Today's Edge - Teasing and Denial... Of Mistress

I had a long awaited orgasm on Saturday.  Of course a full orgasm drops off my libido a tad.  This morning's edge had me thinking of turning tables on Mistress.  Tying her to the bed and blindfolding her.  Using my fingers and assorted toys to slowly tease her, get her wet and make her squirm without an orgasm.  Of course she would get one, but only after a long slow tease.  Here is what I am thinking...

Today's Edge - All Day

Today is a day I am working from home.  If I didn't have to meet my boss today, it would have been a perfect day for inescapable bondage.

I frequently fantasize about Mistress leaving me in some form of bondage while she is at work.  As a punishment I imagine being locked in our cage, naked in chastity with only my laptop, a bottle to pee in, water, and protein bars.

If I wasn't being punished I imagine being shackled naked all day or dressed in women's clothes and shackled.  It's amazing how few pictures you can find online of people in some form of bondage so they can still work.  It's even harder finding pics of male slaves this way.  Here is some things that I envisioned.

Today's Edge - Painted and Plugged and Vacation

This morning I woke up to an email that instructed me to wear my butt plug a minimum 2 hours today as well as painting my fingernails and toenails with clear polish.  The clear polish on my fingernails is always a constant reminder of how desperate I am for Mistress' control over me.  I can actually feel the polish as well as the constant visual reminder.  While I was putting it on I noticed how subtle it really is.  It made me think about going a shade or 2 closer to pink or red.  Once I started on that line of thought, I started thinking about yet more naughty thoughts.  As I edged, I thought about MBB making me wear polish on our upcoming vacation.  People might notice, but we will never see them again.  Then that got my mind going, what else could we do on a vacation that would no one would actually notice, but would be a total mind fuck to me.  Some of the things that ran through my mind...

Wearing a shorter than normal swimsuit in public (not a speedo).
Tinted nail polish
Clear or darker mascara
Tinted lip balm
Cock Ring at meals, shows or even the pool
butt plug
bra or camisole under suit
stockings under clothes (socks not allowed)
panties
women's perfume or deodorant
chastity
toys

Today's Edge - Cum

Yesterday when I had all of my femme thoughts going through my mind, one thought that stuck with me was a blog that used to be online.  In that blog, the Mistress Ms. Marie made her husband dress up in women's clothes and then she made him go pump gas across the street while she watched and took pictures.  I looked everyone for that pic, as while the idea horrifies me, in my current state of mind it pushes all the right buttons.

While I was looking for that picture, I found one from another one of her blog posts.  In her post she explains how she ties her slave husband down with a ring gag in his mouth.  She then makes him cum into a condom and after he comes she uses a syringe to suck the cum out and force it into his mouth.  If I remember correctly she makes sure it's all over the inside of his mouth and she leaves the room for some time so that he is fully humiliated and docile.  Here is the pic from her blog.

Well last night I came up to bed and found a nighty on the bed for me to wear.  MBB joked about "sweet dreams" full well knowing that I would have ramped up dreams and unfortunately this picture from yesterday created ideas that dominated my thoughts last night.  It's very frustrating to fantasize about something I know deep down I don't "want".  Eating cum isn't a fantasy of mine, being forced to do something that so disgusts me is what is my fantasy.

Below are some ideas I ran across and some pics that really show the fetish in detail.

The first idea follows the condom and cum idea.  Here are some pics

Then there is the idea of cum being fed to the submissive during a hand job (no lube I hope)

Or being forced to take cum from my Mistress's body

The last idea's are things to do with cum other than eating it (found while looking for the above).

Leaving slave tied up and cum from both left on slaves face until it dries.
Making slave cum in pants while out and can't clean it up.
Using syringe to fill slaves ass with cum
Having slave fuck Mistress before she goes to work.  Mistress returns home with cum filled panites to gag slave with.
Tie slave up in panythose, make him cum in them and let them dry (painful to remove).
Cum gag
Lick cum off dildo.

