Plugged again

MBB wasted no time in getting me ramped up again.  After a great birthday weekend, I am plugged yet again for 3 hours.  Today, I also had to sun tan in full bikini (I actually have a light bow tan on my back right now).  I do feel like such a slut being in a bikini and having the tan lines I do.

I haven't been giving much thought to naughty stuff lately, I'm not sure why.  We have been talking about a threesome a lot lately and while it sounds very exciting it seems like it's probably more work to get one going than its worth. It almost seems like one of those things that just happen when they happen.  Of course we also need to spend time with other people a little more than we have been to improve our odds. 

Other than that, not a lot going on in my mind right now.

Today's post

Again I have too much going on in the noggin to have much to say.  I have really not been thinking about much in the naughty sort of way, but I am looking forward to an amazing weekend with MBB!

Good Orgasm

Last night's orgasm was amazing.  I think having an orgasm when you don't think you are going to get to have to be one of the best.  It takes so much effort to hold back that when I finally get to cum its amazing.

Too busy today to think of naughty things, darn it.

Feeling Naughty

Lately MBB has been throwing the threesome idea in my head.  She teased that on my upcoming birthday that she wants us to be chatting up girls and trying to take one to our room.  She has also had me find threesome stories and while searching for those I have found sme pretty hot pics as well.

Yesterday I had to wear my plug for three hours and today I had to wear something feminine besides my panties.  I chose a super tight camisole.  I feel weird putting things on that could be seen but once I am in it, I feel hot and naughty (mostly).

I also had some time to tan in my bikini bottoms.  I am getting such a little trashy tan line.  I tried a pair of mnes thongs I have from my younger days to try and cover my cock and balls better, but it just wasn't the same.  I went back and put my bikini bottoms back on.  I think the string part of the bikini, the bows on each side, the fact they are women's and trying to keep my junk into it all makes it much naughtier.

I also stroked today.  I was stroking to devine bitches videos.  They do some amazing stuff.  They are brutal.  I like to think I could be on there, but I don't think I could handle it.  Or maybe I could, who knows.  It could be one of those things that while I am doing it, it would be difficult, but it would be a major turn on every time I thought of it...

I am a very lucky slave...

Today's post

Between yesterday and today I have been swamped with getting stuff done.  In turn I have had little thoughts regarding D/s.  MBB sent me an email today with tasks to do.  I got most of them done before I left the house, but hope to get one done later by my hand or MBB's hand.  I also think MBB thinks that our scene on Sunday may have caused me some issues or reason to pull back, but it didn't. Sunday's scene was perfect as MBB took control of me and pushed me into a situation that grossed me out, which is exactly what I wanted and was looking for.  It's one of the counter intuitive things about D/s.  How can you want something to be done to you when you really don't want it to be done.  It's all about being forced or to have it taken from you.  Just the thought of not having a say in what happens to me when I am restrained is such a fucking turn on.

Good scene

Last night MBB and I had a quick and naughty scene.  MBB tied me to the bed in such a way I could barely move.  Although a few hard slaps on the balls really tested the bonds and my ability to move.  After some nice cock sucking (on her part) she mounted me and quickly rode herself to 2 orgasms.  It must be nice to be easy to cum AND multi orgasmic.  I'm jealous.  MBB then stroked my cock and I was quickly on the edge.  She then put on her strap on, lubed it up and easily entered me. She lubed up my cock some more and fucked me hard while stroking my cock.  She told me I was going to cum and that's the reason she tied me down so well.  I thought for sure it was so she could keep stroking me after I came.  Instead she forced me to cum and then told me to lick up the cum she put on her hand.  I really have no choice in the matter.  My fight or flight response kicks up and there is little I can do.  MBB proceeded to smear it all over my face and lips and then got up to clean up.  She threatened me with leaving it to dry.  I wasn't too worried as I could see with all of the ball smacking and me trying to get away from my cum that I could reach one of the knots.  Instead she took mercy on me.  As soon as I was free I ran to the shower and washed my cum of me.  Even though I have cum, I can't imagine eating cum with silicone lube.  Eccchhhhh.

Overall it was a good scene in that MBB pushed my buttons.  I was lying there pissed at myself for the fantasies I write about.  It's a pretty good mind fuck. 

