Just when I thought I couldn't get any hornier. Mistress seems to be enjoying my chastity and because of that I am enjoying my time in chastity that much more. Mistress gave me a nice little tease last night before bed which sets the tone just right for the night. On top of that I was wearing my body hugging nighty all night so every time I woke up I was instantly aware of my situation.
As I was waking up, my mind kept going to places very close to my limits. I fantasized about being locked in the cage. I fantasized about Mistress taking me to a cross dressing friendly bar so she could have me in public. I fantasized about Mistress tying me down and putting things in my mouth against my will. I fantasized about a day called 'Mistress Pleasure Day', where my only job is to pleasure Mistress. A bath, followed by a massage followed by a foot massage, followed by as many orgasms as she can handle. I am to be her complete sexual and personal servant for a day or a weekend or longer!
When I got up, I put a nice full spray of perfume on my chest. It fills my nostrils and takes me even deeper in subspace. I am committed to wearing as many different feminine clothes as I can right now. My slutty side was dying to wear one of my 2 slutty club dresses, but I am forcing myself into more normal clothes. I am wearing slacks, a bra, a blouse and my highest heels with the strap a little bit too tight just for fun.
As I am writing this blog on one monitor, I have another monitor open. On the other monitor is a blog of all things feminine. The blog bills itself as "Dedicated to the feminization of sexuality in a world of power relationships." As I write I scroll and watch a few minutes of videos. Now my favorite posts are the ones of "difficult situations". I imagine myself being feminized and being put in all of these awful predicaments and left to suffer http://allthefemme.tumblr.com/tagged/predicament
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| We have a set of stocks just like this. I can so imagine this happening to me. |
My next favorite one is feminization http://allthefemme.tumblr.com/tagged/feminization All of these posts make my cock stiffen up in it's cage.
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Lastly, I came across a video that really got my interest. I can't believe I will even write this and I know I will come to regret it. It's tickle torture. I think I would rather be beat than tickled. Watching the videos, it's not the tickling that turns me on, it's the helplessness that the victim experiences. I am a huge sucker for helplessness and having control taken away from me. I actually believe I would try to use my safeword if I was being tickled, but since no one is getting hurt, there is really no need for a safeword. I have avoided bringing up this topic for over 7 years as I am afraid what will happen. http://allthefemme.tumblr.com/tagged/tickling
All of that being said, chastity, denial and feminization are keeping me so ramped up I am getting more and more willing to do anything. I love this feeling even though it make want to do things more and more against my perceived limits.
