being locked and kind of missed it. I wasn't about to ask to be locked up, but was pleasantly surprised when I was told I would be. All the fantasies I had for years are more believable now. Having my cock locked and owned by my Mistress. Giving up the right to touch my cock. Giving up 100% control of my orgasms. Being able to prove my fidelity (I'm not the cheating type, but a device certainly proves it). All of the above with very little discomfort. It's a match made in heaven for me. So all of my years of complaining about chastity are over.
Wednesday, August 10, 2016
Femme in Public
I've now been locked in chastity for 8 days other than a brief reprieve when I got my beating. The chastity is now working its magic. Even though life and work has been keeping any erotic thoughts out of my head, the constant feeling of chastity keeps pulling my thoughts in that direction. I frequently find myself thinking about how I don't know what my cock feels like. I am getting hornier and more desperate by the day. As I have written over the years I dislike chastity, or I used to dislike it. Now that I have a super comfortable device, I actually like it. It's not perfect, but damn close. I will soon write a post about how I view chastity now.
Today's post is based on a blog post I read a few weeks ago that I can't get out of my mind. In the post, a Mistress takes her slave to get his/her makeup done professionally. I frequently fantasize about being feminized in front of another woman, but the thought also scares the crap out of me. Here are some of my thoughts.
So we set an appointment for this past weekend. And, as I’m sure you all know, I had lots and lots and lots of fun in the days and hours leading up to that appointment. The poor sissy’s blood pressure was probably off the charts. He was so nervous and flustered. It was adorable.
More than the humiliation of having to endure it, more than being seen by more than one person that way, more than yet another piece of his masculinity being taken from him, that was what worried him the most.
“Do you want sweet? Sultry? Day? Night? Glamour?” “Let’s go with sweet and innocent,” I told her, with a very not-sweet-and-innocent grin at Sounder.
Less than an hour later, she stepped back and asked Sounder what he thought. He turned to me, and I couldn’t stop smiling. He looked pretty. Downright pretty.
Still, I couldn’t help but pull up his dress in the car and stroke him through his panties. I drive an SUV, and he pulled his dress back down when we pulled up at a stop light next to another SUV.
Full story here - https://dominajen.com/2016/07/20/sissy-slut/
There is a 2nd part to the story that isn't my cup of tea, but I am sure Mistress will enjoy reading. https://dominajen.com/2016/07/22/and-part-2/
Today's post is based on a blog post I read a few weeks ago that I can't get out of my mind. In the post, a Mistress takes her slave to get his/her makeup done professionally. I frequently fantasize about being feminized in front of another woman, but the thought also scares the crap out of me. Here are some of my thoughts.
- I think about something similar to this story, or
- Me having to be feminine in front of a pro-domme
- Having boudoir photos taken of me as my alter ego Sophia
- Out in public dressed. (Halloween, Gas Station, Drag Queen Events)
So we set an appointment for this past weekend. And, as I’m sure you all know, I had lots and lots and lots of fun in the days and hours leading up to that appointment. The poor sissy’s blood pressure was probably off the charts. He was so nervous and flustered. It was adorable.
More than the humiliation of having to endure it, more than being seen by more than one person that way, more than yet another piece of his masculinity being taken from him, that was what worried him the most.
“Do you want sweet? Sultry? Day? Night? Glamour?” “Let’s go with sweet and innocent,” I told her, with a very not-sweet-and-innocent grin at Sounder.
Less than an hour later, she stepped back and asked Sounder what he thought. He turned to me, and I couldn’t stop smiling. He looked pretty. Downright pretty.
Still, I couldn’t help but pull up his dress in the car and stroke him through his panties. I drive an SUV, and he pulled his dress back down when we pulled up at a stop light next to another SUV.
Full story here - https://dominajen.com/2016/07/20/sissy-slut/
There is a 2nd part to the story that isn't my cup of tea, but I am sure Mistress will enjoy reading. https://dominajen.com/2016/07/22/and-part-2/
Thursday, August 4, 2016
Happily surprised and a little worried
Last night Mistress decided to tie me up and have some fun. I found myself tied spreadeagled and blindfolded on the bed. Immediately a couple swift smacks to the balls and then the Hitachi turned on under my balls. I was in heaven. Mistress undid each leg and slid 2 rubber bands designed for binders up each leg before tying me back down. She then alternated between snapping the rubber bands and using a super skinny stick and a fat rubber stick on the inside of my thighs. She has done this many times before, but this time was different. I couldn't put my finger on it. It hurt more than usual. Frankly it sucked. She would occasionally stroke my cock, but not with any real purpose so it didn't do much to alleviate the pain. She said she was punishing me for recent transgressions.
It turns out there was a reason for the pain to be more than I was used to, more than just punishing me. She had a plan. After reading for the last 6 years that I felt she was too kind, and didn't push me to my limit, she was going to do just that. She kept asking if I was enjoying it. While I was enjoying the bondage and the cock stroking, the beating fucking sucked. She kept asking me if I was ready to call red. I really didn't want to. I became annoyed and mad. I was pissed off and irritated. I didn't like it. There was very little eroticism to the pain. I kept begging her to stop without saying red. I didn't realize it at the time, but now I see I was testing her to see if she would quit or pull back. I'm happy to say she didn't.
After I called red, she released me. I retreated a bit while I dealt with these new emotions. To add insult to injury she told me to lock myself back up in chastity immediately. Well played.
