A dial inside my brain has been turned up. My desire to be treated poorly is getting stronger. Much stronger. I crave the idea of being pushed physically and especially mentally, to my limits. I yearn to have freedoms taken away from me. To have to earn things in life that I now take for granted. To be given tasks and orders just for the cruelty of it. To endure private humiliation. To wear bruises at all times, not necessarily because I have been disobedient, but because this is the life we have chosen. To have a weekly day of worship, where I worship my Mistress in any way she desires. To have an endless list of chores. To have my work inspected and critiqued. To have restrictions. To be taken to a place of true servitude.
As I write the above I obviously have my fantasy built into much if it, but deep down that's not what I am looking for. I really and truly want to be of service to Mistress. To be trained to be a benefit and not a burden. To have her be able to tell me to do something with 100% confidence that I will to it to her standards. To truly fear her wrath when I fail. For me to be more of a true slave than I am at this time.
Here are some GIFs from TV shows where the Owner and the slaves are real...
As I write the above I obviously have my fantasy built into much if it, but deep down that's not what I am looking for. I really and truly want to be of service to Mistress. To be trained to be a benefit and not a burden. To have her be able to tell me to do something with 100% confidence that I will to it to her standards. To truly fear her wrath when I fail. For me to be more of a true slave than I am at this time.
Here are some GIFs from TV shows where the Owner and the slaves are real...
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