Locked up again

So I am in chastity for the 3rd time in less than a month. Apparently Mistress likes me locked up and as much as I want to say I don't like it, I do.  I like the helplessness and being controlled.  So much my cock just got very hard typing those last 2 lines.  

Since it appears I will be in chastity more often now, I added another page to the blog.  It will track the time I have been in chastity.  It's more of an FYI, but it will help me keep track of total days locked up as well as continuous days locked.  Maybe we will break some records :-)

In addition to the device.  Mistress told me I would be painting my toenails "girly pink" as well as clear polish on my finger nails.  She indicated she might add clear mascara as well, but didn't elaborate.

This morning I probably could have got away without locking myself up.  Mistress is wiped out from our trip and started her period so I am sure my cock is the last thing on her mind.  Unfortunately for me, when I first woke up this morning I remembered my instructions to lock myself up.  There was no way I was going back to sleep so I locked myself up (with the Prince Albert piercing lock) so I couldn't escape if I wanted to.  Just being locked up has my mind spinning a million miles an hour.  I want to be such a sissy little bitch today.

  Since Mistress is having her period, I can't imagine she has any use for my cock for some time, however here are some things I've been thinking about since I woke up.  A boy can hope, right?   I love my Mistress.

Teasing while watching TV

No need to unlock you to ruin your orgasm

There is no way I will push you over the edge

So close yet so far

 

Every great once in a while, Mistress needs to assert herself — and my need to have the reset button firmly pushed — overlap squarely.

Handcuffs, armbinder, ring gag, plug and no set amount of time locked in the crate. Not an erotic thing so much as a Total Power Exchange experience, for which it was ‘time.’

I remained that way far longer than was comfortable, which is to say until those buttons were firmly set for both of us.

In my mind

Last night at bed time, Mistress and I had a minor disagreement.  After a few minutes of back and forth, Mistress said something to the effect of "shut up and put on your nighty".  Normally I get a little defensive when we have a disagreement, but her changing it from a normal relationship issue into a D/s opportunity made me back off and submit.  It also went deep into my mind.  We quickly got over the issue, and I fell asleep with a hard-on and a smile.  During the night, each time I woke up and felt the nighty, my head would spin a bit.  I loved that she took a dominant position in a disagreement.  I am so wanting a D/s influence in our life that I quickly put away my male ego and let it happen.

This morning I woke up in a very submissive and sissy state of mind.  I so wanted to be "forced" to wear the nighty until she left for work. I so want to be humiliated and "forced" into feminine attire in front of her.  Instead of putting on my nighty before slipping into the sheets, I imagine having to wear it as we get ready for bed, or even watching TV.  Anything to push erotic humiliation in my mind.

I have been trying to figure out a way to explain thoughts on wanting Mistress to be meaner to me.  During my research I found an interesting post.  A person was criticising a Domme for spanking her husband above and beyond his comfort level as well as making him sleep in a cage when he displeased her.  This person was saying it amounted to abuse.  The Domme reassured this person that she did not abuse her husband even though it might appear so to an outsider.  They communicate frequently, discuss issues and work for a resolution.  He rarely has issues though, no matter what she did to him.  She explained that even though her husband frequently cried during spankings and had difficulty sleeping in a cage, it was actually a reward for him.  A reward because being treated that way is what his soul needed.  Tears might be a bad thing for a lot of people and situations, but for him tears were a necessary part of his submission.  While beating her husband and dreaming up new ways to be meaner to him would be abusive in a non D/s relationship, he would see it as abuse is she didn't do these things.  Her "meanness" is her gift to him.

I thought that was a perfect way to explain it.  Now I don't know about being beaten to tears, but I do frequently think about being pushed past my preconceived ideas of my limits.  Whether its having my limits pushed physically, mentally, in private or public, my mind spins with thoughts of  desperately wanting something to stop while at the same time wanting it to continue.  It's a weird world my brain lives in.  I'm lucky to have found a woman that tolerates me.  

Quick Fantasy

I hadn't really planned on posting today as I have been very busy.  However I did see one Tumblr post that spoke to me (below).  I imagine Mistress making me dress like these women including my breast forms, wig, make-up etc.  She would make me set up my phone video camera and she would instruct me to copy the pics below.  I imagine attaching the cup to a mirror in our closet or basement, our shower door or of I wouldn't chicken out, our back door.  She would set a time for me to duplicate each picture (like 2-3 minutes for each, or longer if she wanted to be extra mean).  She might have me set the camera on the other side of the glass.  She might make me put a condom on it and impale myself in the ass.  The last one is extra naughty because it appears to be in a public restroom. Either way, these pictures were hot to me and made me want to be these women.

Chastity & Sex

Well I would not have guessed this.  I have been having chastity fantasies.  The last couple times I have been in chastity have been positive.  I have a Mistress that cares for me and about me while I am in chastity.  It's amazing how a random comment and an occasional tease goes a long way.  Positive experiences like this will go a long way and will likely have we begging for chastity in the future.  That got me thinking about still being sexual while my cock is locked up.  These is something so hot about having sex and pleasing my Mistress all while my cock can't feel a thing.  These images came to mind.

This first image is the most powerful.  It shows just how hard the guy is.  She is rubbing his prostate gland from the outside.  I'm betting if she keeps going long enough, he will eventually have an orgasm without his cock ever being touched.

Dominant Thoughts

First off, I hurt my back yesterday.  Mistress decided to let me out of chastity because of it.  I was slightly disappointed, as I wanted to endure, but she likely made the right move.  Adding the difficulty of chastity to a sore back would likely delay my healing.  She did put me in a nighty so she did keep me as her slave that way.

The other night when we had some really hot sex, it started with me using my hands and fingers.  Below are pictures that have inspired me.  That in turn has given me dominant thoughts.  I have spent hours upon hours under Mistress' teasing hands and fingers.  Begging, pleading, spilling my guts all while she kept me on the edge.  I would like to return the favor some time and give her some mind blowing orgasms by delaying the release.  Here are some incredibly sexy images of what I would like to do to her.







































This last picture makes me imagine a long tease with no climax until she was a blubbering mess.