As I knew would happen, what I felt last night has gone away. Writing about the above experience got me hard. Not hard because I got a beating I didn't like, hard because I have a Mistress that is willing to push me as well as punish me. Truly punish me. That makes being in a D/s relationship much more real. Last night I truly submitted. I had no control other than "red". This is what I have been asking for.
Moving forward, I love the idea of playing closer to my physical and mental limits. There are some challenges however. Last night I was in a fight or flight response. Had I been untied I would have left the room or physically kept her from hitting me. Since I was restrained I had to deal with it so I alternated between emotional fight and flight. Dealing with me saying and acting like "i don't like this" will be a challenge for her. Pushing through that attitude and making me deal with it will be hard, but also very rewarding. I am excited at the prospect and a little scared.
I woke up in the middle of the night last night and replayed the scene in my head. Knowing that Mistress is willing to go until I beg her to stop had my mind running with other scenarios that push limits. Below are somethings that could really test my limit and make we want to say "red". It's also hot to think that "red" might be ignored. I now believe Mistress has it in her.
I know we can't always play to my limits. It's her choice of when we do that. I just want to end this by saying I am so happy she can be mean and sadistic if she wants. I just hope it turns her on to be that way sometimes.
It turns out there was a reason for the pain to be more than I was used to, more than just punishing me. She had a plan. After reading for the last 6 years that I felt she was too kind, and didn't push me to my limit, she was going to do just that. She kept asking if I was enjoying it. While I was enjoying the bondage and the cock stroking, the beating fucking sucked. She kept asking me if I was ready to call red. I really didn't want to. I became annoyed and mad. I was pissed off and irritated. I didn't like it. There was very little eroticism to the pain. I kept begging her to stop without saying red. I didn't realize it at the time, but now I see I was testing her to see if she would quit or pull back. I'm happy to say she didn't.
After I called red, she released me. I retreated a bit while I dealt with these new emotions. To add insult to injury she told me to lock myself back up in chastity immediately. Well played.
As I knew would happen, what I felt last night has gone away. Writing about the above experience got me hard. Not hard because I got a beating I didn't like, hard because I have a Mistress that is willing to push me as well as punish me. Truly punish me. That makes being in a D/s relationship much more real. Last night I truly submitted. I had no control other than "red". This is what I have been asking for.
Moving forward, I love the idea of playing closer to my physical and mental limits. There are some challenges however. Last night I was in a fight or flight response. Had I been untied I would have left the room or physically kept her from hitting me. Since I was restrained I had to deal with it so I alternated between emotional fight and flight. Dealing with me saying and acting like "i don't like this" will be a challenge for her. Pushing through that attitude and making me deal with it will be hard, but also very rewarding. I am excited at the prospect and a little scared.
I woke up in the middle of the night last night and replayed the scene in my head. Knowing that Mistress is willing to go until I beg her to stop had my mind running with other scenarios that push limits. Below are somethings that could really test my limit and make we want to say "red". It's also hot to think that "red" might be ignored. I now believe Mistress has it in her.
- Painful or uncomfortable bondage
- Electricity
- Public Humiliation
- Breath Play
- Chastity
- Teasing and Denial
- Nipple Play
- Cum Eating
- Corner Time
- Time Out
- Cage
- Piss Play
- Strap on or fucking machine
- Cross dressing
- Public feminization
- Oral Sex
- Dildo sucking
- Ball busting
- Butt Plugs - extended wear
- Scent Play
- Edging
I know we can't always play to my limits. It's her choice of when we do that. I just want to end this by saying I am so happy she can be mean and sadistic if she wants. I just hope it turns her on to be that way sometimes.
Tuesday, August 2, 2016
Too Nice?
Last night Mistress and I had quick but hot sex. As soon as we started she started talking about some things she has planned on an upcoming trip. Clear nail polish for both my finger and toe nails. Panties almost every day. Teasing and denial while I am locked in chastity. Mistress fucking my ass with a dildo. The sex was quick, but much needed.
Mistress is very kind to me and as a macho male I appreciate it, however my submissive side is looking back on last night thinking she was too nice. First off, I came a bunch. Half of me is thankful Mistress didn't make me eat any of it. The other half is wishing Mistress at least smeared cum all over my face if not making me use my tongue to clean up. The other nice thing Mistress did was not make me lock myself back up in chastity right away. In fact, she went to work and told me to lock myself up after my bike ride this morning. While physically I was happy to be unlocked for sleep and my ride, my submissive mind yearned for a meaner version of Mistress that locked me up the second I came. The mind fuck of instant lock up is insane. I guess what I am saying is that as a submissive male, meaner = nicer.
Mistress is very kind to me and as a macho male I appreciate it, however my submissive side is looking back on last night thinking she was too nice. First off, I came a bunch. Half of me is thankful Mistress didn't make me eat any of it. The other half is wishing Mistress at least smeared cum all over my face if not making me use my tongue to clean up. The other nice thing Mistress did was not make me lock myself back up in chastity right away. In fact, she went to work and told me to lock myself up after my bike ride this morning. While physically I was happy to be unlocked for sleep and my ride, my submissive mind yearned for a meaner version of Mistress that locked me up the second I came. The mind fuck of instant lock up is insane. I guess what I am saying is that as a submissive male, meaner = nicer.
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