Reflecting on Chastity

Today is my 60th straight day in chastity. If Mistress keeps me locked for another 15 days, I will have spent more time in chastity this year then I did all of last year.  If she keeps me locked up for another 33 days, it will break my old record of 92 days of being locked up.

Last July I had 3 orgasms, one of which was unauthorized when we went on a trip around our state. This July, zero. 

I’ve had 8 orgasms this year of which 4 were unauthorized and those unauthorized orgasms are why I’m locked right now. I don’t deserve to have access to my cock as I can’t be trusted.

Last night I managed to get Mistress to tell me that she has had at least a few orgasms while I’ve been locked up. I wish she would tell me when she does this because I absolutely love the mind fuck aspect of her being able to masturbate while I can’t. And that she can cum as much as she wants and I can’t cum at all. It’s a chastity slave’s biggest turn on.

I’m really, really wanting to pleasure Mistress with my mouth, my fingers and any toys we have.  I want to be close and intimate, give her pleasure and make her cum.  However, I also want to be needy, desperate, denied, locked, tortured, willing to do anything and addicted to my situation.  I fantasize about making out with Mistress, my hands all over her body, my fingers inside her, making her cum over and over.  My cock is completely ignored while Mistress pinches my nipples while telling me she has no intention of unlocking me any time soon.  The frustration of being so intimate and sexual with Mistress while I am completely denied makes my head spin.

So that’s where I am today. Locked, denied, frustrated, and loving it. 

Some captions that make me squirm...