Locked, painted and sleeping in a nighty

We’ve been busy.  Very busy, so I am not able to post as much as I would like to.  Here’s a quick update on the last few weeks.

I have been unlocked from my chastity device since November 30^th which means I have been free for 3.5 weeks.  I also haven’t worn a nighty or had my toenails painted for the same amount of time.  I have been occasionally wearing a pair of panties when I am overcome with naughty thoughts.

Since I have been unlocked I have been touching myself a fair amount.  Mistress has been getting out of bed before me and when I can’t fall back asleep I reach down and edge myself over and over.  In some cases, I edge 40-60 times before getting out of bed.  That's not as much as it sounds as I can edge a few times a minute.  I don’t leak much, but when I do I lick it up.  That’s one way to start my day, with the taste of cum in my mouth.  Ick.

While edging I have many, many fantasies.  My more frequent fantasies are predicament bondage and extreme edging, denial and forced orgasms. 

I love the idea of being tied in a way that makes me uncomfortable and where I have to choose between 2 bad choices.  Nipples tied to feet.  Tied bent over in heels.  Tied in a squat position.  Clothespin zipper that I inevitably have to rip off myself.  So many ideas. 

I also long to be tied for hours upon hours being edged.  Of course this long of a scene would be somewhat boring for Mistress so I dream of automating it on some level.  Using the Hitachi and cock sleeve on an intermittent timer that I have.  I can set it to run 30 seconds and off for a minute or any variation of those times.  It can run indefinitely.  If I cum?  Too bad.  The vibrations don’t stop.  I imagine similar treatment with the Venus 2000 sucking machine.  For this, I imagine it being on a very slow sucking motion and I am kept on the edge for hours.  Once I cum, the machine is turned up and the sucking gets stronger and faster.  The goal being,  to make me cum as many times as possible, and when I do cum, to have a brutal post orgasm torture.  I imagine this treatment being used as a punishment instead of a reward.  The first orgasm would feel good, but I would fight having it knowing what would happen after I came.  Mistress could certainly use my mouth or masturbate next to me, but to be able to do this for hours she would need to be able to leave me.  We have a baby monitor app that could be used to monitor me.

 

As I stated it’s been almost a month since I had any kink/chastity/feminization.  That changed yesterday.  Mistress had me give her an orgasm with my cock.  As I was pleasuring her, Mistress commanded that I lock myself up in chastity, paint my toenails and start wearing nighties again.  That put me over the edge.  I tried to keep from cumming and ended up ruining my orgasm in the process, right before asking for even more tasks.  Thank you Mistress! Please feel encouraged and emboldened to add extra torments, tortures, tasks and humiliations to my world. I yearn to suffer for you.

Good thing Mistress had me lock back up.  There is nothing like a ruined orgasm that makes me want to masturbate to orgasm.  This morning would have been the time to do it too, as Mistress got up before me.  I’m fairly certain I would have had an unauthorized orgasm. I have been planning on getting myself off after my next orgasm. Chastity is keeping me honest.   

If I stay in chastity the rest of 2018, I will have been locked up for almost 4.5 months in 2018.  For short of 365 days, but  I will be locked up almost a month longer (29 more days) in 2018 as I was in 2017, and locked up 2 times as much as I was in 2016.

All in all, 2018 has been good.  I don’t ‘like’ being locked in chastity, but I LOVE being made to wear a device as much as possible.  I don’t ‘like’ sleeping in a nighty, but I LOVE that I have to wear it or any other item of Mistress’ choosing.  I don’t ‘like’ painting my toenails, but I LOVE the rush I get when I see my painted toenails and what that means.  In short, I LOVE doing many, many things I don’t ‘like’. 

Here’s to a naughty 2019! 

Orgasm Denial Reset

I was finally allowed to orgasm after 89 days of denial. Unfortunately the orgasm after that long of denial isn’t as good as you would expect.  Don’t get me wrong, it was great, just not what 89 days of denial make it. That makes it my 12th orgasm for the year.  

I was locked in chastity for 63 days. Not a record, but still one of my longest lockup’s. 

All of this chastity and denial ended last week when Mistress and I went out of town for the week. Mistress unlocked me for the flight and hasn’t locked me back up yet. Mistress chose to not have me wear nighties while we were traveling ☹️. 

One night Mistress fell asleep while we were watching TV. It was the first time I was unsupervised in the trio and the first time I was able to touch my own cock in over 3 months. I was very sensitive to say the least.  I edged myself numerous times before rolling onto my stomach and humping a pillow like a desperate little slut. This pushed me so close to the edge that I was afraid I would have a ruined orgasm all over my bed. I was fortunate that I had stopped in time.  I stopped that night but edged a few more time over the course of the week. I was very tempted to go into the bathroom and get myself off.  That’s why I preorder to stay locked when we travel.  I get drunk and horny and want to sneak off and cum. 

A few days later Mistress came over to my bed at 6 am with a couple of towels. She wanted me to fuck her.  I wanted to fuck her too. We had stayed out late partying with co-workers and both had hangovers. Because of this I was able to fuck without stopping. I was finally able to give Mistress the orgasm(s) she deserved. While we had sex I let my mouth run a bit. 

Mistress and I talked about her being meaner to me. We talked about me being dressed feminine more, much more. We talked about me starting my day with a quick caning to help with my attitude. I begged to be treated more harshly by Mistress and held accountable. These words resonated deeply with me and my wish is for them to be more than just words. I yearn to be a total slave. 

That night, I wanted to give myself an orgasm. This is one of my biggest cheating issues. After a long period of denial, my orgasm is less than perfect. I’m also reminded how good it feels to cum. I also figure that since I just came Mistress won’t notice another orgasm.  I usually cheat and get myself off. It’s why I prefer to be locked up right after an orgasm, especially a ruined one, especially in a hotel room.   I did not cheat this time, but the temptation was strong. 

The next morning Mistress came to my bed and teased my cock and hit me in the balls for about 2 hours. I was in heaven but also very frustrated. I wanted to plead my case again about all of the things I’d love to have done to me. The humiliation, pain and degradation I want to be out through. Mistress teased about keeping me tied up and teased.  I added how hot it would be to be tied to a bed for an entire day and driven mad with teasing.  Eventually Mistress stopped and we headed home from our trip.

We’ve been back for a few days. Yesterday Mistress got out of bed before me. I was able to edge myself 40-50 times.  I fantasized about all the things we talked about as well as some deeper desires. The entire time my brain telling me that I could sneak an orgasm and Mistress would never know.  I was soooooo tempted to just get it out of my system.  I stopped edging before getting too close for comfort. l didn’t cum.

So that’s where we are today. After being allowed to orgasm last week, I have been reminded of just how awesome an orgasm can be. It’s the main reason I think that being denied longer works in reverse. I need to be reminded of what an orgasm feels like so that when I am denied, the desire is that much stronger. 

Here are a few pictures of my mood this morning.