Last night Mistress was understandably upset with me about something in our real life, so she made me wear a nighty again and didn't roll a dice to see if I would be let out for the night. In reality I wasn't at all upset that she wasn't going to roll the dice as I have totally accepted the fact that I will be locked up for a minimum of 7 days straight. In fact it's a mental goal I have. If I can do a week with no issues after being unlocked for almost a year, I can likely do any amount of time. The idea of being released for even a few hours is more of a mind fuck. It's like the warden telling the prisoner he's about to get paroled just to fuck with him.
While I wasn't upset about being unlocked, I was upset that I didn't treat Mistress better last night. She had a tough day and I didn't pick up on how tough it was. So I was mad at myself for disappointing her. I try to serve her in many ways and one of those being her sounding board when she's had a tough day. I can do better.
The fact I was upset with myself made the nighty and another night in chastity a fitting punishment in my mind while I drifted off to sleep. The many times I awoke during the night reinforced my mental state as her slave. As such, I woke in an extremely submissive, horny and feminine mood.
Obviously chastity is at the top of my mind, but that doesn't mean I don't have other thoughts. Mistress and I just got a new bathtub. We're having some issues with it, but when it's repaired I fantasize about something like this. Very, very hot.
Now I am off to shave my body and re-do my nail polish. Today toenails will be pink and fingernails with a tiny bit of color (not clear).
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