Teased and Denied

Last night MBB decided to tie me to the bed and stroke my cock for a while.  It's the first time in over a week that she hasn't let me cum when we have been intimate.  I don't know how to explain being what being denied does to me.  I love cumming.  It is the most amazing feeling in the world.  Everything that leads up to it is the next best thing.  So when I am continuously given the next best thing, but kept from the most amazing thing.  It's such a mind fuck.  Also, when I cum some of my horniness drops off.  I like to think of it like a balloon.  The more air in the balloon the more pressure.  You can keep putting more air into it and it gets very fragile and becomes vulnerable to popping.  So a full blown orgasm is like popping it and you need a new balloon to get me going again.  Getting to the edge to where some cum drips out is like blowing and losing a little bit of air between breaths.  Getting me to the point of no return and then removing your hands as an orgasm starts is like letting go of a balloon and watching it fly around the room.  Since the balloon wasn't popped, you don't have any air in it, but you still have the balloon and don't have to start over.  It's a lot like that.  I have a love hate relationship with orgasm denial.

I also just hit the 3 hour mark of wearing my butt plug.  I need to go remove it and manscape.  I am feeling pretty naughty right now!

Humiliation

I am not sure why this is, but I have been fantasizing about humiliation.  The funny part is I hate to be humiliated.  I think it's because it's another kind of loss of control.  I imagine a woman seeing me in feminine clothes, or my panties, or even just pictures.  I also imagine one being in the room with MBB and me and verbally taunting me.  It's very hot to think about, but I am sure in reality, would be much harder to go through.  Also it would be hot to have random women emailing me (at MBB's instruction) to tell me that they saw my pics and what a slut I was.   Especially if it was pictures that were not online.

"Be careful for what you wish for"

More thoughts

As a follow up to yesterday's post on things going through my mind.  I have been fantasizing a lot about a couple of machines. 

The first is a milking machine like the Venus 2000.  It seems like perfect pleasure that turns into torture.  It also seems like a great device that once set up, it takes no effort on the part of the Domme.  To think that the stroke rate can be set at just the edge of release and then the Domme can just let it work or she can inflict other torments on him.  And then when and if an orgasm is allowed, the machine has no mercy like my Mistress.  It can just be left on, sucking and sucking.  Even when I get through the super sensitive part of a session the machine could keep me hard and possibly get another orgasm out of me without stopping.  All with no effort on my Mistress's part.

The other is a fucking machine.  I can imagine being tied on my back or to some piece of furniture with my ass in the air.  MBB would lube up the dildo and put it on a slow pace to start.  As it worked itself in my ass, she would add plenty of lube and then turn it up to a medium fast pace.  I don't imagine this being used for pleasure, but for punishment.  Getting fucked fast, long, and hard would be so mentally draining.  She could then also use my mouth or just walk around me mocking me.  I just thought of another use.  Use the machine to rape my mouth. hmmmmm.  The nice thing about a fucking machine is she could use it too!

A lot of naughty thoughts

Even though I just had an orgasm last night, today has been a lot of dirty thoughts.  I have had a lot of thoughts lately about dungeon scenes in the Men in Pain videos.  Dark dungeons with chains and ropes hanging everywhere.  I think of myself in a leather harness that holds the chest (the videos have rope harnesses).  My arms would be bound behind my back, but high enough I couldn't use my hands to block my ass from a beating.  Since my arms wouldn't be above my head, I could stay in this position for an almost unlimited amount of time.  I imagine MBB fucking with me on lots of ways and giggling every time she made me mad or frustrated.

I also have been imaging being tied in a chair that allows my ball to hand freely.  MBB would have them bound in a tight little package so she could tap them for minutes on end.  Tapping them at the same mild strength and pace, until the tension builds so much I am screaming and sweating.  She would joke about how lightly she was actually hitting them and would occasionally give it a harder tap to show me just how lightly she is actually doing it.

Very soon we will be able to do these things without worrying about digging out the toys and putting them away.  I can't wait!.

Today has been an interesting day.  I have been very busy at work and the day has gone by entirely too fast.  That being said, I am in a very horny mood, but nothing specific.  My thoughts have been all over the board.  Most of my thoughts though have been thinking about moving soon and being able to set up a real dungeon.  Being locked in the stocks or tied face up on the cross lying flat with me at MBB's mercy.  Just the thought of it makes me hot.

I found an ad today of a bi female sub looking to submit to a Mistress.  I could see MBB having a female slave as an assistant when MBB wants to torture me.  I also imagine MBB would keep me hooded or blindfolded in this sub's presence so I would never know what she looked like.  That would be a real trip.  Or MBB could have her slave over, lock me in the cage, play with her slave and not allow me to interact at all.  That would be a real mind fuck too.

Thinking about all the thing that we could do just because it's all set up and ready to go.  I can imagine some intense scenes due to having access to all of the gear.  Also MBB would be able to have all of the equipment in sight and would probably be more inclined to use some of it. 

I also got to suntan a little bit today.  I am starting to get faint tan lines on my butt and on my hips.