No edge, but mind filled with stuff

I was looking for something to edge to and nothing tuck in my mind, so I decided to post a bunch of random pictures I have like that haven't had a place in my blog.

Love the toe rings

For me control can be far better achieved using nothing more than the pressure of a fingertip. The power of touch can turn the most strong willed, calculated woman into a wanton, thrashing, cursing, begging mess. Having a woman’s total focus being consumed by nothing more than my touch, her total being down to her racing heartbeat and her panting breaths dictated by me, now that’s control.

Today's Edge - Switcheroo

As I have written many times is that I am not a good initiator of sex.  I find that when I imagine initiating, I almost always end up imagining D/s with me in a dominant position. In my mind, I can't be turned down if I am the bossy one.  Of course, real life isn't that way, but that is where my mind goes. Here are some stills of the videos I edged to this morning.  I can get pretty worked up thinking about Dom'ing my Mistress (if she'd let me ever again).

Today's edge

I edges for just a couple minutes this morning.  I planned edge the full 10 minutes later, so my whole day was thinking about what I could egde to later.  While I was working out the dungeon was 10 feet away.  My mind kept drifting to thoughts of the dungeon.  The only thing I could think of was a good long beating.  My mind was drifting to the thought of a cathartic beating.  One that would hurt like hell, but would release an enormous amount of endorphins.  Then I thought about another way Mistress could hurt me without me being face down.  I have recently been thinking of being tied up on the bed in my normal spread-eagle position.  One difference this time is I would have tied my balls into a tight package.  There would be a loop that Mistress could hook to one of the bondage straps at the bottom of the bed in the middle.  She could then pull the tightening strap to anchor me to the bottom of the bed.  This tight package of testicles could then be tortured with little effort.  Having the balls tied up makes them much more sensitive as well keeping them immobile and under pressure.  Instead of a hard slap, a small flick or tap would be 10-50 times more powerful.  Consecutive light tapping quickly ramps up to excruciating pain, and since it is a light hit, damage is rare. There is also the benefit that if my bod is writhing and struggling, my balls would stay in just one place.  Stupid libido.

Last Night

Last night was one of the hottest D/s sessions Mistress and I have had.  Not because of anything extraordinarily kinky, but because of how wet Mistress got.  It started after work, we went to happy hour and had a bite to eat and a couple drinks.  We had been talking about having sex for a couple days, but hadn't made time to fit it in.  Mistress went on an overnight trip this morning, so last night was out last chance before she left.  We got home, did a couple quick things around the house then we went upstairs.  I got naked, Mistress through my wrist and ankle restraints at me and didn't need to tell me wht to do with them.  In short order I was tied down tightly to the bed and blindfolded.  She teased my cock with the Hitachi, her hand and hit the insides of my thighs with a couple of our nastier implements.  She then got on top of me and put my cock inside of her.  She came in less than a minute and she gushed quite a bit.  She immediately went back to stroking my cock, using the hitachi and hitting me everytime I would get worked up.  She then used the Hitachi on herself while hurting me and then brought herself to another orgasm while completely ignoring mine (5 stars for that).  She verbally taunted me about telling me about all of her orgasms she has without me around as well as taning me about making me listen or watch her have orgasms while I get none.  One of the implements she used was a thin rod called an "evil stick" and got me a few times on my inner thighs. I was in such sub space I asked her to use it on my cock and balls.  The cock barely felt it, but the balls certainly did.  While it hurt badly I could have certainly taken more from her.  Between a little bit of a buzz from our drinks as well as the space I get into when restrained, I was ready to endure whatever she had in mind.  I asked Mistress if any of my recent blog posts stuck in her mind, and she mentioned there were a few, but at the time could only remember one, about being meaner which I think is this one http://missbossybitchsboy.blogspot.com/2013/09/what-does-mean-mean.html

I told her I thought the hottest thing about her being meaner, was that she loves me enough to do things to me that even she may not be comfortable with.  I lamented about how I messed up in the beginning of our relationship by not submitting fully.  We would be so much further along had I just let her have her way.  I told her how I am wanting to do her bidding more than I have ever wanted to in my entire life, and how I have learned to let go of my macho male pride and accept my desires (no matter how depraved they may be).  I told her how she has trained me to not be a pushy bottom and how to do as I am told or I won;t get what I need.  After her hurting me some more and us talking about hurting me more, she got back on top of my cock.  She came many times and squirted like I haven't felt in over 2 years.  There was so much of her cum running down my ass crack, she probably could have fucked my ass with no lube.  She got off em again and started stroking me.  I bit my tongue and didn't say all the things running through my mind. I assumed if she wanted to know what I was thinking I she would have asked.  She then asked me to ask her to cum, which I did.  She brought me off very quickly and I spasmed from the joy of it all.  She untied me and we had a nice soak in the hot tub.  It was a perfect night.

As I wrote this many things came into my mind.

• I thought about how much Mistress gushed.  I immediately fantasized about being tied on the floor underneath our St. Andrews Cross or a low bench we have.  I would be tied face up with a ring gag in my mouth.  Mistress would use the fucking machine and soak my entire face.  I imagine her finishing up and then just leaving me in her juices.  She would tell me she isn't untying me until I dry out.
• Mistress had mentioned about making me webcam dressed in women's clothes tonight.  She instead decided I should go out.  While I am happy to be able to go out, I would have happily done her bidding.  There is a certain hotness to thinking I am under "house arrest".
• I tried to imagine the mean things she could do to me that would just make her drip.  I am dying to see what goes through her mean, naughty mind.
• Lastly, Mistress had talked about me being in chastity while she is out of town.  It's amazing how much I wanted to do that for her, but at the same time am thrilled I am not in chastity.  While I dislike the comfort part of chastity, the control part of it is very hot.  Obviously some part of me likes chastity or I wouldn't own such an expensive device, but being locked up and not also have other D/s going on is maddening.  Such a dilemma.

I Love my Mistress So Much!

Marks from the ugly stick

a couple things

Yesterday Mistress had me wear a pink camisole and pink pantyhose.  The hose are actually leggings that are very tight and restrictive.  I was in a wonderful state of mind all day yesterday.

This is what I wore...

While I was wearing this with the camisole, it made we wish for a whole body suit.  I remembered I have a black full body like below.  If only I had a pink :-)

Today I edged to this video.  We have all of the tools to make this scene a reality.  I imagine it would be fun until I came, then the relentless ass fucking and the Venus 2000 still sucking my sensitive dick.  Sweet torture.

link to video below

http://precious-her.tumblr.com/post/50370689778/1-jeez-2-sweet-set-up-3-howd-he-last-so

Restraints and feminine undergarments

As I write this I have my large butt plug in for over 4 hours.  I put it in immediately when Mistress ordered me to.  4 hours is a long time and I knew it I waited I might not get it done.  I am feeling like such a slut today, I decided to work out with it in even though today was a day for squats.  I am in quite the mood now after all of that stimulation.

My mind has been pre-occupied with the idea of being restrained with cuffs and leg irons.  Inescapable without a key or bolt cutters, easy to lock myself in without the key.  To add to the humiliation I found some pink ones.

Some images I have in my mind.

On top of being restrained I can't get feminization thoughts out of my mind.  I blame it on the nighty each night.  I have found these hot items over the last couple days.