What a week. I have been so horny lately. Tuesday was off the charts yesterday was a little bit less but this morning is coming back with a vengance. I figured I would write all the stuff going through my head with the caveat that some of this stuff sounds great now, but I will later regret writing.
Last night I had a dream that I was going out to see customers. I was wearing femme clothes under my work clothes including black opaque pantyhose. I even had some low heels that my pants covered enough. Just before I left the house I thought "this looks stupid like this" so I took off the masculine clothes and changed into a dress. It was an 80's style dress that had flowers on it. I didn't think twice about it until people were looking at me while pretending not to look at me. Then I was a little weirded out, but not as much as I should have been. When I woke up from that dream I realized I had another one where I was different super sexy cocktail dresses out and about, but that's about all I remember.
I have also been thinking about the "remote punishments" I had read in that posting. It's a good thing I'm not a Dom as I would be pretty mean, especially in person.
Before bed one night you after a few beers you take me upstairs. You tell me I am to be chained to the bed for the night. I mention that I will have to get up and go pee in the middle of the night and you tell me not to worry. You pull out an adult diaper and tell me to put it on and get in the bed. You chain me up and then sleep on the couch. You make sure to sleep in late enough to make sure I have humiliated myself. (I only read a line or two of this article so I am not sure what's in it http://drfetish.wordpress.com/2009/01/12/effective-diaper-domination/ )
You lock me in the cage, but you put my earphones in first and then lace my leather hood on me. Then after locking me in the cage you put an ipod with audio in it. The audio is feminization hypnosis type audio or bi-sexual audio or other audio that will either turn me on or push against my boundaries. http://www.strappedinsilk.com/downloads2.html
I have thought about you making me go on yahoo into a chat room wearing clothes or a gag or the shackles and go on cam. If anyone asks me what I am doing you make me type a humiliating response or even have them IM you to see what the deal is. Maybe you tell them I am ordered to do whatever a stranger tells me, and you get to watch it all on cam.
For a really good punishment (when i don't have Martini) you have me go in the cage as soon as I am down with work. I have food that I can reach, but I am locked until you give me the password. (I did order locks online they should be here tomorrow).
I feel my libido coming down a bit so I am going to send this before I change my mind.
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Monday, August 1, 2011
The latest
MBB and I had 2 great "scenes" this weekend. MBB had me teased and in a tizzy. I still can't believe how being tied down can put me in such a head space. It seems the tighter I am bound, the more helpless I am made to be, the more turned on I am. MBB then proceeds to tease my cock and driving me insane. The things that run through my head are amazing to me, especially because I can be made to agree to just about anything. Mention something and if I won't agree to it now, just keep on teasing. It's amazing how well it works.
MBB is slowing learning that she can have pretty much full control over me. Of course there will be times when she won't have control, but she will be able to wrest control back from me and make me pay for the time I was stubborn. I am very easily manipulated by my kink. Enough so that it concerns me sometimes, but not so much so that I would ever consider not being this way. I am excited and a little bit frightened that MBB is finally learning this about me.
Lastly, I am in an amazing mood today. I almost forgot to dress in femme clothes today. I wonder what MBB would have done if I wasn't dressed when I came downstairs. It's still very hard for me to dress or wear a nighty on my own accord (panties being the exception). I feel like a "cross dresser" if I do on my own and it disturbs me a little (not like it used to). Being commanded though makes it more palatable for me. I don't call it forced feminization, but more like coerced feminization. Either way, I am in a very horny pliable state of mind today.
MBB is slowing learning that she can have pretty much full control over me. Of course there will be times when she won't have control, but she will be able to wrest control back from me and make me pay for the time I was stubborn. I am very easily manipulated by my kink. Enough so that it concerns me sometimes, but not so much so that I would ever consider not being this way. I am excited and a little bit frightened that MBB is finally learning this about me.
Lastly, I am in an amazing mood today. I almost forgot to dress in femme clothes today. I wonder what MBB would have done if I wasn't dressed when I came downstairs. It's still very hard for me to dress or wear a nighty on my own accord (panties being the exception). I feel like a "cross dresser" if I do on my own and it disturbs me a little (not like it used to). Being commanded though makes it more palatable for me. I don't call it forced feminization, but more like coerced feminization. Either way, I am in a very horny pliable state of mind today.
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