It's been a couple weeks since my last post. Last week Mistress and I went on vacation. We had a great time but as the week wore on, and since our return, I have had a hard time staying in a submissive frame of mind. My plans to wear panties every day changed as the heat and humidity made it less than desirable. I spent most of the week in my male underwear. I started out the week waking up in the morning and then going into the sitting room of our hotel in my nighty until Mistress got up. Later in the week I was sick for a couple days. I managed to wear my nighty until I got sick when Mistress gave me a reprieve for one night so I could focus on getting better. The next night I purposely didn't wear a nighty as I was having a hard time staying in a submissive frame of mind. The following morning Mistress called me on it. As we were on vacation she didn't feel she could punish me at the time. I feel fortunate that I didn't get punished at the time but I imagine there will be some payback coming soon enough. I deserve it for sure. My last couple nights I wore the nighty again as I didn't want to risk additional punishment.
On vacation we managed to have sex at least a few times. Enough times that I forget how many times we did have sex. I do remember being allowed to orgasm on the 31st. What a way to end the year. I also remember not being allowed to orgasm on the 1st, which I thought was a perfect start to the new year. I was allowed a couple more orgams over the week which may be why I lost my submissive edge. Too many orgasms.
This week we are back to our normal routines at home and work. After over a week of not having to dress in women's clothes, I have had a hard time getting back into it. I have slowly been ramping back up to where I was before we left. Monday I was in capri jeans and a casual shirt with no shoes. Tuesday a jean skirt, sweater and boots. Yesterday, yoga pants and a pink pullover. Finally, this morning I was ramped up and horny enough to dress much more feminine. I am in a animal print blouse, black bra, black pencil skirt and my highest heels that I can walk in. It's amazing how the more obviously feminine I dress, the more submissive I feel. I am in quite the mood this morning.
This week is also the first time I have had to wear my new perfume to work. Since Mistress bought it for me I have worn it every day. It definitely has had an effect on me and I have grown to desire the scent. It triggers my brain way more than I expected. Wearing perfume at work is a new dynamic. I am very, very aware of it. It seems stronger than normal even though I am wearing the same amount. It is definitely a mind fuck. In my mind everyone knows I am wearing it and it's very feminine. In reality, it's probably not as strong as I think it is and it's more unisex than I think it is.
In closing, it's good to be back. Being in this state of mind is certainly my happy place. While I can go quite a while as a much more dominant male, I am not as happy as I am as when I am submitting to my Mistress and her desire to see me feminized. I love being under her control!
On vacation we managed to have sex at least a few times. Enough times that I forget how many times we did have sex. I do remember being allowed to orgasm on the 31st. What a way to end the year. I also remember not being allowed to orgasm on the 1st, which I thought was a perfect start to the new year. I was allowed a couple more orgams over the week which may be why I lost my submissive edge. Too many orgasms.
This week we are back to our normal routines at home and work. After over a week of not having to dress in women's clothes, I have had a hard time getting back into it. I have slowly been ramping back up to where I was before we left. Monday I was in capri jeans and a casual shirt with no shoes. Tuesday a jean skirt, sweater and boots. Yesterday, yoga pants and a pink pullover. Finally, this morning I was ramped up and horny enough to dress much more feminine. I am in a animal print blouse, black bra, black pencil skirt and my highest heels that I can walk in. It's amazing how the more obviously feminine I dress, the more submissive I feel. I am in quite the mood this morning.
This week is also the first time I have had to wear my new perfume to work. Since Mistress bought it for me I have worn it every day. It definitely has had an effect on me and I have grown to desire the scent. It triggers my brain way more than I expected. Wearing perfume at work is a new dynamic. I am very, very aware of it. It seems stronger than normal even though I am wearing the same amount. It is definitely a mind fuck. In my mind everyone knows I am wearing it and it's very feminine. In reality, it's probably not as strong as I think it is and it's more unisex than I think it is.
In closing, it's good to be back. Being in this state of mind is certainly my happy place. While I can go quite a while as a much more dominant male, I am not as happy as I am as when I am submitting to my Mistress and her desire to see me feminized. I love being under her control!
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