I got my first chastity device for Christmas in 1999. It was a CB-2000. What a terrible device it was, but what an opening it was into this world. A few years later I 'upgraded' to the CB-6000, which was marginally better. A few years later I was fortunate enough to get a custom device from Steelwerx in Canada. It's a piece of art and priced like a piece of fine art. I got a Prince Albert Piercing to make the device more secure. That was my most comfortable device for the longest time, but looking back it was far too large. It's not the fault of the designer, it's what chastity devices were back in the 2005-2010 era. After 20+ years of chastity, most chastity connoisseurs seem to agree that the smaller the device the better. There is less room for things to adjust and get pinched. Smaller devices are more secure. With my piercing, I need a small device to keep my piercing from getting pulled on when bending over and my penis tries to pull back.
As I write this, I am back in chastity and I am wearing my most comfortable device. It's a Chinese knockoff of the amazing design from Rigid Chastity. It has a hook that keeps my piercing secure so that I can’t pull out the back of the device. I wish it were about a half-inch shorter, but I don't want to go through the hassle and expense of another device. Other than the common lock it's inescapable. It's been well over a month since I had an orgasm which is the longest I have gone in the last several years.
I am treating chastity differently for the first time in my life. In the past I made it about me and if I was locked I demanded attentions to it. If Mistress wasn't actively involved in my lock up or in D/s I became resentful. I am now taking this lockup period as a symbol of my servitude. As penance for my last 13 years of pushy bottom behavior. In other words I deserve to be locked indefinitely. Over the last several years I have snuck off into the bathroom to rub one out while Mistress slept or masturbated while in the shower. This is not conducive for a submissive who wants his Mistress to take on a more dominant role. My orgasms are not mine to have on a whim. They are up to Mistress to allow me to have them or not. I am pretty good on the honor system but even then I fail 1%-2% of the time. I get drunk and horny and wait until Mistress goes to bed so I can cum. I wake up horny every single morning and occasionally it's too much for me and I will rub one out before Mistress wakes up. Other times I feel "owed" and will cum in the shower without Mistress knowing. While I am chaste 98% of the time on the honor system, I need 100% chastity to make sure I don't fail 2% of the time. This time around I go out of my way to make sure my chastity is not a burden on Mistress. I don't complain, I don't beg, I don't make it about me, I make it about servitude. In turn, she barely acknowledges my situation which makes it harder and hotter. Sometimes I think she forgets that I am locked up as she is so nonchalant about it. In the past, this would have really bothered me, but with the servitude and control I am yearning for. If I wasn’t locked these past 11 days I would have snuck off at least once and had an unauthorized orgasm. The I would be less horny and start slacking in my duties. Chasity works!
Doing chores, locked up in chastity, Mistress ignoring my situation. It's amazing how something that would have angered me in the past is now turning me on. It's true what they say about changing your midset.
I am learning to enjoy the fact that I am locked up solely for control and not for some kinky fantasy. It is my intention to make my chastity as easy for Mistress to enforce as possible. It's my hope that she gets aroused knowing that I am 100% chaste for as long as she chooses. That being said I would love to cum in her terms. Whether it’s a full on orgasm with her, a ruined orgasm from her or a humiliating show she would make me put on, an occasional orgasm give a little bit of hope to keep me motivated. I guess a tease, edge and denial would do the same thing.
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