STUPID LIBIDO

Today's Edge - Feminization

There is this thing that happens at different levels of orgasm denial.  The longer I go without an orgasm, the more into feminization I get.  This morning had me imagining winter with painted toe nails again as well as fantasizing about panties, nighty's, makeup, heels and all things Femme.  It also had me thinking about some pictures we have taken of me in the past as well as some hot pictures I found online.  The first set of pictures are of me, and the 2nd set are ones I wish were me.  This is what I edged to this morning.  I was actually leaking cum without even being close to the edge.

Posing for Mistress

On web cam performing

Posing for Mistress

Pictures found online...

Love the hair and outfit

Awesome Corset

Nice Bondage

what a slut

 

Jealous!!!

Today's Edge - Captions

I was going through my blog list which I haven't been through in some time.  Normally I hate pictures that have text in them.  Often times they take a picture and in my opinion, change the mood of the picture.  I found one blog today that did a better job than most regarding text in the picture.  As such, I edged to these fantasizing it is my Mistress in the pictures. I got pretty worked up.

Today's Edge - Shocking

I don't know what is going on with me this week.  All of my fantasies this week have been on the edge of what I actually like.  Today is no different.  I edged to the thoughts of electricity play.  I imagined a few different scenarios.

• Tied down with an electric butt plug in, and pads attached to my cock and balls. MBB would then set the Erostek to a setting and hit the "ramp up" button.  She would then adjust it so at the bottom of the ramp I am feeling uncomfortable and then she would sit back and watch it go from 70% to 100% while I struggle.  I imagine her masturbating and squirting while watching me struggle reminding me I asked for it.

• We also have a shocking dog collar that goes around the balls.  I recently read a story where a woman tied up her man in a way he could masturbate.  She made him stroke and she would give him random shocks.  The goal for her was to keep him from cumming and the goal for him was to cum.  I imagine the shocks would make it hard to get to the edge, but once at the edge the shocks would push me over.  The other variation on this was she would use a leather strap and spank him trying to accomplish the same goal.

• I also imagine wearing the shocking dog collar and made to masturbate to orgasm or have sex to orgasm.  Once the orgasm was complete MBB would give me 10 seconds to start cleaning up the mess with my tongue or I would get shocked.  Out of all my cum eating fantasies this would be the worse, because I would have to choose to do it.  

• Lastly we have a toy called a Tazapper.  It's like a mini cattle prod, and in the scheme of things not very strong, but for some reason it puts the fear of Goddess in me.  I does hurt, and can actually hurt quite a bit, but I think it's the loud noise and the visual shock it makes that makes it so scary.  I actually go between teary from fear and anger when this toy is used.  Fight or flight really.  I imagine her just mind fucking me with it, all the while giggling.  Making me admit to nasty things and agree to just about anything to make the torment stop.  

Today's Edge - Vacuum Bed

This morning I edge to the thought of being in our vacuum bed.  The vacuum bed is unique in that you aren't tied up, but you can't move a muscle either.  I imagine it would be like being drugged so you can't move a muscle, but you are aware of everything.  I fantasized about tying my balls in a neat little package before getting in the bed.  I would then get in and position my legs tight together with my balls on top of my thighs.  My hands would be at my side and slightly under me to keep my body weight on them and to keep my profile thinner.  MBB would then turn on the bed and let it crush me before turning it off (our bed holds air very well so a vacuum doesn't need to keep running).  She would then block off my breathing with a finger on the air tube and make me squirm for air.  She might take a drink of wine and spit some down the breathing tube for me to drink.  I then fantasized about her smacking me in the balls and there would be nothing I could do about it.  I also thought about her using the Venus 2000 on me to tease me, but realized that wouldn't work for my final nasty thought.  I thought about MBB either putting a condom on my cock, and then she would ride my cock until I came inside her.  Then I would hear her next idea.  She would tell me she is going to scoop all of my cum out of her pussy and feed it to me down the tube.  There would be nothing I could do to stop it.  I also imagined her getting me to cum in a condom and feeding that to me down the tube.  I would be so pissed off, but for some reason that idea gets me so hot.