Erotic Tapping

Anyone can hit hard if they want to cause pain.  That's easy.

However, I frequently fantasize about those who can create pain with soft and gentle hitting.  There is such a mind fuck getting hit in such a soft way but having it still hurt.  Here are some writings that address my fantasies.

Kate had a length of rough hemp rope and was using it to wrap tightly around my balls. It dug into the skin of my scrotum and hurt like hell. I whimpered. Kate tied it to another rope that hung from her ceiling, pulling the rope taut until my balls were grotesquely stretched to their limit. I could even feel the pull up into the muscles of my abdomen. My cock, however, continued to bob in the air.  Resuming her position between my legs, she began tapping my balls with a small plastic ruler. The taps themselves were not hard to take at first, but after the first few, the effect was that of hitting my balls with a baseball bat. I threw my head from side to side and screamed into my gag. Kate went on and on with it until I wished I could die.  The pain was terrible, and would have caused me to double up, if I could have done it.

Another excerpt

Lady M rose and walked behind me. Not being able to see her increased my concern and anticipation. She grabbed my balls and then rested her cane on them. I heard her pause and take a deep breath. She then very slowly raised the cane and brought it down softly on my vulnerable balls. She tapped my balls and continued to softly tap them with the cane on the same spot. The pain started slowly and then really built. The repeated motion, although it was relatively soft, continued to build to increasing pain. She would not stop. I began moaning and crying which seemed to arouse her more as I heard her moans. After a long time she stopped the caning and squeezed my balls even tighter. Lady M then grabbed my defenseless cock and did the seem thing to the middle of my cock. It hurt like hell. Once again the gentle taps on the same spot built up to an incredible intensity. I was thrashing and moaning but could do nothing but take it. I had to surrender and soon felt the passion of subspace as time seemed to stand still. I was so in the moment. Lady M then paused and moved on to cane the very tip of my cock. This did hurt the most but I was in another world. I closed my eyes and focused on Lady M's growing pleasure. I was taking the pain for her. I drifted off. 

As typical with pictures online there is a lack of great pictures with men in the position I want to be in.  

There are however quite a few of women getting lightly tapped in a way I dream of.   This first one was taken from a 90 second video I saw online.  I loved how helpless she was and in fact was very jealous of the distress she seemed to be in.  I edged to it a few times while watching it.  

Post Orgasm Torture

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Dildo Gag & Edging

Yesterday I woke up with a slight hangover.  Hangovers tend to push my naughty mind into over drive.  As I was catching up on my bog roll, I came across a video posting of a woman dressed as a maid in rubber.  I was immediately wishing I had such an outfit.  Her Mistress was attaching a dildo gag to her face and then sat back in front of her so her slave could service her.  This is such a turn on for me so I had no choice but to edge myself.  I imagined I was doing this to my Mistress.  I love it on so many levels.  The closeness to her pussy.  The objectification of it all.  My cock locked away, my fingers, not even my mouth are worthy of Mistress' pussy.  I am reduced to being a sex toy.  I imagine being used until my neck was sore which I would feel for days.  To have my face burried so deep in her pussy I couldn't breathe.  As an added bonus Mistress is a squirter which would soak me, humiliate me and make me feel so awesomely used.  I dream of looking at her pussy knowing I can't have it, but at the same time I can see Mistress blindfolding me to make me suffer even more.  The distance and the intimacy at the same time.  I am just getting a buzz and a hard on thinking about it.

The video was only a minute and a half so I had to find some other pictures of what gets me so hot about this topic.

Chastity and Stuff

On Saturday Mistress confirmed she thinks I should be in a device I can easily wear long term.  Now it's a matter of figuring out color and size.  Black looks cool and goes with anything, however I am partial to pink, hot pink or purple in order to add some erotic humiliation to the mix.  Pink would add an extra level of fear of being caught.  In order to get the sizing correct I have been measuring multiple times.  Soft, hard, over several days.  Today to get my hard measurements, I edged a few times.  I watched some girl on girl porn with Mistress favorite Domme.

 

  
While watching and edging, a little bit of precum came out.  In exchange for the privilege of edging I have promised to eat any cum that spills out.  This usually keeps me well from the edge, but sometimes I leak without even being close to the edge.  I scooped the cum off the tip of my cock and licked it off my finger.  I ended up having to do it a few times.  I then went to work out.  When I got to the basement, I noticed my cock still dripping.  There was enough to taste yet again.  yuck.

The rest of my workout I had a glob of cum sitting in the back of my throat.  It definitely put me in a more submissive state of mind.  All workout my mind was spinning with ideas.

Last night I had a dream, but it was more of a verbal dream as I don;t remember any imagery.  Mistress and I were in bed and Mistress told me to put on one of my dresses.  I asked her which one and she told me to pick one.  I begged her to pick one for me and she told me know.  I remember going into my closet wanting to wear one of the 2 that are hidden in the back, but never got that far for some reason.  It's not often I dream about feminization so I think that helped with my mood this morning.       

Today's Mood

3rd orgasm this year

A couple days ago Mistress granted me my 3rd orgasm for the year.  I really didn't want to cum.  I wanted to be denied and then teased and tormented all weekend.  I had fantasized about being tied down and relentlessly teased.  Denied and coerced into confessing all the pathetic things I would do as her slave.  Mistress using the dildo gag strapped to my head to squirt all over my face and busting my full balls.  To be dressed as her little sissy slut or cheerleader.  Wearing heavy makeup, nail polish and a slutty perfume on my knees sucking a strap-on dildo she is wearing.  Getting deep throated until my mascara was running due to tears.  Locked in my chastity device while Mistress fucked me in the ass and then me spending hours with my face in between her legs while still dressed all slutty.  Using toys and fingers to make Mistress cum so many times she couldn't walk.  Me not being allowed to cum.  mmmmmmmm!

I think about being so horny and full of cum that I could and would do this.

I have recently spent an inordinate amount of time thinking about being locked in chastity.  Remembering of how I was on such a high for the 4 weeks and 1 day Mistress had me locked in December and January.  I found another picture of the device I am considering buying.  I love how small, simple and comfortable it looks.  It seems like the perfect way to be permanently locked without the discomfort and difficulty of a ball trap device.  Although in some cases discomfort is the desired effect.

http://www.evotionwearables.com/

Lastly, I found a blog post I found relevant to something Mistress would like to see happen.  This blog post is about a Mistress forcing her slave boys to be sexual together.  I am still personally against it, but if it were to happen this is close to how I can imagine it happening with me on the receiving end.  https://dominajen.wordpress.com/2016/02/02/the-adventures-of-bi-guy-and-sissy-slut/