I’ve been locked in Chastity for 83 of the last 85 days. 80 of those days have been in 2019. Last year I was locked 169 days so I am already locked close to half of what I was last year. My last orgasm was over 8 weeks ago. I’ve only had one orgasm this year. Last year I was at 3 at this time of the year.
Mistress had been surprisingly good with me being locked. We have been so busy that there hasn’t been a lot of time for any sort of physical intimacy so this chastity period is kind of convenient in a way. My new attitude of if I’m unlocked that must mean I’m allowed to masturbate might also play into Mistress’s decision to keep me locked up.
Between work and our dog, one of us gets up way before the other. Most days Mistress is up and I am left in bed. I used to be able to edge during these times and sometimes my edging would be a bit too much and I would leak quite a bit. There is no edging now. The closest I get is getting super hard in my cage, over and over while I fantasize about Mistress tease torturing me.
I want to cum, but I really don’t want to cum. If I were unlocked right now I would be in my home office. I would be looking at some sort of porn where a guy is tied helplessly tight and edged over and over and over. I’d get close enough to orgasm to leak, and I would lick up the small amounts. And I’m in enough of a mood that I would stroke myself to orgasm right into my office trash can. I wouldn’t consume that cum, even though I should. Being locked in chastity keeps me from having an occasional unauthorized orgasm, accidentally or on purpose. It keeps me under control which is what I really crave.
What I really crave is Mistress using me sexually without letting me have pleasure. I yearn to use my mouth and fingers to bring her to orgasm. I fantasize about fucking her with a strap on while my cock stays locked up. Fucking her for as hard and long as she wants as there is no over stimulation on my part. I fantasize about Mistress cumming every single day with my help or on her own while I stay denied. When she does masturbate she lets me know about it as it’s a great mindfuck. I know that being used for her pleasure while I stay denied would really, really make me unbearably horny. I want to be so desperate that I am nearly in tears...
Today's mood...
I know what you're feeling - My wife has kept me locked, essentially permanently - out for air travel, doctor and some family events for the better part of 2 decades - she does let me out for sex, on her terms, teasing, ruined orgasms and cleaning. She put me in a Holy Trainer last fall (after yrs in a Curve) - she likes that it is more discreet and that it constricts my erections more than the CB - I like that it is more comfortable for working out, cycling etc, and that there is no padlock to bang around.
ReplyDeleteNow she is away at her parents for an extended stay - there is key here somewhere if I need it - she left with instructions that, if I was desperate (like there's an option!) I could use her dildo whenever I liked...
My experience over the years is that after about 10 days, I don't want to cum, and I'd prefer to be able to worship my wife,give her foot rubs and massages and have her take with her strap on - She knows this, and I think sometimes she releases me for vanilla sex or full blown hand-job almost as punishment or because I've become too attentive and she needs space.
It's a difficult to describe the sense of adoration, anticipation and arousal for our partners' that those of us who are locked up enjoy - but it's far better than being allowed to cum from time to time.
Thank you for sharing. It sounds like you have an amazing submissive lifestyle. I like the tease of being ‘allowed’ to use her dildo when you get desperate. That’s a nice mind fuck.
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