My first day in chastity reminded me of some of the difficulty of being in chastity, but with every pinch, pain or frustration I had, I told myself, this is how you make Mistress feel by your actions. I'm owning how I have acted and how that has affected her. I am accepting (dare I say enjoying) my fate.
|Wearing my device with pride, and bruises.|
Last night I made dinner using a spice called cumin. We made a couple jokes about how lately I have loved cumin in recipes and the joke quickly got to how I love cumming. Mistress mentioned that she is intending on making me cum in the next couple days and locking me back up immediately. I told her that was mean and she said, "I know that. You said you wanted me to be meaner". To which I confessed I truly did want her to be meaner and thought to myself "much meaner".
All of that being said, I am feeling a little oversexed right now. Chastity is the ultimate mind fuck. When I am unlocked, I can forget about my cock, and therefore forget about touching myself, forget about sex, forget about porn, etc. I can pretty much delegate sexual thoughts out of my mind, even though I have full access to my cock.
When I am locked and I want to push thoughts to the back of my mind, I cannot. All I can do is think about my cock, which makes me want to touch it, makes me want to cum, makes me want to fuck Mistress, and makes me a sexual mess. There is no pushing sexual thoughts out for more than a few minutes at a time.
That being said, now that I am locked up, I can make up a "scene idea" for chastity. The reason I didn't do it sooner was I was afraid Mistress would take that as I wanted to be locked up.
Here are some chastity ideas. # 13 (unlucky # 13 ) Chastity
Thank you Mistress for locking me up and telling me you plan on being meaner. I'm in heaven!